Yesterday, I was loving watching Labyrinth and it took my mind off of my aching body and I was taking back to childhood. I wanted to have a continuation of that feeling today so I was going to watch Willy Wonka, and the Chocolate Factory but I do not own it yet. So instead, I watched Seven Brides for Seven Brothers.
It had the same effect! That is another movie that me and my cousinT Shannon watched 1 million times:
We loved singing this song so much! I never got married and she did not get married in June but that’s how life works out sometimes. I think I might watch Willy Wonka tomorrow..
Today,my Mom came back with my chair and we still had time to get in the restroom and make it to my haircut! As I was transferring from my manual wheelchair to my power chair, my Mom said something about my big wheels being the problem.
She called Ray before we got started and left a message to see if I need doctor’s approval for work on the motor and my big wheels. I have no idea why but Tina Turner popped into my head, immediately! I started to laugh!
It wasn’t until after my haircut when my Mom sat in the van after she went in to order our pizza when I played her this song:
Of course, as my Mom does, she asked if she was living or dead and how old she was when she died if she was dead. I looked that up with my contacts in. I can kind of see. She was 83 when she died and she died in 2023. She insured her legs for $3.2 million.
Oh, one thing that I thought was cool before we left the haircut place was that Lady Gaga started playing and that’s my Mom’s jam! I was invited to my friend Shelby’s wedding and it was a summer when I started getting pretty bad so I was not able to attend, but I got the save of the date card and she asked, “What song is going to get you on the dance floor?” Of course I said this song because my Mom was going to come with me.
My health didn’t allow me to attend but so special to me I always am reminded of my Mom, ‘Proud Mary!’:
Seeing that Janis Joplin got on the list made me think about the Jennifer Love Hewitt cover of Me and Bobby McGhee
I reposted a blog post I had written 5 years ago. This memory has to be from 2013 or 2014. I reread the post. I remember the day I wrote that post! I should go back to see an acupuncturist. I’m going to start looking into that! Anything to make me feel better!!!
So, get this. The new thing is that I feel myself making an ‘ugly cry face’ but there are no tears. Or very few. I guess I’m all cried out! And you know I thought of this song:
My socks are STILL NOT here and my legs are killing me! We don’t know what to do about it!
This morning, when my Mon was changing the wedge to go to my right side, I just said, “My feet hurt.” My Mom, moved my wedge and began rubbing my feet.
I was able to fall back to sleep for a little while longer because of this. Sean told me a while back about Guardians of the Galaxy 3. He told me that it was Rocket’s backstory. Sean and my Mom watched it a couple weeks ago while I was pillaging. He told me when the Rocket wakes up and he says, “Hurt!” I thought of that scene as I said that this morning.
I’ve been without socks for three weeks and one day and it’s rough! My feet hurt and I think it’s because the blood in my legs is sludge at this point. I am going on the 22nd for an ultrasound of my legs. I’m not supposed to wear my compression socks for that appointment and I’m not even sure if they will be here by then.
This is brutal and my legs ache and I’m sure blood flow is not happening very well. I thought of this video and it’s probably at the 4:30 sec. mark which makes me think that’s how my blood is traveling:
I was actively working out at Barwis when this song came out. That was more than a decade ago. I really thought that I was going to walk I was trying my hardest. But I guess it was not to be borne.
Hearing this song right now made me bawl my eyes out!!! It’s all different now. Homebound-ness takes his toll for sure… I don’t leave my house until May 20 for a haircut, May 22 for an ultrasound on my legs and May 27 for an appointment with my neural ophthalmologist before I get my Covid shot.
I couldn’t remember why that line was so familiar. I thought it was a Pink! song but it turns out it’s Natasha Bedingfield:
So, I had a bunch of memories with this song. But it didn’t come out until 2004. I was still living with my Parents then and I was still an undergrad in college. This song wasn’t even written when I think about what it makes me think of:
Sean was young. Still in a car seat carrier. So he was less than 20 pounds. I placed the car seat on the porch of my Parents’ house and I fumbled with the keys just as it was starting to rain.
I covered Sean with the hood of the car seat as I was trying to open the door. Well, some raindrops landed on his legs and he was so young he could not understand what was going on! He just let out a soft whine. I assured him that I was trying to open the door and then we got into the house.
I’ve never forgotten that moment when he startled at notwanting to feel the rain on his skin. That’s why I was thinking something was important with that line. That seems so long ago! I was still driving and I was still walking back then. And that feels so far in the past it kind of hurts I think but I remember that it happened.
I woke up this morning and I was not even out of my bed yet and I heard in my head in Sara Bareilles’s voice, “stirring in the cinnamon.” Now that lyric is completely NOT true!!! She sings it like it’s something good in her coffee and I have a mouthful of cinnamon every morning and I must tell you that it’s terrible!!!
It’s like a mouthful of dirt. It used to be really hot but now that I’ve done it so much and for so long it’s just a month full of dirt, which is still disgusting.
So of course, I had to hear this song:
But searching for this song on YouTube give me a live version which I had to hear!
I don’t know the guy I went to this concert with anymore, but I remember her saying, “Hi, I’m Sarah. And this is my band.” She sang two songs and we could tell she was the real deal! About two weeks after the concert, I heard her on the radio.
That’s what I thought about this morning and cinnamon really is disgusting! When I was thinking about reading the post I thought about it and I listened to this song:
The song was big in my second apartment. I thought of this one too after I listened to Sara Bareilles and cinnamon so gross!!!
So, my Mom really digs the show, ThePitt. I’ve started watching it with her, and I did it too I guess. But the season finale. That one, I have seen twice and I cried more the second time I saw it!!!
Let me ‘splain ya:
In this show, there was a woman who had preeclampsia and she was 37 weeks pregnant. She wanted a free birth, and she was having serious problems! I’m sorry to spoil this if you have not seen this and you want to, but she ends up having an emergency C-section.
That was when I started to cry. I’ve never seen a C-section. I had one 24 years ago at 32 weeks and I didn’t even know what it looked like. I gasped so much watching it.
But when he get the baby out, I began to cry!!! The baby was blue. So was Sean and I always used to call him my Smurf baby for years! And it has only been in the past five or six when he will say, “Because I was dying!”
I didn’t really, truly understand that until seeing this birth! He really was! I was too young to really comprehend what was going on! I cried so much watching this! I’m so grateful that it all worked out!
The final scene helped me to calm down because Alanis is just the best! I was in seventh grade when this song came out and it’s still a banger:
I am beyond embarrassed that I posted the explicit version of this song. My apologies, I have since rectified it.
Yesterday, before I got out of bed, my Mom looked at my toe. It’s slowly healing, and she told me that she guesses since I’ve had MS for 25 years… and I interrupted her and said, “The chickens are coming home to roost.”
She countered with telling me that my brother said that to her (about something else) and she didn’t know what it ment.
I just said quite flatly because I am realizing how true it is now, and I said “It’s time to pay the piper.” And I thought of this song…:
