Category: Tunes

Yesterday was a most emotionally exhausting day! I had difficulty falling to sleep and I tried praying and sleep was still escaping me. I looked at the windows to my left and could see the sky lightening up and I said a verse in my head from a song that I could not place, “Sun’s coming up down on Main Street.”

I almost pulled my phone off of the charging dock but I knew that would keep me awake and I desperately wanted to sleep. I kept my eyes closed as I racked my brain and pretty much saying the entire song. I realized last night that it was the Dixie chicks! I knew it was some kind of dramatic high school song! I thought it was a show tune but I was wrong. This is this song that popped up in my head when the sun started coming up:

After I have wrote my last blog post, I decided to listen to my Gavin DeGraw playlist because that reminds me of our apartment and Barwis. I think that I have been absent mindedly playing the 3D Tile match game, solitaire, and putzing around on Twitter and Facebook. I think I have been playing it for at least 2 1/2 hours and I have not heard this song so, I decided to watch it on YouTube!:

More tears accompanied the memories of Barwis and all that I am dealing with right now…

Oh, The profundity continues with one of my favorite MS support groups and my tears freely flow. I’m not sure that I want to be a fighter but I have to now…:

I posted this video because I was popped up in my YouTube feed last night and I watched it twice and cried and then I watched it again the next day and I’m not ashamed to say that I cried again:

But I want to explain how my two worlds were colliding…

I was born in 1982 and I have an older brother, Ray, who is 9 1/2 years older than me and my brother, Steve, he’s 7 years older than me and he recently told me about my brother Ray and him falling asleep to the new U2 album when they slept in the basement of my house growing up.

Retrospectively, this is why I absolutely love u2!!! They were falling asleep to the album and so was I sleeping just above them. I have always felt something about Bono’s voice and when he told me that, it all made sense!

Being born in 1982, made me fit perfectly into the 90s grunge era! Therefore, Eddie Vedder’s voice is so Iconic for that era!

Middle school Jenny:

Undergrad Jen:

I have written so extensively about U2’s song, ‘One’, on my blog over the years because it is easily one of my top five!!! Seeing and hearing Eddie Vedder singing my jam was a bit much for me!!!

I have been thinking about this for a while. Based on my last post, I will explain a little more. Granted, being diagnosed with multiple sclerosis when you are 18 is QUITE traumatic but that is not even the reason that I watch movies over and over again!

I think I was NOT thinking about it because I didn’t WANT TO acknowledge the fact that my vision is going/dimming/fading just like that horrible doctor said 22 years ago! I did not want to handle it when I was 18 but now, when I am 40, I have no choice.

Having had MS for 22 years now, when I wake up, I put in one drop of eyedrops before I put my contacts in every day. Once my contacts are in, I put my glasses on which are $9 glasses from Amazon but I have a prism over my right eye to allow me to see single objects clearly.

I have another set of eyedrops that I put two drops in each eye when my eyes get dry (which is quite often!). When I watch the same movie multiple times, I do not have to strain my eyes to really focus on what I am looking at, I already know what’s going on in the movie. My eyes are relaxed each time I watch Hocus-Pocus in October and Love Actually in December!

I guess this was just to explain the method to my madness and this song fits as well (AND it’s in my head):

I am nothing if I am not consistent! Today is New Year’s Day:

You’re welcome!!! I have recently been thinking about this CD and I bought it back when I was still able bodied enough to shower in the bathroom in my room. I eventually had to move to the main bathroom to use the handicapped railing. But these songs are in my head now and I’m thinking of winter time and our second apartment:

I remember that I was listening to the CD and the song title was scrolling along the dash and Sean saw Ed and his eight year old self asked, ”What are you? A dog?!” I think I smirked and told him that I liked this song!:

I did everything that I needed to do. The crash is coming on! I think it sounds like this:

I don’t even mind that Dave ages me!

My Mom paid for the purchase of Last Christmas yesterday so of course we watched it! There are 15 George Michael songs in the soundtrack. I told my Mom about the ‘Freedom’ video and the supermodels so when it was over, I HAD TO show it to her:

She didn’t understand why he was burning the leather jacket and I told her that I vaguely remember some kind of label dispute with him and his record company. I showed her this video as well:

so this is a departure from my Christmas music but it is related because ‘last Christmas’ by Wham! is my favorite song! And George Michael is in that band!

Well, I am coming to the end of my chapstick right now. But this time, there is NO bag-o-chapstick because my ‘Abuela chapstick’ knows how to behave!:

The ginger spice flavor will always remind me of my Abuela and I’m just feeling the hint of a scrape on my lips so I think I need a new tube for tomorrow! Oh, I have plenty!

My, “2 Sacreds” are both asleep right now heart is full. Sean is sleeping on the couch and my mom is sleeping in his room and my old bed. I’m listening to my Christmas faves on Apple Music and I don’t even feel badly about crying with this one came on!!!: