Why?!

I was frustrated yesterday because I figured out tht I am having difficulty posting pictures on my blog because I am still using my iPhone 7S. I think the latest update is non-compatible with the old technology of my iPhone 7S. I’ve had a blog for 7 1/2 years and have not had a problem. I guess this just proves that I need a newer phone but I’ll deal with that later.

That frustration is not the only reason I was having a bad day yesterday. So much so, I almost want to call it my 10th COVID-19 tears but the reason I was crying was not because of the pandemic. The pandemic has made it clear to me how unable I am now and that frustrates and saddens me very much!

These tears were more than the just the few I’ve shed before regarding my inability but I was straight up crying with a lot of tears streaming down my face.

I looked at my Mom and asked, “Why?! Why is this so difficult? Why does it hurt so much?! She didn’t have an answer for me but told me that she didn’t know, put her hand on my shoulder, and handed me tissue.

I’ve sat with this feeling all day today and wrestled with the fact of writing it in my blog because I want it to stay upbeat but luckily for me, these days are few and far between and ones that I can tolerate and get through. “Birthday Month” or not, these days come and I just needed to acknowledge it.