Category: Tunes

I didn’t text with any of my friends while I was watching the game last night because it was a little bit nervous!!!

today, I received a text message from my friend after sending him this::

He texted me this question:

I am not sure, it’s possible but I thought of this song immediately:

I usually will have my pic for the Super Bowl winner by now but I am not sure. I know what my heart wants but I don’t know if that will come to fruition. So, I am definitely going to watch the game next weekend an active realist on this one!

So, lately I have been thinking of the most random songs. These are all songs from my youth, even more specifically, high school. I was thinking about posting songs from The Chicks (formerly the Dixie Chicks). The memory that came to mind as I heard the first bars of this song, is me going on a late night bike ride with my brother, Jimmy. It was probably 2 o’clock in the morning. It was in the summer and he had just come back from Mexico. He got the idea that we would ride our bikes, (his low rider bikes) to` his friend’s house who was the brother of my friend so we would kill two birds with one stone.

I don’t know that we ended up going to their house, or they weren’t home, but I remember talking with my brother and he asked, “So, you listen to country music now?’” I remember laughing and I told him I did because that was the rage back then.

My Mom and I listened to music as she washed my legs yesterday. It was time to change my compression socks. we pretty much have a routine down pat, it’s pretty much second nature. While we were doing this, we alternated choosing songs that we liked.

Random songs were popping into my head as I was trying to decide on a choice for my song. I chose random songs from my youth. Songs that would remind me of a guy or something. What I discovered is that there are only two things that will bring me to tears regarding songs. The first thing being if it is a song reminds me of my Dad. I will definitely cry then! The second thing that will make me cry is if if I listen to this song and I feel that it pertains to my disease. I am no longer a dramatic teenager and I am looking at being 40 years old in less than two months but some songs do evoke tears. I listened to this one last night and I listened to it again today and I cried both times:

I guess that I am on a posthumous celebration of Sidney Poitier. My Mom and I watched Lilies of the Field last night. I remember seeing this movie as a child and I remember singing, “AMEN” at the dining room table in jest with my Dad and two of my brothers. It was my Dad and, “The three little ones.”

I was taken with this movie and I was appreciative to see it as an adult who has more understanding of the events taking place:

As a child, I did not understand this nun’s faith. Absolute faith. And I liked watching it unfold!

It is a very simple set and the majority of the movie is set in the dining room at the table. It was so familiar to me to watch because I remember watching it as a child but now I understand what’s going on and I was extremely takenand continued watching even as my Mom was working in the kitchen and even when she laid down for a nap.

This scene really got to me!:

In the scene where they are discussing his pay for the work he has done and he wants to move on. The verse she quoted in Matthew is it also underlined in my Parent’s Bible! I sat there watching the movie was such Attention and I really felt like I was “churched” until the very end!

I told my Mom that, I am being #Churched by and over 60 year old movie! They even addressed race relations. Seeing that this movie came out in January of 1963, we had a long and tumultuous road ahead of us that we still seem to be on even today:

I saw this movie because it was free on one of the streaming applications on my TV. I will leave the trailer here if you feel so inclined to watch:

So, my Mom took my wheelchair today to get serviced and she was back by like 3:30 so I was able to get my hair washed. After she got back, I asked her what it was like. She told me it was big and she should have taken a picture. Just after she left, Sean asked where she was taking it and I told him that it is a place like at the end of The Upside. I saw that movie at the movies with both of my, “Sacreds,” (Sean and my Mom). I really liked that movie and I liked sharing it with my, “Sacreds.” When my mom told me that it was Big, I wanted to see it for myself to look at the website or something. I didn’t get a picture I was looking for but I saw a few more things that I kinda really liked because that is where my chair was being serviced:

That looked impressive to me and I kept scrolling through the pages :

Furor this last picture, I watched the woman use the mechanism to get her wheelchair out of the back of the car and go into the building probably about five or six times.

I looked through the site for way too long but I think this is a good place for me and my wheelchair to be at. Today, after my Mom washed my hair, and I can sit in my chair and the battery is fully charged because I have two, “Loan-er” batteries until new ones can be ordered. I am just 3 1/2 years into my five year prescription of this wheelchair. I never realized how much I change the tilt of my chair until my battery was bad and I had to keep it plugged in so I was not able to move the tilt up and down whenever I wanted, willy-nilly! My battery is still at 100% and I already have moved the tilts five or six times.

