A 20 year Old Memory

I’ve written on my blog before that I live in my memories. I’ve had this memory for 20 years. 20 years ago, today, I went into labor. I didn’t know I was going into labor because I was eight weeks early. I was set to have a Christmas baby. I thought that it was a self-inflicted reason why I didn’t feel well and I ended up going into labor late Halloween night. I was working at dfcu financial while I was in college and while I was pregnant.

The details are a little fuzzy because it IS a 20 year old memory but I remember one of the senior tellers walking down the teller line and handing out little baskets for everyone. She told us to put it in our window and I didn’t know what it was for. She came back around and was handing out fistfuls of candy for us to give our members. I thought that was such a cute Halloween treat!

What seemed like a really good idea changed when we basically had NO people come in to do business at the credit union. I spent the entire day trading candy with the other tellers and eating the candy that was in my window. I remember that in my absent minded pregnancy brain, I forgot my lunch. I just ate more candy!

I clearly remember standing in the hallway at my son’s dad‘s house and I put my hands on my hips as his mom was handing out chips to the kids and I exclaimed, “ I can’t carry this baby anymore!“ He told me that I had to and I remember telling him that I knew that but I didn’t want to. I went into labor at about two in the morning that night. I didn’t realize that’s what was happening. I was extremely uncomfortable and restless and I couldn’t fall asleep.

I thought that if I went to the bathroom that I would feel better. My mom came out of her room and told me that I should call the hospital. I thought that was kind of dumb because I was only seven months pregnant. I called them and told them what was happening and that I was 32 weeks pregnant. They told me that I need to go downtown because they did not have the capability to handle a premature baby if that was the case.

I will never forget that my Mom wheeled me into the foyer area where there was a guard sitting there and then she left to park the car. The man looked at me and said, “You look like you’re too young to have a baby.” I was so shocked at that statement and I had no response so I said nothing. What I didn’t realize is that I was in labor when that man told that to me.

I was admitted into the hospital and I spent November 1 in and out of coherency and remember that a nurse asked me if I knew what day it was because I looked so bad. A doctor came in the morning of the second and looked at my monitor and the readout of the monitor. He looked at the door where there was another doctor standing there and said, ” Labor and delivery STAT.”

I had Sean at 9:38 AM on November 2 via Emergency C-section and he stayed in the hospital in the NICU for 31 days. It was the longest month of my life! It was after I had my Halloween baby that I started to like Halloween more. It just seems different now that I’ve had this memory for 20 years and now I will have a 20-year-old child come November 2nd?! Now I have a Halloween movie to watch for the last time this year!

“A Two-Week College Try”

I am exhausted today! We went to get our teeth cleaned and I got my haircut and eyebrows waxed. That’s the first haircut I have hand since July because I got one mid-July but then the summer was too warm for me to leave my house so I let my eyebrows and hair grow. I knew I could handle it because of the previous COVID year but I was happy to get my haircut.

I posted yesterday that I received my electric toothbrush:

Lisa, the woman who cleaned my teeth (who is normally Sean‘s hygienist) but, because my Mom and I go at the same time, my Mom got my new one because my previous hygienist retired and I got her. I have gone to this dentist since I was a child and I got my braces their back when they used to handle orthodontic work. That place seems so familiar to me!

I took the box with me and told Lisa that I just received this the day before. She asked me if I wanted to open the box and I laughed and let her do it.

She explained the toothbrush to me. I think it’s crazy how involved this is! I can even connect to my phone! She demonstrated to me how the bristles feel and told me then it will be very different brushing my teeth with this electric toothbrush. She told me to give it a, “Two-week college try” to get used to using it.

I am SO exhausted that I think I will have to give it my college try I’ll go tomorrow. She told me that I need to charge it like an iPhone but I’m too tired and I will do that tomorrow because it has been almost two decades since I was in college!

Better ‘Late’ Than ‘Never,’ I guess…

I remember that I wanted an electric toothbrush when I was 15 years old for Christmas. I didn’t get it. But now, it’s not about wanting something but in fact, it’s needing something. I am having difficulty brushing my teeth!

I’ve had discussions what’s up and my MS groups asking for their suggestion and I saw this commercial a while back. Today, this arrived:


I probably won’t use it tonight but tomorrow after my dental appointment because I’m getting a cleaning tomorrow. I will keep you posted!

ANOTHER MS-y Day

I started to not feel well yesterday as the rain continued to persistent and since it rained throughout the night I had a heck of a time falling to sleep! In the forecast today has more rain and it’s proving to be a little too much!

