I made an executive decision yesterday, I finished my vanilla bean chapstick and then started a brand new vanilla bean chapstick. Pillaging, I wore my hat the entire time! It’s not spring yet!
I’m comfortable with wearing vanilla bean until April 9 when I go to the doctor. We will see what the temperature is then!
But this was the very first time in my life that I could NOT pull off the seal to the tube of chapstick. I had to ask my Mom for help. That was really stinky and I’m sure other things will be happening soon because hand control is a super big issue these days!
I remember when I was in high school, my friend and I had to hold hands for something we were on a field trip or something? I held her hand and I said, “Your hands are so small!” to which she laughed and said that she was thinking the same thing about mine! we put our hands together and found out that our hands are exactly the same size!!! We laughed about that together!!!
I have known forever that I have hands like my grandma. My Dad‘s mom. His sisters (my aunts) have small hands as well. I have, “Grandma hands.”
This is the phone that my Mom brought back:
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I must tell you that having ‘Grandma hands,’ means that my hands are too small to take pictures with one hand. I learned that as I was trying to take pictures of my chapstick because it’s in a bag right now.
This is the picture I settled for:
I couldn’t get a good picture of the label, but I’m almost finished this now. Because I feel the uncomfortableness of the change of seasons, I think that I will switch over to Pomegranate when I am done with this tube even though I am not leaving my house until April 9. it’s sooner than last month, but I’ll talk about that in a bit.
Thinking about it now, I think I need a phone this size. It’s Best. It sucks that so many abilities at leaving me now!!! My head is seriously spinning right now because this month coming up, I will have four van rentals for three doctor appointments and I need a haircut.
So, I got a new phone on March 20. My Mom brought it home and was telling me about my new passwords to login and stuff, but then she told me there was no screen protector on it because they ran out of them.
When she told me that, I put my phone down on the table that holds my vitamins immediately and I told her that I will not use it until it has a screen protector because I do not trust my hands at all now! Since March 20, I have just been praying with it.
Sean came by last week and he was going to charge his phone on my charging pad because that’s how I charge my phone now because I cannot plug my phone in anymore because I can’t pull the plug out of the phone anymore.
He was surprised when he saw my phone and I told him to bring it over to put on the table with my vitamins on it. I told him that there was no screen protector and he told me that I am in ‘purgatory.’ I told him, absolutely! It will be that way until I get a screen protector on it.
I hadn’t even called him to tell him that I got a new phone because I did not trust my hands at all to control it without a projector on its screen!
Well, my Mom was able to this morning whilst I slept and she laughed that Sean referenced purgatory and I told her that I sent him to DC for school and we went to church every weekend. It’s normal for him.
Tonight is the eve before ‘go time.’ my Mom is picking up the van tomorrow night. I am seeing a new specialist on Tuesday. I’m not sure how I feel about that. My Mom opened all of my March orders today. It’s kind of a ho-hum day, but I am really diggin’ this Lenten silence!!!
I pillaged in silence today for the second time. I didn’t drop any pills… AGAIN!!! I think that will be a new thing, at least for Lent.
I am still focused because I have another doctor appointment on Tuesday. With a specialist. I never thought that life would be like this! I really am collecting doctors now for sure!!!
I’m still trying to make sense of my weight loss. I have been on nutrition shakes for two years. And I thought that was helping. Maybe not. I think I will ask my doctor to see a nutritionist again when I see her in April because I’m doing that now to re-check my weight.
I went to the doctor today to get weighed, to get annual bloodwork, to get a new prescription for compression socks, and to ask how the measles outbreak affects me.
I did that. But I think the most concerning thing was my weight. In the past six months, I have lost 23 pounds. Wait. What?! I am currently 1.6 pounds lighter than I was when I was 18 at the appointment just before I found out that I was pregnant with Sean.
There might be something really wrong with me and she tested my thyroid. I have family members who have thyroid problems so maybe that’s it. I think that having MS for 24 years is taking its toll. I am concerned. So very concerned… I see her again in a month to check my weight further.
So, father Mike started the homily before Lent started saying that “…we should start lent in silence.” I have been thinking about that and actually working on it.
I’ve written before about my cell phone being at an iPhone 12. Obviously, it is starting to get wonky, because I’m supposed to buy another phone! On Friday, it told me that ‘Siri was not available’ and I could not get off of the home screen that had the time. I thought for a moment and decided that this was a lesson in silence for me.
Mu Mom shared her cell phone with me so I was able to pray but otherwise, I was contemplative and silent and had an experience to say the least!!!
I’m not even sure how to put it into words, but it feels extremely big!!! I spent the weekend without my phone and my Mom’s phone did not work on Sunday. Because it is also an iPhone 12 and it is getting wonky like my phone!
The timer worked, so instead of praying, I just set the timer and offered silent prayers. I told my Mom that it was going to be a, “Silent Sunday”
Today, my nephew fixed my phone because he worked for Apple in college so he knew how to do it. But somehow, I can’t shake my silent weekend! It was wonderful! I even pillaged in silence! I don’t know what is going on, but it feels so big and wonderful!!!
I have been following Hallow for a few years now and this is my third Lent listening to their prayer offerings. I think that is helping with this big feeling!!!
I caught up on the prayers for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday as I prayed today. On Saturday, a foreign cardinal speaks to us about contemplative silence. I heard this today as I was catching up:
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This is all new to me, but it feels powerful, and even wonderful!!! I can’t explain it yet fully, but it’s so big!!! I’m excited to see what happens!!! Cardinal Sarah told us to, “Rest in the awesome silence of God.” MAN, THIS IS SO BIG!!!!!!!!!