I really like this song and even though it’s not about a person, my tilting power chair DOES feel like home to me:

I know I have shared this commercial before but I love it and Sean always tells me when he hears songs on the radio that they are, “Mom songs”:

A song popped into my head not too long ago and I remember when I first heard it, I heard it in a movie, It was in The Fault in Our Stars. I remember liking it when I heard it and when we were leaving the movie theater, (I was still driving back then) I told Sean that I liked it. He said that he liked it as well! When I heard that, I smiled and thought about it and he DOES have half of my genes!!! it would only make sense that are like for this song was mutual! I DID grow him inside of me!!!

I opened my eyes this morning and I’m not sure why but this song popped into my head before I even said my morning prayer. This month I have been immersing myself with Matchbox 20, so I guess that’s why. My Mom had gone to return the wall mount for the TV that was just installed was that not needed. I texted her when I woke up and I knew it would be a moment before she got back here. I did not feel well last night, so much so that before I brushed my teeth, I had to take one of my prescription pain pills. I asked my Mon what the humidity was and she told me it was at 76%. No wonder I don’t feel well! I guess that’s why I thought of this song, I am, “Unwell” but not in terms the song speaks of:

Last night, I realized that without the excitement of the holidays, I am just left with the horrible feelings I have with the winter weather and the precipitation. I never thought about the fact that I would never get better. I often think about how I used to be but those memories get further and further away every day…

Yesterday, I saw a post from my best friend, Ami on Facebook. I watched it seven times yesterday and three times so far today!!!:

I’ve researched this before I posted it because it is fairly new that Tom Holland did this. I am ALWAYS late to the party! I was years late for Breaking Bad, Grey’s Anatomy, The office, and new girl!!! I still haven’t finished watching Downtown Abbey!

I liked that an article was written about this performance just last week so this isn’t that old but now I have it in my blog history to view anytime! I laugh out loud so much during this performance and I can’t get over the sheer amount of absolute commitment from Tom!!! He even shaved his legs and armpits?! My Mom has also watched this performance with me a couple times and she comments on his bow at the end. It’s a true performers bow!

I showed my mom Rihanna‘s video last night which made it all the more funny!!!

My Mom and I watched the movie, Armageddon, last night and I haven’t seen that movie in such a long time! I remember just enough of it to know that I had just gone through the, “Most significant, life-shattering break up of my life!!! At least, that’s how I felt as a dramatic teenager who was going into their junior year of high school. That summer, I probably unhealthily exercised relentlessly! I would wake up in the morning and put my contacts in and brush my teeth and walk to the local park, hemlock Park, that was a couple blocks away and I would walk around the large track at the park 10 times. Hi think the entire circumference was about a mile but I would do that every day and then I would walk home and continue being a melodramatic teenager! I remember that summer that I walked to my friend Natalie‘s house on the other side of Warren close to our school One day and say remember putting on Moonlight Path Shimmering Lotion from Victoria’s Secret. I remember that that lotion smells so good and made my entire body sparkle in the sun.

Watching this movie last night made me think about my high school experience. In retrospect, that was the best time of my life but I did not know that then. I did not know that I would be diagnosed with a chronic illness eight months after I graduated. Looking at it now, I realize that I peaked in high school and I have been managing this chronic illness since then and right about now it’s getting to be a little bit more difficult. Why did I have to waste so much time being a melodramatic teenager?!

So, I HAVE TO write my faves this month! I cannot help but think about when Sean came over a couple weeks ago and laughed about the music that was playing in the bar Colin was at inWisconsin. He laughed even harder when I started mouthing the words to what Robb Thomas was saying!:

But then there was the blog post I wrote about Leia coming to my rescue at night and being a, “Beautiful Girl”:

This song made me buy the album from Matchbox 20 the summer after I graduated and I jammed to it on my way to work at 7-Eleven.

I remember driving to our softball field up the street from the school to have practice when I was a dramatic teenager:

Ah, to be hopeful about and long distance relationship…

And ultimately… I DO have, “A hole in me now [and] a scar I can talk about…”