My Favorite Episode

Yesterday, I had to text Sean even though he was at work and this is what I said;

I watched this show with Sean all of the time! We watched it for a couple years and I got completely invested in the characters!:

I texted Sean which episodes I was watching and I told him about one that Michael is learning how to drive a stick shift and he responded with this:

It was a lot of fun to watch this show on Teen Nock and I couldn’t believe that I was watching in but I really liked it! I also texted Sean that Zoey broke up with James (I never liked him and wanted Chase to come back). As that episode progressed, I realized that was my favorite episode!!!:

I speak every text I send because my hands don’t have the dexterity needed to type but sometimes what I say is not what the text writes. It’s not Cheese, it’s Chase!

Sean texted me that they don’t show that episode very often and I was grateful that I got to see it and the random day that I didn’t watch the news or watch a Hallmark channel movie (which I am watching right now!). So, since seeing that final episode yesterday, I am reminded clearly of our second apartment and that final episode aired on May 2, 2008. I’m thinking about all of the trailers for that final episode and I hear this song in my head;

Why?!

I was frustrated yesterday because I figured out tht I am having difficulty posting pictures on my blog because I am still using my iPhone 7S. I think the latest update is non-compatible with the old technology of my iPhone 7S. I’ve had a blog for 7 1/2 years and have not had a problem. I guess this just proves that I need a newer phone but I’ll deal with that later.

That frustration is not the only reason I was having a bad day yesterday. So much so, I almost want to call it my 10th COVID-19 tears but the reason I was crying was not because of the pandemic. The pandemic has made it clear to me how unable I am now and that frustrates and saddens me very much!

These tears were more than the just the few I’ve shed before regarding my inability but I was straight up crying with a lot of tears streaming down my face.

I looked at my Mom and asked, “Why?! Why is this so difficult? Why does it hurt so much?! She didn’t have an answer for me but told me that she didn’t know, put her hand on my shoulder, and handed me tissue.

I’ve sat with this feeling all day today and wrestled with the fact of writing it in my blog because I want it to stay upbeat but luckily for me, these days are few and far between and ones that I can tolerate and get through. “Birthday Month” or not, these days come and I just needed to acknowledge it.

Annoying

When I didn’t make a haircut and wax appointment last March, I did not think it would be over an entire year that I did not cut my hair or wax my face and eyebrows! Since I’ve been living without haircuts for just over a year, I’ve decided one thing about long hair. It is INSANELY annoying!!! It’s almost as annoying as not being able to load pictures onto your blog post!!! I’ll post the picture of my hair as it currently stands but for right now, it’s in a fold-over (under) pony.


MyGirlL: A Sunroom

I wrote this yesterday but I can’t figure out how to insert more pictures so I will just share it now given that that is what Leia is doing right now!

Since the weather has begun to break, it’s obvious that Leia prefers to sunbathe. This is her on March 2nd when my Mom calls her in from outside:


She will think about coming in for a moment and sometimes my Mom can get her to come in by saying that she’s going to give her a, “Treat” but most times this is her reaction when my Mom calls her:

My Mom has told me that I should build a sunroom to my house for her. She has asked me a number of times and I tell her that I am NOT going to do that! This was Leia today:


My Mom went outside to see that Leia had gotten grass all over her back by laying on the ground:


Leia is still getting used to her outside bed because a.m. NOT A sunroom to my house for a dog!:

“Sleep Don’t Cone Easy”

My internal clock has shifted tremendously! A combination of that and the fact that I am having more difficulty falling to sleep at night these days because #MSsucks!

It was late when I was fully dressed and ready for the day so it seems that my internal clock shift will continue today as well! I was sitting here and thinking about a lyric that I could not think of the song it came from. “Sleep don’t come easy.” That’s the only lyric I could think of. I finally just searched it on YouTube and no wonder I knew this lyric! But I forgot that it came from Mary J!

I am not going through a break up with anyone; but rather, it seems that I am just breaking up with my physical abilities and my capabilities of taking care of myself.

Conflicted

My first semester at U of M Dearborn, I was four months pregnant. After a huge mishap regarding my transcripts from my high school NOT being delivered to U of M, I think the new chancellor took pity on me and told me that I could drive to my high school which was probably about 10 minutes away, get my transcripts, bring them in a sealed envelope, and then I could be registered at U of M in time for the new semester that started the following Monday. It was Friday so time was of the essence!

Because I had only gone to Western for one year, U of M wanted my high school transcripts. I have so many memories of that day returning to my high school to get my transcripts and that was the first day I started wearing maternity clothes. I was such a strong student in high school that when I returned to the registration office, the chancellor unsealed the envelope and pulled my transcripts out. I think the paper was only about halfway out of the envelope when he looked at me and said, “Well, you’re in. Go make a, “Dummy” schedule and we will register you later.

I sat in a chair just outside of the window for the registrar’s desk and made my schedule. I already knew how to do that because my cousin helped me make my winter semester schedule at Western. One of the classes I chose was closed because it was already full so I just chose another class that fit in the same timeslot. I enrolled in a Women’s Studies class.

I chose that one because of the time slot but also because it filled one of my requirements for my degree. I have often told Sean that he did NOT like the class at all! That’s because of every class I sat in while I was pregnant, it was only in this class where Sean decided to kick, wildly I might add. He continued to do that throughout that semester and especially when I barely fit into the desk!

I really liked my prof and she asked us all once toward the end of the semester if after everything we had talked about in class if there was anything in our lives that made us feel conflicted with everything we have learned in the class.

I thought of this memory specifically because this morning, my Mom told me that she had just gotten avocados and asked me if I wanted it with dinner. Dinner is the only meal I eat these days because I drink both my breakfast and lunch because swallowing is still an issue! I thought for a moment and told my Mom that eggs and avocados sounded delicious! Both of those things are easy to chew! My Mom offered to make tortillas and how can I turn that away?!

The fact that I am eating eggs for dinner tonight made me think of the instance I shared with my Women’s Studies class that made me feel conflicted.

It was late morning and I still lived with my Parents. Two of my brothers came over and were sitting at the dining room table and were talking with my Dad. My Mom was making tortillas and she asked me to make the eggs for us all to eat. I had just awakened and I was still barefoot. I remember that I felt very strange because here I was, barefoot, pregnant, and making food for us to eat. Both me and my Mom we’re cooking as my brothers and my Dad sat at the table.

I remember laughing as I made the eggs because it was a strange situation to be in with me barefoot and pregnant and cooking with my Mom making tortillas! I’ve been thinking about that a lot today because I’m having eggs for dinner! I think it’s crazy how clear that memory still is to me almost 20 years later!

The 5th Friday of Lent

I am extremely mindful of my Lenten promise because I can’t go to church for Stations now. I really like that I have kept my Lenten promise so far! Today, I focused on Pontius Pilate when I watched Jesus Christ Superstar.

His sunglasses in the beginning and the end are totally 1979 but I would prefer something more like Bono’s sunglasses. I still cried during the lepers song and Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane. When Pilate washes his hands, the red water really gets to me! I see so many of my religion teachers in grade and high school while watching this movie! The story is so familiar to me but it STILL gets me!

The Presents Keep Coming!!!

So, after my birthday and even after St. Patrick’s Day, I saw this:

I joined the virtual tour and I am watching St. Patrick’s Day from Dublin concert! Just awesome! I don’t know how long I will stay but I will post it here for you all to enjoy;

I absolutely love them and I am attending their concert right now!!! 😍😍😍

Learn Something New Everyday

A common theme in all of these Irish themed movies but I didn’t pay attention until I heard Darby O’Gill mentioned it that I started to think about it and I like Pierce Brosnan’s explanation in Laws of Attraction but I found this explanation on Wikipedia:

Still not a drinker anymore but I wonder what it tastes like. Julianne Moore says it taste like, “Poo.” Learn something new every day!