From the moment I woke up, I was struggling to get ahead of my pain and discomfort! NOT The “Birthday Eve”that I wanted!!! It took my entire prayer time today to begin to overcome it. I put on my Apple Music playlist to try to relax a little more.
Well, it worked! I just clicked with what was playing last night and when this song started, I was back in my first apartment and we had just moved in! I was in the kitchen making dinner and checking on the wash that was just off of the kitchen.
On days like today, I like being able to escape to my memories because I can crystal clearly see myself walking around my first department! So it’s in these moments that I can escape to my memories to be able to handle the reality of what is happening right now. That, being my pain.
This song sparked my memory and I’ve been living in it for a while now!:
So, this is my final week of being 39. I’m really excited for my birthday on Saturday! This is going to be a BIG birthday!
I have just changed my sleeping position and I think it’s kind of bothering me! I have two things going on with me! Not only am I about to be 40, I have had MS for over 21 years. I never would have thought that sleeping would become difficult but it has! I remember sleeping in my bed in my second apartment like I was a vampire.
By that I mean that I do NOT roll over in bed. I just laid on my back for the entire night, until my alarm would go off so I would get up and get ready for work. It was not until I moved into our house and I started going to Barwis that that changed. I stopped sleeping like a vampire and started moving around in bed and sleeping on my side and even sometimes on my stomach for a short time.
I was working with Michael Rhoades and still working out at Barwis and I remember talking about the fact that The front of my hips were hurting. We talked about that happening because I was seated in a wheelchair all day long. He told me that I should lay on my stomach for at least 10 minutes before I fall asleep. He said that that would ease the fact that my muscles are contracted all day long.
From the day he told me that, I would lay on my stomach before I would ultimately sleep on my side. Then I hurt my knee again and it was impossible for me to lay on my stomach with my Injured and surgically repaired knee so I stopped doing it for a while. But now that I am almost five years post surgery, I can lay on my stomach again. But now, there’s a new wrinkle, I no longer can control my body enough to move around in bed. For the past two days, I have reverted back to sleeping like a vampire because it has also been just over five years since I’ve worked out at fBarwis.
Lsst night as I was staring at my ceiling before falling asleep, I could hear raindrops on my windows and roof and I thought of this song as a eventually drifted off to sleep. I remember buying this CD single from Fairlane mall when I was in high school:
I have never watched the entire movie This is 40 because I figured set I wasn’t 40 yet so I still had time to watch it but now I am going to be 40 so I guess I better do it! I’ve heard it’s funny, but it’s totally like me to be late to the party!
I’ve been thinking about this and trying to decide what songs will be my fave for my 40th year that I have had a, “Birthday Month” (even though I was like 35 or 36 when “Birthday Month” became a thing) i’m going to put my extra personal faves here:
But these songs keep popping up in my Apple Music playlist while I am puzzling and these are my jams too!!!
This would be my song for Sean at my wedding if I ever got married:
And today I will be watching Laws of Attraction and this song reminds me of our first apartment:
And how could I have a list of songs without my ultimate favorite band?!:
My last blog post was somewhat of a downer! I really don’t like to frame it like that. So instead, I am going to write about a new sensation that I got today. Wouldn’t you know that this new sensation is also in my, “Poop leg.”
This song did not come to mind right away but now it is there. This new sensation has only happened five times today, so far.
So, this is what’s going on now; It has felt like I have had a Charlie horse or an INTENSE cramp behind my knee at the bottom of my thigh. It is painful and it lasts about 15 to 30 seconds. Accompanied with this sensation is my body jerking in reaction to the pain.
I’m grateful that it only happened this afternoon and I wonder when it will come again and how long it will last but you know that this song is playing in my head regardless of how much pain I am in!;
as I was getting ready for bed last night, I listen to music while I am puzzling and then I keep playing it as I take my contacts out and brushed my teeth. I pause the music when I am brushing my teeth because I can’t hear it with my electric toothbrush. But you best be sure that I turn it right back on when I am flossing! I heard this song and it took me a back because I had seriously forgotten about this artist. I did NOT sing along but I mouthed all of the words because they STILL are etched in my brain from high school!!!:
I surprised myself that I knew all of those words still because I didn’t even remember the artist but then it got me thinking and I searched for my ULTIMATE JAM from high school and I listened to it and remembered singing it at the top of my lungs wherever I was at!!! What I wouldn’t give to be able to sing again but I can still remember what it felt like and for as long as I can, that will have to suffice…
I have since stopped crying when I watch the Super Bowl halftime show and I have been having problems with my cable anyway so I just listened to Mary J on my Apple Music account:
I was processing mail so I wasn’t near my phone so it just played similar songs and I was back in middle school (high school for some of the songs). I really enjoyed being that young again! This one is from middle school basketball season:
I think I was a dramatic sophomore for this one but I still remembered all of the words even though I did not sing them, I sang them in my head:
I was older when this song came out and it was definitely one of my jams! I think I was already working at the mall then;
I was puzzled when I heard this song because I couldn’t understand why it was mixed in with songs from when I was young;
I was puzzled because I clearly remember singing this song at the top of my lungs when I lived in my second apartment and Sean‘s dad had taken them for the afternoon. I no longer can sing along but I remember them coming in as I was mid verse. Icouldn’t understand why she was in the playlist randomly:
But then I looked at my phone because I was turning the music off. Oh yeah, this is how I remember her looking Wayback in the day but she has been making music for so long now I know the older Alicia Keys.
Further proof that I am getting old! It’s just about birthday month and my birthday is only 12 days after the commencement of that so I will be 40 years old!?!
It’s a #DirtyHairDontCare Day for me AGAIN but last night, we listened to Journey as we washed my legs and I clearly remember watching this video laying on my Parents’ living room floor back when we had green carpet. I watched the video today and it was just GREAT as I remember it!
I have always loved having a routine. I remember growing up that both my Mom and my brother thought it was strange that I was okay being alone. My brother asked me once, “What are do you do all the time in your room?” My answer was simple. “Read.” But now that I have had MS for 21+ years, unfortunately, reading is NOT that easy anymore.
I always think about that horrible doctor who told me that I had MS and the fact that she told me that like this`, “Look, you have MS, you are going to go blind, and then you are going to die” before spinning her on her heel and leaving. I HATE that this is 100% true. My eyes ARE failing but I am not blind… yet. It is really crazy how much I have to modify or discontinue doing things that I used to enjoy. I loved to, “puzzle!” But now, my hand dexterity and hand-eye coordination do not allow me to do that. Now enter technology. I CAN “Puzzle” with my Puzzling app:
I need to, “Puzzle” on my phone because I usually, “Puzzle” after I have taken my contacts out for the evening and my Mom is taking a nap. This particular puzzle took two days to complete! That’s a long time for me! But, it is complete now.
I heard this song as I was, “Puzzling” two days ago. But after a while, I realize that I need to concentrate a lot while completing this puzzle so I finally completed it yesterday in silence. When I heard it, it’s one of my jams and it was from back when I was still teaching. This came out in 2010 and that’s when I got my masters degree so I was the Reading Specialist. I remember liking it because I liked the band but that seriously, it’s insane to do! I was well past thinking that a drunk guy professing his love for me what’s something good. Even back when I was 28:
I had a crystal clear memory as I was drinking my lunch pro Tien shake today. I was instantly reminded of sitting in the stands at Dearborn high school and hearing this song and seeing my son and all of his friends dancing to it in the end zone after they had scored:
I also remember hearing the opening with guitar of this song and then it was interrupted with the announcer. I told my brother that I knew what song it was and I told him it was U2 and once the announcer stops talking, the song continued and I was correct!
I watched the halftime show and the end of the game AGAIN today! I think it’s crazy that the sixth time watching this game And the seventh time that I have watched the halftime show that I am STILL noticing new things! At the end of the game, just before the defense takes the field for the final time, I heard this song as I watched Matthew Stafford sitting on the bench:
