17 Years … OR From Sara to Gavin

My Mom and I watched High School Musical 2 today. And I was remembering living in our second apartment because that is when that movie came out.

That is the memory I am choosing to live in today. I called Sean and reminded him when he was six and he liked that movie. We both liked it!

I have changed over my soundtracks. I was listening to Sara Bareilles but now because on August 1 it will be 17 years that I moved out of my Parents’ house so Gavin is fitting for that!!!

This was my Sara song for July:

I haven’t chosen my Gavin songs that I will listen to thinking about moving into our first apartment in 2005. But this memory showed up on Facebook and it warmed my heart! That was so much fun!!! Now, I will move from Sara to Gavin:

That was my very last concert that I went to! That I will ever be able to go to! I love that I went to it with my cousinT!!!

The Summer of ‘23

I will never in my life forget the Summer of 2023. This was me in high school:

My hair was longer when I was younger, but maybe that’s just because I was shorter. I cut my hair my senior year and then let it grow out to my shoulders until my 26th birthday. I got a reverse Bob and I kept that haircut for 15 years, four months, and seven days:

That’s one of my favorite pictures of me and Sean and that’s my hair. But, 22 years into this horrible disease, my hair has changed. I told the woman who cuts my hair two months ago that my hair is straw so she shortened it two months ago and last month.

It was not feeling comfortable when I slept because I sleep on my back now. On the 19th, this happened:

I was nervous to get short hair! I had never had it before, and I couldn’t see myself going shorter than a reverse bob, but I like this. I texted my brothers right when I got home:

Because both of them said that, I decided to message my aunt:

And she responded:

And then, after we had that conversation, this picture showed up in my phone, because Big Brother seems to be working overtime!:


I messaged this to my aunt:

I was really dreading getting a shorter haircut. But I knew that I needed to do something because my hair did not feel good at all! The woman who has been cutting my hair for 20 years was hesitant to cut it, but she did. I texted her this Thursday:

So, I’m never going to forget this summer of 2023, but it’s NOT scary at all (just regarding my hair because everything else is awful!) It looks like I will be rocking this haircut for the next 15 years, four months, and seven days at least.

“Maybe”

Today is recovery day #1. I did not put my contacts in today at all, so I watched, Laws of Attraction because I can practically say that movie verbatim and I love the Irish scenery!

Just after the movie ended, I know that I have written a blog post regarding this specific song, but I couldn’t so I searched in YouTube. I found this montage, and I really, really liked it because I really dig this song!:

“I’ll Take it!”

I have been experiencing a change in some symptoms that I have been dealing with since pretty much the beginning of having MS. My Mom and I have been speaking about it for probably close to a month. Monday night, I decided to message my PCP on My Chart about it.

Upon waking on Tuesday, I received a message from her nurse. I asked between two specialties and which doctor I would need to see. The nurse gave me the number to the specialty I needed to make an appointment with.

I called Henry Ford to make an appointment, I already had a PCP referral, so setting up an appointment was going to be easy. I spoke with Kiara and I told her that I needed to see someone. She asked me which clinic I needed to go to, and I asked her for my options.

She listed all the cities and I told her I wanted to see if someone in Dearborn because that’s where I live. Just after I said that to her, an appointment became available at the Detroit clinic at the main hospital.

The date that became available because someone canceled their appointment was for August 18 at 2:30 p.m. that really works out for me because I am renting a van on August 16 to get my haircut. I said, “I’ll take it!”

This specialty would have taken months to get into to see a doctor and I’m so beyond lucky that one became available for me to address the problems I have been experiencing!

I called immediately after I spoke to Kiara to secure the van for August 18. Margaret was not available so I left a message and told her to call my Mom back.

That’s how it works now. Because my sleep schedule is so messed up now, I have left my Mom’s phone number as my contact number to discuss any medical issues that I have.

I schedule all of my appointments months in advance, so any problems that come up, my Mom handles that on the phone because I am usually sleeping during business hours.

I have been renting vans before Creative was Creative. The last company was Advantage. I started renting vans in 2018 when I was fitted for my power chair. The van is rented for the 18th now!

I like how everything worked out and worked together to get me an appointment to get my issues addressed in a timely manner!!!

A Whole Flood of Memories

I am sitting here going through my Target and Amazon lists that I’ve already put in my carts because tomorrow I get paid and it is “Go Time” but it is a more segmented ‘go time’ this time because I don’t have my optometrist appointment until monday. Even though I am getting my haircut tomorrow. I saw this commercial today and it put a whole chain of memories into my head!!!:

I remember writing on my blog about playing this song in my car as I was driving to my cousinT’s house. I’m pretty sure that album just came out. I have to get mentally prepared for “Go Time” otherwise I would post it right now but I’ll look for it maybe tomorrow…:

Phew!

Last night, just before my Mom was going to get me into my bed, I continued giving her facts about my time in the neurology clinic at Henry Ford. I have spent the weekend piecing together the past 22 years that I’ve had with the Neurology clinic. She was walking into my room and she told me, “You’re really unsettled about this!”

As she walked toward the living room, where I was sitting, I could feel tears stinging my eyes, and I looked at her incredulously! With my eyes bugged out, I said, “Something that is supposed to be seamless and look at this?!”

Today, when my Mom got me up, she told me that Dr. Cerghet’s nurse is named Sarah. I had talked to a woman named Karen a couple years ago. Suzanne was Dr. Elias’s nurse for 16 years so she knew what was going on with me!

I had reviewed with my Mom all of the pertinent information which my Mom pretty much knows! My Mom was able to make it so the virtual appointment I have in August still stands and she will tell Dr. Cerghet what she needs to sign. (the prescription for my new power chair)

When my Mom told me that, I wiped my left hand across my forehead, and said, “Phew!” my Mom looked at me and asked, “Really?! That’s all you have to say?”

I thanked her for handling my business and I told her that I don’t want to be haughty?! And then we both laughed. I am so grateful that everything is working out because I am making sure that it does!!!

WE are NOT Confused!

Every single day, with MS at this point is a completely different experience!

Case in point:

I tried to hold onto the good feeling from yesterday, but today, it’s raining, ALL. DAY. LONG, and my body sure feels it! It’s one of those days where too many tears are leaking out of my eyes as I am silently pillaging. But I know that it is story time, regardless of how I feel so here goes:

I will begin this story with a 23 year old memory of me being admitted to the hospital because I was having neurological problems. The details are hazy, but I remember my Mom coming into my room after the doctors had left from doing the rounds. She walked into my room, and kind of was aghast, “The doctors came, and I wasn’t even here?! Did you ask this, this, and this?”

I just looked back at her calmly, and said, “Yes, and I asked this, this, and that!” When I told my Mom that, she just kind of nodded and said, “Well, okay then.”

That was in December 2000. I have been in the SAME neurology clinic since then! I have stayed with the same neurology clinic the entire 22 years! I have done all of the tests! All of my hospital records are at the same hospital, the one I was born into, and the one I was diagnosed with MS in.

My original neurologist, and his nurse have both retired. Dr. Elias handed me over to Dr. Cerghet which is my current neurologist. I emailed with Suzanne, Dr. Elias’s nurse often! She really had a handle on my case!

Let’s fast forward to today where I have had MS for 22+ years. I have a handle on what I am doing!
it is, by far, not easy at all, but I’m hanging in!

I was still teaching when I was fitted for a custom manual wheelchair and the same occupational therapist fit me for my first power chair.

Christie has left so Dave is my new wheelchair tech and he was with Diane to fit me for my new powerChair. I got fitted at RIM (Rehabilitation Institute of Michigan) in Detroit they are affiliated with the DMC.

My sleep schedule is completely messed up now, so I changed over my contact phone number to my MIchart to my Mom’s phone number because I sleep most of the morning!

So, yesterday, my Mom came into my room just when I awakened to tell me about Dr. Cerghet’s nurse called her to tell her that I need to reschedule my Neurology appointment because I need to get fitted for a new wheelchair.

But here’s the thing, I got my powerChair through the DMC because I had my second knee surgery at the DMC because I was working out at Barwis at the time, and Mike Barwis hooked me up! My second surgeon was the Pistons doctor at the time, Dr. Frush.

When I was injured, I called Henry Ford but they were making me wait weeks or something to talk to orthopedics, whereas Mike Barwis had me an appointment within two days. I could have gotten it the next day, but that was at the clinic he worked at far away, but then he was in West Bloomfield the following day.

So, my Mom received a phone call yesterday about me getting fitted for a wheelchair, but I have already done that, I did that back in June. I just need her to sign the prescription!

My August 4 virtual appointment that Dr. Cerghet wants to change is just my annual appointment. I’ve already done everything for my wheelchair! I told my mom to let her know that it took them 2 1/2 hours to fit me for my new chair!

My Mom tried to call Neurology back on Friday, but she was not able to get through so she will call on Monday to set the record straight! I am confident that my Mom will straighten it all out!

The woman said that we were confused, and my Mom responded, “We are NOT confused! She told the woman that I made the appointment back in April and I have already taken care of my wheelchair.

I’m kind of startled that in the past 22+ years, I have not experienced any red tape like I am now!!!

So yesterday when my Mom told me about that phone call, I thought of Beyoncé because this woman doesn’t know about me, but she also doesn’t know about my Mom either and my Mom will handle it!!!

Wow! Recounting all of that stressed me out and with the rain it makes it even worse so I guess I have to be reminded of Beyoncé again right now!!!!:


“High Standards”

Last night, as my Mom was helping me into bed, she let me know that I am very high maintenance! I started laughing and corrected her, “I am high standards!”

My Mom has to do A LOT to get me situated into bed and I completely understand that at this point, I am DEFINITELY high maintenance because she has to elevate my feet because of my pressure sores that will never go away, I mean that the skin will always be compromised for the rest of my life, I but I used to tell people in my youth that I was, “high standards”

As she was leaving my room after she massaged my feet with the massage gun that my brother got me because I don’t sleep with my compression socks on, I called out to her, “AND I am only getting MORE sensitive!!!

Because I am! This weather is completely killing me!!!

Make it a Good Day!

My Mom had a story for me this morning when I awoke! As she started telling it to me, I instantly thought of this song:

I have never seen this video before and I cannot believe how young Beyoncé is, but all I saw in my head was Mr. Latour coming into my classroom singing it. I can’t remember the funny circumstances or the joke around it but I know that I laughed!

Rather than re-counting the story, my Mom told me this morning, I am just going to live in my memory of Mr., LeTour, singing Beyoncé even though I don’t really remember the exact circumstances, but I know at that time I was teaching English, still walking, and still on crutches? Or I hadn’t been wheelchair-bound that long yet.

I will write the story about what happened today, tomorrow. For today, I am just going to live in my more able-bodied time and make it a good day!