Month: July 2026

‘Outing’ OR ‘Fading’

I wanted to post this yesterday because yesterday was the final ‘outing’ of July. I had to postpone my Dr. Clark appointment by a week because he fell and hurt himself. I think the saddest thing is that I COULD NOT even tell that his face was injured! I couldn’t see it! My Mom had to tell me about it today.

While we waited for him in the room, I heard Aerosmith. I could not even remember which song it was. It was one of the videos that Alicia Silverstone was in so I had three to choose from and I kind of think it was Amazing, but I’m not sure.

Dr. Clark changed up one of my supplements, but Savannah told my Mom that I should keep my leftover pills of the supplement he switched me off of. he switched me because I told him that I smell. Because I do. It’s like coming out of my pores. He told me that I am detoxing from something. The smell is that I am finished with it. On Saturday, I will make the change when I pillage.

I was seated out front when my Mom was paying for my appointment and getting my new supplement and supplement schedule in order.

I do remember clearly hearing this song because it was my jam!!! This was the summer after my Dad died and my Mom and I had gone to Florida for medical treatment. I thought of that when I heard the song that was playing:

Now, I am holed up in my house until August 11 (my nephew, Steven’s Birthday) for my appointment with Dr. Harris, my optometrist and then on the 12th, I’m going downtown for another procedure with Dr. K.

One observation that I will make for this summer so far is that I am more sensitive to temperature. My nerves are a whole lot more. I freeze with the quickness and I overheat just as quickly. I am looking forward to seeing my optometrist only because I’m sure he’s going to say NOT good things because I can tell how quickly my eyes are fading, but I’m not blind yet! I don’t think I will be ever, I just can’t see things now. My Mom tells me that I look normal all the time and I flatly tell her that I do not feel it Because I don’t! I’m finding that smiles don’t come as easily as they used to. After 25 years, and closer to 26 now, #MSsucks!!! 😒😒😒…

For Once in My Life

I heard this song today listening to my Mom’s playlist that I made for her 45th birthday and Sean was going to be 16. The party didn’t come to fruition, but I still have a great playlist!!!

I was completely blown away by hearing this song and I remember 25 years ago that I held my six month old child above my head and danced in the living room of my Parents’ house when the carpet was still there. It was beige at that time because the green carpet had been retired for a long time!!! Now, there are hardwood floors.

So many of my abilities have changed in the past 25 years, and I COMPLETELY forgot about this memory, but it came back IMMEDIATELY when I heard this song!!!

I didn’t even want to just give it a mundane number of a Rando tune because this one IS huge!!! I listened to this song twice and have cried BOTH times!!! Like, tears rapidly streaming down my face and all!!

Of Course!

Yesterday, I pillaged using my left hand. During the day, my right shoulder felt tweaked. It made me afraid because I use my arms to transfer.

I told my Mom, “Of course it would be my right bicep because that’s my ‘poop side’!!! I have broken my knee and had surgery twice, my hip has osteoporosis, and I can’t see out of that eye very well at all.

The only reason I could do it was because one time when I was teaching, my right arm went limp as I needed to enter grades into the computer. It just took time, but I did it slowly with my left hand just hen pecking the keyboard. That’s what I did yesterday. It took a while because my pills are on the right side of me sitting in my wheelchair; but pillaging is somewhat like second nature now.

Today, my bicep did not hurt that much at all. I was kind of ‘ginger’ with it just because I didn’t want it to hurt.

A Triple Header.

Today, I got an overwhelming dose of ‘the feels’ and maybe I’ll talk about it soon…

To make myself feel better, It was a triple header today! I started off by watching The Count of Monte Cristo because that movie is just EPIC and I love it!

Switched gears and I watched Last Christmas because I really wanted to hear George Michael! I needed eye drops in the middle of that movie and when it was over, I watched Voicemails for Isabelle.

I must say that I cried in both movies at the sappy parts. Well, they aren’t sappy, but they’re sad; heart wrenching, is a more appropriate description Ithink. My heart is wretched But I have a sneaky feeling that it had nothing to do with either movie!

I hope to talk about my overwhelming dose of ‘the feels’ but I wonder how long that’s going to take… ?!

The End of an Era?

Look at what I did today:

I dropped when I tried to grab it to take my supplements today. I’m having difficulty controlling my hands. I don’t know how long I have used it to distribute my supplements. I have lived here for 17 years, but I’m not sure how long I have used this pill box. A while. I started taking supplements in 2007. I have been seeing my current naturopath since 2011.

I have already written about the fact that I bought a Pyrex for my first apartment. I was trying to build a kitchen with supplies. On the first day, I brought it home, My Mom came by and told me that she will have it. I remember looking at Sean That we would have go back to Target the next day.

I wasn’t going to stop my Mom from having it. It’s kind of like when I got the Journey Essentials CD from Columbia House. I was listening to it in the car and my Mom also told me that she would have that as well. She took it out of the car that day. I’ve been looking on Amazon for a replacement. I think I’ll buy them the next time I get paid. I did not know they were crème brûlée containers until today when I started my search on Amazon.

I have a smaller ramekin that I used to hold my therapy putty. I will just have to use that to distribute my supplements on Saturday?

Miserable and Rough

I saw this meme when I got up this morning:

When I read it, it could NOT feel more true ESPECIALLY today! Today was a rough one!

I read somewhere recently that if you hum, that it will calm your nervous system. However, I don’t think it sounded like a hum today, more like a moan or a groan. But it DOES help and I just made sure I could feel my lips kind of vibrating a little bit.

Before we got started with our routine today, she told me that I look miserable and I told her that’s because I feel miserable; because I really have today! It has been a rough day all day long! I’m not sure if it’s the weather but I just watched a few Hallmark Christmas movies that I have already seen 1 million times before. I hope tomorrow is better. I’m really not banking on it though…

Something Else

Dr. Clark’s office called me today to reschedule my appointment that I had for tomorrow. He is in Florida and injured. My appointment now will be next Tuesday and then I will be done for the month of July. This heat is something else!!!

#MyGirlL: A Killer

I haven’t written about Leia for a while and she was having problems being on prednisone for so long! We changed her vet and she was given a treatment, ozone. The day after she had that treatment was a little bit rough and she threw up a lot and was losing her bowels.

Before we switched vets, my Mom was talking about putting her down. But, luckily, Leia got through that treatment and now she has been great! She has lost all of the prednisone weight that she had on her.

The other day, on Friday, Sean took her out and he came in and told us the news! He told us that she got a rabbit. My Mom exclaimed that she was glad she was not outside because she would have screamed and then she asked if there was blood everywhere.

Sean says there wasn’t but he will have to clean up the rabbit. My Mom told her that she was a bad girl and I told Sean to take a picture of her. She had her ears down after she got inside. I don’t want to offend anyone, PETA and stuff but this IS her domain. #MyGirlL: A killer:

My Mom hates that she has gray in her face and Sean always reminds her that she’s a middle-aged dog now.