Category: Tunes

I had seriously forgotten about this song until it showed up in my Apple Music shuffle. This song was a song that came out when I was still teaching! I shared it on one of my Faves in my “Tunes” tab.

I do have visible, physical scars though. If I’m thinking about the order that I received the scars: Chicken pox cars when I was 13, ACL reconstruction on my right knee when I was 17, C-section scar when I was 19, meniscus repair on my right knee again when I was 35.

I remember showing my ACL reconstruction scar to a colleague just after he came back to work after he had his ACL reconstructed. He had two little dots on his knee and I told him to close the teachers lounge door and to never discuss how white my legs were but I showed him my ACL reconstruction scar and I told him that’s what ACL construction is supposed to look like! It’s about a 4 inch scar down the center of my knee. They have come along way with knee surgeries and they didn’t need to cut him open like they cut me open.

The most noticeable scars that I often forget that I have are my Chicken pox scars. I have two pocks on my forehead and a less noticeable mark on my nose. The pocks came when I rubbed my face on my pillow while I was sleeping and my eyes shot open when I realized that I had just pulled off two of the scabs on my forehead. I remember telling my students that I licked my finger put it on my forehead and put the scab back into place (LIKE THAT WOULD WORK?!)

I think I told that story pretty close to the end of me teaching because it was already in the spring time when a student commented on it and wondered how I got it so I told them the story and I was surprised that I hadn’t already told them that.

So again, I am late to the party but in my defense, my son is 20 years old! The days of me going to see a new animated film opening weekend are long since past.

I enjoyed this one throughly! I laughed and I cried as well and I’m not even embarrassed about it. I can’t control my emotions anyway! I liked the Abuela‘s song though because for different reasons, I too, “I thought I would be a different woman.”

My Super Bowl shirt arrived yesterday. I will wear the Rams’ NFC Championship shirt but I had too much of an “MS-y” day to post it. I won’t unveil it until Super Bowl XVI!!! I’m so excited!!!

This is the first Super Bowl of my lifetime that I have been seriously invested in!!! I’m so glad that my man got here! I’m sorry that it wasn’t with us (Detroit) but I’m glad he’s there now and I can’t wait to watch him and then the EPIC halftime show that will be signed as well!!! Yay inclusivity!!!

Yesterday, my Mom washed my legs and changed my socks. We have a routine for this and I remain sitting in my power chair in the hallway as she uses the bathroom sink to use the water to wash my legs.

We listen to music as we do this and we normally switch off between a song I like and a song she likes. But yesterday, I wanted to hear just the songs she likes exclusively.

We started off by listening to the Fleetwood Mac, “Rumors” album. That album is the soundtrack of my Mom cleaning the house when I was growing up. We listened to this entire album and she just had finished washing my right leg and putting a clean compression sock on my right leg.

So, I turned around in my living room and then backed up into the hallway between Sean‘s room and the bathroom so then I would be facing my living room so she could wash my left leg. The other album that my Mom would listen to as she was cleaning the house was Journey. I just searched, “Journey” and the “Journey Essentials” playlist showed up in Apple Music.

I know so many of those songs because my Mom listened to them during my whole childhood! But, it wasn’t until this song came on where as she was soaping up my leg, she let out, unbeknownst to her, “The unmistakable aria” that was the REAL soundtrack of my childhood! I immediately felt my heart warm and a smile form on my face and hearing it and I was taken back to being six years old and laying on the green carpet in my living room probably watching the Disney Channel. My Mom was probably washing dishes or scrubbing the tub.

I want to sleep with clean legs and new compression socks and was most content at remembering being a child and thinking of the sights and sounds of a simpler time. A time before MS definitely!

I texted all of my brothers and it was a long text to describe how I heard my Mom singing last night and I set the stage as to how it was when we were kids. I sent it to them in a group text and all of them have loved my text because they remember that too and hearing this song I’m sure they can hear ‘the unmistakable aria’ in their heads!

