The Reason

I have been thinking about this for a while. Based on my last post, I will explain a little more. Granted, being diagnosed with multiple sclerosis when you are 18 is QUITE traumatic but that is not even the reason that I watch movies over and over again!

I think I was NOT thinking about it because I didn’t WANT TO acknowledge the fact that my vision is going/dimming/fading just like that horrible doctor said 22 years ago! I did not want to handle it when I was 18 but now, when I am 40, I have no choice.

Having had MS for 22 years now, when I wake up, I put in one drop of eyedrops before I put my contacts in every day. Once my contacts are in, I put my glasses on which are $9 glasses from Amazon but I have a prism over my right eye to allow me to see single objects clearly.

I have another set of eyedrops that I put two drops in each eye when my eyes get dry (which is quite often!). When I watch the same movie multiple times, I do not have to strain my eyes to really focus on what I am looking at, I already know what’s going on in the movie. My eyes are relaxed each time I watch Hocus-Pocus in October and Love Actually in December!

I guess this was just to explain the method to my madness and this song fits as well (AND it’s in my head):