Category: Tunes

Sean texted me last night to tell me that a song that I used to play all of the time is trending on TikTok. I listened to this song and he was completely correct that I used to, “Bump it.” And it really got me thinking about the fact that he remembers me playing that all of the time. I texted him back and told him that I’m sorry for him having a front row seat to all of my dramatic heart breaks!:

I can pinpoint the exact season this song came out! We were still living in our second apartment and it was only going to be my third year teaching. It was the summer that we went to Florida to seek medical treatment for me. I remember hearing this song while sitting in the car waiting for Sean and my Mom to come out of wherever they were at in Florida.

This song was definitely before my barrage of heart wrenching Sara Bareilles songs and even before Carly Rae Jepsen but those are songs for a different blog post that I probably will never write! Sean called me today and I gave him my retrospective apology for having him be witness to all of my heart break! It’s only now that he’s older that he realizes that is what it was. I never cried in front of him or anything, the only thing I did was eat lots of Tim Bits and he didn’t mind that so much!

I have known four years, almost a decade I think that anytime I get together with my family, I need a day to recover afterward. Well, now I am 40 so … it’s looking like I will need two days to recover because yeah, I still need a little more time to recover but I will leave you with these pics from my “2 Sacreds” celebrating with me:

i’ve just been trying to collect myself since celebrating and I have been listening to my U2 playlist on Apple Music on shuffle and I heard this one and it made me smile and remember going to a comedy show downtown on a double date:

So, all I have been doing for the past couple days is trying to recover from the excitement of all of the birthday wishes on Facebook and on Twitter. But, I am 40 now so… seems like it’s taking a little longer now.

My birthday was filled with well wishes on both Facebook and Twitter. I felt so welcomed all day and I had an excellent birthday! One message I received from a Facebook friend made me laugh so much! I listened to the song twice! Thanks Ryan! 😂😂😂 I AM 40 now!!?

From the moment I woke up, I was struggling to get ahead of my pain and discomfort! NOT The “Birthday Eve”that I wanted!!! It took my entire prayer time today to begin to overcome it. I put on my Apple Music playlist to try to relax a little more.

Well, it worked! I just clicked with what was playing last night and when this song started, I was back in my first apartment and we had just moved in! I was in the kitchen making dinner and checking on the wash that was just off of the kitchen.

On days like today, I like being able to escape to my memories because I can crystal clearly see myself walking around my first department! So it’s in these moments that I can escape to my memories to be able to handle the reality of what is happening right now. That, being my pain.

This song sparked my memory and I’ve been living in it for a while now!:

This is the last post of my 30s!!!

So, this is my final week of being 39. I’m really excited for my birthday on Saturday! This is going to be a BIG birthday!

I have just changed my sleeping position and I think it’s kind of bothering me! I have two things going on with me! Not only am I about to be 40, I have had MS for over 21 years. I never would have thought that sleeping would become difficult but it has! I remember sleeping in my bed in my second apartment like I was a vampire.

By that I mean that I do NOT roll over in bed. I just laid on my back for the entire night, until my alarm would go off so I would get up and get ready for work. It was not until I moved into our house and I started going to Barwis that that changed. I stopped sleeping like a vampire and started moving around in bed and sleeping on my side and even sometimes on my stomach for a short time.

I was working with Michael Rhoades and still working out at Barwis and I remember talking about the fact that The front of my hips were hurting. We talked about that happening because I was seated in a wheelchair all day long. He told me that I should lay on my stomach for at least 10 minutes before I fall asleep. He said that that would ease the fact that my muscles are contracted all day long.

From the day he told me that, I would lay on my stomach before I would ultimately sleep on my side. Then I hurt my knee again and it was impossible for me to lay on my stomach with my Injured and surgically repaired knee so I stopped doing it for a while. But now that I am almost five years post surgery, I can lay on my stomach again. But now, there’s a new wrinkle, I no longer can control my body enough to move around in bed. For the past two days, I have reverted back to sleeping like a vampire because it has also been just over five years since I’ve worked out at fBarwis.

Lsst night as I was staring at my ceiling before falling asleep, I could hear raindrops on my windows and roof and I thought of this song as a eventually drifted off to sleep. I remember buying this CD single from Fairlane mall when I was in high school:

I have never watched the entire movie This is 40 because I figured set I wasn’t 40 yet so I still had time to watch it but now I am going to be 40 so I guess I better do it! I’ve heard it’s funny, but it’s totally like me to be late to the party!

I have since stopped crying when I watch the Super Bowl halftime show and I have been having problems with my cable anyway so I just listened to Mary J on my Apple Music account:

I was processing mail so I wasn’t near my phone so it just played similar songs and I was back in middle school (high school for some of the songs). I really enjoyed being that young again! This one is from middle school basketball season:

I think I was a dramatic sophomore for this one but I still remembered all of the words even though I did not sing them, I sang them in my head:

I was older when this song came out and it was definitely one of my jams! I think I was already working at the mall then;

I was puzzled when I heard this song because I couldn’t understand why it was mixed in with songs from when I was young;

I was puzzled because I clearly remember singing this song at the top of my lungs when I lived in my second apartment and Sean‘s dad had taken them for the afternoon. I no longer can sing along but I remember them coming in as I was mid verse. Icouldn’t understand why she was in the playlist randomly:

But then I looked at my phone because I was turning the music off. Oh yeah, this is how I remember her looking Wayback in the day but she has been making music for so long now I know the older Alicia Keys.

Further proof that I am getting old! It’s just about birthday month and my birthday is only 12 days after the commencement of that so I will be 40 years old!?!