My eyes have felt bleary all day long. I am nervous as I inch to 26 years of having MS. I am nervous. I can’t stop hearing that d*mn doctor told me that I was going to go blind before I died. I didn’t know her and I never saw her before or after, but I can’t get her out of my mind. My eyes hurt.
I told my Mom that my eyes feel bleary. She thought that I was saying blurry, but I corrected her and told her to ask Siri. She was having a difficult time with Siri understanding what she was asking. I then told her to ask what ‘bleary eyed’ means and then she got the definition. I told her that my eyes have felt that way all day long!
I think it was just before she retrieved the definition that I told her that my eyes feel like Brad Pitt’s looked in Legends of the Fall when he comes back from the military after Samuel is dead and after he had that time away on the boat. My Mom understood and remembered that reference.
I must tell you that it does not feel good and all!!! I hope that it feels a little bit better tomorrow, but I’m not so sure about that. I think this is my,‘new normal’ and that scares me too. I will put the clip in the comments because I still can’t embed videos in my blog.