Author: Jen Rios

I cannot believe this is my life now. This kind of sad, but I don’t like to think about it because there’s nothing I can do. I just endure. I have three appointments coming in September. First, I am getting my teeth cleaned the day before I get paid and then I’m getting a haircut when I get paid. The following week, I’m going to see Dr. Chamas to get my flu shot, get weighed, and get a referral for my mammogram which will happen in November.

My lymphoma hurts on my back. It hasn’t hurt since I discovered it and I’m a little bit concerned about that. I will talk to Dr. Chamas about it on September 22. That’s pretty much all I think about now. That and my constant pain. I will continue paying on my account for Henry Ford, but after my appointment with Dr. K goes through, I will not add any co-pays to my balance for the rest of the year. That’s kind of exciting!

I watched TWO Hallmark Christmas movies today and I thoroughly enjoyed them!!! I think I saw Holiday Crashers for the first time a couple years ago and I had to watch it three different times to get see whole movie. It usually goes ending, beginning, and then middle. Then I understand what’s going on! I first saw it a couple of Julys ago Then I won’t went right into Single of the 25th.

I watched two Christmas movies and it’s August?! This change of season is horrible, and my house is cold most of the time because if I overheat, I won’t be able to see, and that is terrible to go through!

This was an impromptu Christmas in August?! but I don’t think I minded it so much! I liked both movies so that’s a plus!!! I’ll see them again at Christmas!

i’ve been watching the Hallmark Channel a lot and so I have seen a bunch of Commercials and I have decided that I really like these:

But I guess I can’t seem to share these videos. They amuse me kind of like the Khol’z Mom one or both from progressive. This one made me laugh:

A Trilogy. I saw this one today:

I just read that those eye drops are for dry eye disease. My Mom asked if that’s what I have and I said, ‘probably.’ Almost 26 years with MS. Dr. Cerghet did not tell me that I had SPMS (secondary progressive multiple sclerosis) until I asked. I guess that these labels really don’t matter all that much this far in. I just have to endure, but my eyes still feel a little bit wonky though… I absolutely hate that I hear that doctor so many years later…

i’m startled that Dr. Harris suggested this to me, but he did. I didn’t take him up on the suggestion though:

I wasn’t about having to have these airdrops twice a day for the rest of my life. He kind of saw that I bristled at it and said that I can keep using my current ‘Renu for contacts’ drops. Just use them more often. I feel that for sure and I have them three or four times before I take my contacts out.

I’m having a problem with with my eyes and I am a -8 now. We are going on Wednesday to get fitted for them Before I get my haircut. And then that’s it for this month.

As I was finishing my procedure, my Mom was putting my shoes on and Shayna asked me, “What size shoe do you wear?” I kind of smiled because I’ve heard that question so many times from everyone!!! I answered her. I told her that I wear a size 6. She asked me if they were orthopedic and they I told her that they were and she told me that they look like ‘baby doll shoes.’ I laughed when she said that and I told her that my son says that they look like tap shoes as she agreed.

I told Sean that she asked me and he kind of shook his head and told me that they are little.

I think that I get them from my grandma. She had little hands and feet as to my aunts, my Dad’s sister’s.

I have been working on accepting how small my life is for a while now. How I feel about it vacillates daily, I believe. my life is pretty small! Doctors appointments and pillaging. That’s about it. I never thought that my life would be as small as it is now but MS has dictated that I’m afraid.