I wasn’t going to post about this but when I showed my Mom my progress and she rolled her eyes, I KNEW that I HAD TO!

this is my cocoa mint Chapstick. If you recall, a couple weeks ago I lost the cap but I am a very OCD person and needed to finish the entire tube! Call me Christian Wolff! So when I lost the cap, I told my mom to get a Ziploc and it would keep the Chapstick fresh so then I could finish the tube. I am so close! Almost!:

cue Bobby McFerrin because that’s what it’s about!!!:

After my hair was blow dried, hi got back into my wheelchair and wheeled to my ‘normal’ spot right in front of the TV. My Mom was in the kitchen preparing my dinner and was on the phone so they decided to play my song. I’m talking about Sara Bareilles call my MOM thinks it’s depressing but her song, “She used to be mine” is EXTREMELY cathartic for me! It hurts because it’s true for me; I also am “No longer anything like I used to be.” What does still remember that girl. It’s starting to get a little hazy but I still remember. So, my song played and then my Apple Music just put songs I listen to often and shuffle and then this one came on! I actually had to do a little research and see when this song came out because I clearly saw myself driving myself to Barwis after work. This album had just been released and I was listening to it on my drive when I heard this song and football season was coming up and I thought my Lions would do great things because there was a song now!:

Well, in 2014, the Lions did NOT win the whole shebang but this year, for this Super Bowl, it is quite possible that my man CAN win the whole shebang! My friend texted me this picture which made me laugh but it IS true!:

This is the first February of my life where MY team, (the one that I want to win) is playing in it. Because they aren’t mine because they’re in California and I am in Michigan but Matthew Stafford is quarterbacking for the Rams and I have loved him since 2009 when he was in Detroit so I think that’s okay by extension?

And the BEST Super Bowl halftime show is not available, thanks NFL! It’s supposed to be Prince but maybe if you click on that you can still watch it…?

Or, there is the second best halftime show that I saw with Sean and and it was Bruno Mars’ drumming that impressed me the most! I love drummers!:

Or, I loved watching Lenny Kravitz play guitar but I think I loved it because Sean said that a bunch of girls in his class said on Monday that they didn’t know why or that Cinna from the The Hunger Games could play the guitar!

I remember Adam Levine getting a lot of bad press because of his choice of tank tops but I’dlike to this show because I felt like I was a young adult at a concert when I still had some control over my body.

But I am most excited for this year‘s halftime show!!! i’m not sure what to expect but I’m pretty sure it will be EPIC with the Superstar OG lineup!!!:

7 year old Sean. 😍😍😍

I have been listening to this Sara Bareilles song every day for a long while! I only listen to it when my Mom is taking Leia for a walk because she says it is depressing.

for me, it is NOT depressing! It actually is autobiographical. I saw this picture on Facebook not too long ago and it made me think of this song because for me, that girl really IS gone but she used to be mine!

My Mom is out taking Leia for a walk so you know what I am listening to and I am lost in memories of being able bodied…

And somehow, I am comforted with this song in this moment of sadness.

Very shortly after I joined Facebook (20 years too late), I, “Friended” and “Liked” their page. They are: MS Memes and more Multiple Sclerosis Awareness. There wasn’t a Multiple Sclerosis Awareness month when I was first diagnosed. It was about 10 years after I was diagnosed that there was one week in March. I have posted many pictures about my T-shirt sales back when I was working. Now, the ENTIRE month is dedicated to Multiple sclerosis Awareness!!!

Oh, I am aware of it every second of every single day for the past 21+ years!!! MS Awareness Month is approaching so I have been receiving a lot of posts from them in my Facebook feed. I feel special that they chose March to be that month of recognition because that is ALSO my “Birthday Month!” I saw this meme yesterday and have thought about it since:

When I read this meme, a song immediately popped into my head by India.Arie. That took me back to my college days when I was still driving and was just on crutches.

I reposted a blog post from 2018 because it talked about a poetry slam I did when I was in school for my African-American studies class. I listened to that song and stayed in my memories for a while. I listened to this song before I am about to post it and I revisited those same memories and seem to be there right now: