Category: Tunes

I’ve been saying for years that my temperature gauge is broken and I no longer can control my body temperature. Check out what happened to me today:

When I woke up, my face was hot because the temperature was at 72°. That was before I got out of bed. My Mom turned the temperature down to 71° and she put it on the air conditioner. I had the hardest time transferring to my chair from my bed. I was no assistance at all for my Mom and that scared me! I was in and out of consciousness as I leaned all the way back in my chair once I got into it. I slide my body backwards, so I am more comfortable sitting. My Mom had to fasten my pelvis stabilizer because I couldn’t move.

I was still terrified once I realized that my arms could not move at all. My Mom had to leave so I just told her what I needed, and I completely felt like Wesley in the Princess Bride when his arms weren’t working after he was dead and miracle Max brought him back to life.

I kind of chuckled to myself with that thought but I was still terrified. My Mom had to do everything for me. She put my phone tether around my neck and gave me my contacts to put in my undershirt so when I put them in my eyes, they are room temperature. She had to leave and I told her that I needed two Yetis of water and two shakes. She put my Goli on a fork and put that on my lap because I could not move my arms yet.

I received my Social Security/Disability check today so I placed my Target order that is coming tomorrow. I sat in my chair with my hands on my lap because my arms were not moving. It took one full rosary and a full chaplet for me to begin to start to move.

I know everything that I need to do once I get paid and I know it was just going to take a bit longer. My mind was swimming and I didn’t know how I was going to get control of it. Again, I was terrified!

It’s the change of season. That is really getting to me! I was comfortable and I continued praying and slowly got everything I needed to get done, done.

When she got home, I get ready for the day and I had my dinner before she left again. We put air on when we are working in the restroom because it’s a small room and two people’s body heat is a lot! So the heat was off when she left. I went to church and then began to freeze. I fell asleep as I was huddled within myself. My arms were in my sweatshirt, and I passed out.

This was also so scary and my body has been hot and then it was cold, so I really don’t know what’s going on! All I know is that my body did not feel well for most of the day!

All I can do at this point is hope that tomorrow is a better day. I will check the weather and make my decisions for overnight tonight. #MSsucks!!! 😒😒😒😒…

I thought of purple hearts but I’m not going to watch that movie now because that’s more warmer weather viewing. I’ll post this song in the comments today as well as the clip of Wesley without his arms working because that’s how I felt this morning!!! That and terrified!!!

Welp, halfway through pillaging, my right arm and hand quit on me. I couldn’t even put the pills in my pill box. I crossed my left arm over my body and was able to do it easily, but it really stunk that my right arm quit on me. I found the song that I thought of regarding this, I think I’m like 11 or 12. I’ll put it in the comments.

I went to the doctor today. It was my six month checkup. I got weighed before I saw the doctor.

I lost 10 pounds.

In six months.

That is concerning!!! I haven’t been doing anything differently!

I said that to Dr. Chamas’ nurse and she agreed.

Dr. Chamas came in and we had our polite greetings and then I blurted out, “I lost 10 pounds?! She responded with, “I see that.”

I haven’t been doing anything differently, just existing. She told me that she is not concerned because I still look good and I don’t look sickly. I guess that’s what my problem is. Is that going to happen to me?!

I have been chubby my whole life and so it’s weird that I’m not?! I really don’t know how I feel about that. I don’t think I like it.

This song popped into my head, even though it is completely out of season now that it is Fall:

I never really thought that that would be me, but it’s here now and I’m not sure what to do with it.

My Mom got to go to the doctor as well because we have the same doctor. She went for her annual as I went for my six month check up. We’ll do the same thing next year! Two birds; one stone, I guess?

Savannah, Dr. Chamas’s nurse, is pregnant. She is due in January. She is having a little girl and they are naming her Sophia. I was so excited to tell her that the next time I see her, I get to hear about her baby! I told her that I never had a girl baby! We both congratulated her a bunch!

So, I saw this meme on Facebook today:

I started to laugh and had a plethora of memories from Barwis Methods!!! I posted it and tagged both Jesse and Adam.

When I listend to this song, I started to laugh and started to cry at the same time!!!

An inside joke from probably the summer of 2013?! Hilarious!!!

They know who Daisy Applebottom is!!!!!!!!!

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

My aunt Rita died four days after I turned eight and my Abuela died the November before, when I was seven. It’s only me now that I realize how difficult that must’ve been for my Mom. I have been using my pomegranate chapstick for a little while, anticipating Fall to come so I watched Baby Boom today because the reminds me of my aunt!!!

I vaguely remember being in my 20s and at a guy’s house who I don’t know anymore. He took a shower and told me to watch something on TV. I scrolled through the listings of what was on and Baby Boom was on, so I watched it. I remember when he came downstairs, he asked me why I was watching a movie that is made for middle-age women. I told him that it reminded me of my aunt because it absolutely does!!!

I’ve been having difficulties staying awake for long period of time I kind of dozed in and out in the beginning of the movie, but then she got to Hadleyville and I saw the Fall leaves so I was completely awake then.

I love this scene and my Mom and I talk about the fact that this guy is not good looking, but he also was Dolly Parton‘s husband in Steel Magnolias So that’s not too shabby:

I still like the scene, even though this is not my life at all. I think the best scene though is when she declined the offer from her former boss. My aunt Rita had a dress that she wore to Thanksgiving at my Abuela’s house that reminded me of this outfit. I remember it being more similar, but I guess it wasn’t:

The Werther’s Ffall flavored soft chews arrived today, but I’m not going to have them until after I get weighed. That will be on Tuesday. I got an email that my Target order is delayed, but that doesn’t matter because there are Mint Oreo cookies in there as well. I will have some of those!

My life is so small now but I think that’s okay as well. I will wait to watch Hocus Pocus and I will probably watch Stepmom in the meantime when it gets a little cooler. I have saved this picture in my phone because I remember taking it. I didn’t know who was holding me, but I remember that purple sweater I remember how she smelled:

I clearly remember having a conversation with my aunt Rita when I got pregnant and I was not married or finished with college. I promised her that I would finish and that I’m sorry that I disappointed her! We would talk about my future life often when she let me drive her car. I was young and I did NOT drive, but she let me hold the gearshift so I know how to drive a stick although I cannot. we would say this as we drove so fast down her street:

Everything went well at the dentist and as I was waiting for the dentist after my hygienist left, I heard this song and I think it’s funny that the first thing I think of is Jack Black and School of Rock:

https://youtu.be/Dn8-4tjPxD8?is=kANK0x8-rO2u1t9K

I even made appointments for all of next year. Three visits for my gums.

I remember when Gavin Degraw’s album “Sweeter” came out and I was listening to it a lot. Leave it to my 12-year-old son to ruin it for me. I was liking this song:

He came out of his room and sang, “Pull my finger…” I just said. Now, the song was roont. I just heard this song and he reminded me how much it stunk that he roont it for me.

He told me, that was and still is my best work!!!

I say roont because my Dad said that instead of saying ruined. Either way, I can’t forget Sean singing that!!! EVER!!!

Last week, I dropped my mouthguard halfway through pillaging. I have to wear my mouthguard as I distribute my pills because I grind my teeth. I’ve been wearing a mouthguard since 2011 when I sleep.

I thought for a moment because my Mom was sleeping and it was just us two in the house. I still had four pills to distribute. I thought for a moment and decided that I would put my pills in my pill box like Mick Fleetwood:

That’s right, I distributed those pills with my mouth gaping open! I got it done and today, my mouthguard almost fell off of the table as I was drinking my shake between pills. I need that nutrition as I am concentrating so hard on the pill distribution.

Sean was here, but I did NOT drop my mouthguard. I have always dug people’s drumming faces and I think this one was kind of funny. It helped me pillage without grinding my teeth though.

I got my mouthguard in 2011 when I was seeing my MRT (muscle release technique) therapist. I called him my ‘rub-er,’ but he did not like that. I remember going into Parker‘s room and telling him that I have never been in a fight, but if I was, this is what I’ve feel like because I feel like I have been punched in my face! My mouth, especially!

He rubbed my face and I made an appointment a TMJ at my dentist. He was not retired then. I had to pay for it myself! I should have worn my mouthguard after I got my braces off and then I would have had one!

I was listening to my Gavin DeGraw playlist a while ago. It was still August I think. That first album reminds me of our first apartment. I had just gotten that CD and I listened to it often! I can still SEE my first apartment. I remember that I was more able about it than and I didn’t think I would get to where I am now EVER!!! Back then, I thought I would live a full life and get married and have a couple more kids. That didn’t happen and I’ve mourned that so long ago, but I do live in my memories and I have been for a while: