I think it was a couple weeks ago, where my feet ached whole bunch as I was sitting in my chair. That ache has not gone away since. I think that my neuropathy is getting pretty bad.
I first experienced this in the summer. My feet were freezing and I couldn’t understand why. It felt like my feet were an ice cold water to my shins as I tried to sleep. It was terrible and I had my Mom cover my feet because they could not get warm. Or at least, that’s what I thought.
I remember that my friend Suzie told me recently that her late father told her that neuropathy is a pain he could not get used to. My Dad had neuropathy, but he never talked about it. I remember my Mom using my Dad socks in between his toes before she helped him put his shoes on.
I don’t remember the last time I put my shoes on myself. And I never thought that neuropathy would be a part of my life, but it is. It hurts and there’s nothing I can do about it. Actually, my Mom uses a massage gun that brother got me) at night before I fall asleep.
She rubs it on the soles of my feet and recently, I fall asleep while she’s doing it. I don’t stay asleep, but I sleep while she’s doing it because I am relaxed. ‘Sleep don’t come easy’ for me and of course, I thought of this song:
It’s just another part that always hurts. It does. It always hurts. I noticed that a couple weeks ago and it hasn’t gotten better and I don’t think that it will. My nerves are just getting more damaged by the day.
I think a little bit before the summer when my feet were in ice, I felt pinpricks in my big toes. That’s what it would wake me up. I don’t wear my compression socks at night, so that’s why they feel like needles in my toes. Not the wake up call that I wanted, but it’s the one that I get 25 years in… #MSsucks… 😒😒😒…