I have two football games to watch and I can’t muster up the strength to do that. I feel so badly that I couldn’t even jam to music! This rain is seriously killing me! It’s DEFINITELY a #DirtyHairDontCare Day because I was supposed to wash it today. I was so grateful that Michigan won and that is one of the games I am waiting to watch. I received this Twitter notification and I actually cried watching it! I’m so excited to watch the full game:

Then, there is the Lions v. Rams game. I am so conflicted about this but was comforted to see that my man is okay. Sean and my Mom call me a, “Turncoat” but I told them that I am consistent because I have ALWAYS been and WILL ALWAYS be a Matthew Stafford fam!!!

Now I can always look forward to tomorrow and hope that it doesn’t rain so I can watch these games. Probably just one a day because my Mom is not a football fan!

#MyGirlL: Kate Moss

Leia’s birthday present arrived this morning. (One day early) I thought it was so funny to watch her follow my Mom to the kitchen to watch my Mom open the box. She knew it was for her because she could smell the pill pockets I ordered.

I snapped some pictures in the house but my Mom got butter ones on her walk:


But, this picture was my favorite!!!

She’s SO pretty in pink!!! I think she reminds me of Kate Moss because we try to get her to smile but she remains extremely stoic, just like Kate Moss did. I had to explain who she was to Sean. How would he know her when he was born in 2001?!

“Coming Up Around the Bend”

Okay, so… this happened:

I need to give some background before I explain. I have had a Medical Guardian device for about 2 1/2 years after I had a fall. We test the device every month and my Mom makes sure that I am wearing it when she takes Leia for a walk. But then today, this happened:

I was sitting and watching TV just after my Mom and Leia had just come back from their walk. I could see a red light out of the corner of my eye and then it started to vibrate as if I had called the emergency line. An operator came on and spoke with us but he obviously could not hear us that we were okay and didn’t need any emergency vehicles at my house.

My phone rang and it was my friend and neighbor who I listed as a contact in the case of an emergency. And then I heard a fire truck coming. I live around the block from Beaumont hospital so I hear ambulances all of the time! When we first moved in, Sean and I had difficulty sleeping but after a while we would block it out and remain sleeping. But hearing the ambulance this time was different because it stopped right in front of my house!

My Mom ran out of the house waving her arms to tell them that it was a false alarm! She told me that both a firetruck and an ambulance arrived and the driver gave her a thumbs up when she yelled that it was a false alarm.

After they left, my Mom stayed on the phone with Medical Guardian people. My device was wonky because it went off again. The operator told us that I would receive another call because the ambulance was going to come again because the device went off.

As I was sitting there listening to their conversation, I started to cry and I had no idea why I was crying! I think it was my PBA mixed with the realization of the fact that this could eventually be a serious thing! Throughout this whole ordeal, Alanis Morissette was playing in my head even though I never thought that that song, particularly, one lyric would pertain to me:

#MyGirlL: The Birthday Girl

We got Leia on April 28, 2020. She was six months old. I asked The woman we got her from if she knew her exact birthday and she did not. When I made Leia’s first vet appointment, they wrote that her birthday was October 28. I told Sean that we could celebrate their birthdays together and they could be, “Birthday Twins.” He kind of shrugged and said okay. He didn’t really care.

But, I do!

Last year, we didn’t make a big deal about it and that was that because it was in the middle of Covid! But this year, I started thinking and it was brought on by my Mom, who bought Leia a sweater. It was too small so she is going to return it to Petco. Well, I got paid this morning and her birthday is around this time so I made a purchase at Chewy and I just got confirmation that it received and soon will be shipped. I have not told my Mom but I want to surprise her. I’ve never had a daughter and Leia’s color is pink.

Last night, when I was getting ready to get into my bed, I started joking about Steel Magnolias and when Julia Roberts says that her wedding colors are, “Blush and Bashful” but Sally Fields corrects her and tells her that her colors are, “Pink and Pink.” It seems those are Leia’s colors too:

And like so many of my Facebook friends told me, I have found her favorite toy. I got her one of these as well:

Be sure that a fashion show is yet to come!!!

T-15

I talked to Sean on the phone yesterday. He asked me I watched, Hocus Pocus and when I told him that I did, he asked if I like scary movies. I told him, “ABSOLUTELY NOT!” He then told me that I need to find a new Halloween movie. I didn’t think so at all!

He then asked me if I could say the movie verbatim. He laughed at my silence and I told him that I never have thought about it! I then proceeded to tell him the first five minutes of the movie!

He laughed pretty hard at that and told me that it is really bad! I then proceeded to quote Max, Allison, and Dani when they are in the alley behind the Italian restaurant. I told him that I really like the movie and it doesn’t matter that I can say the dialogue verbatim! I think I would mess it up a bit because sometimes I have difficulty speaking but I think I would do pretty well!

We had this conversation yesterday which marked T-15 which means that his birthday is in two weeks from today!!! In .T-14 days, I will have a 20 year olds as a child!!