Category: Tunes

I’ve been listening to a lot of Gavin DeGraw‘s first album and it reminds me of when we got our first apartment:

It reminds me of walking on crutches and still driving. It reminds me of a life I had that is in the peripheral of clear memories. I can still remember the clock that home on the wall and the shower curtain we had. I still have them even though the shower curtain is tattered and the clock no longer works, it’s still haze in my kitchen.

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Even though the curtain is tattered in the ac lock no longer works, it reminds me of being more able bodied and I really like that.

it has always been me and my boy for me:

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That picture was taken the summer before we got our first apartment and this is the last picture we have taken together, just after he turned 18:

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So, these songs remind me of the little boy and they reinforce that it has pretty much always been me and my boy.

I hadn’t been in my car for four months and once I was loaded clearly into it (a really BIG ordeal), I turned the radio on. I bought myself ask somebody do you when I graduated from grad school. I have an extremely eclectic presets in my car and this was the first song I heard:

This song reminds me of the Olympics and eating at Logan‘s roadhouse with Sean. I took this as a good omen! Mom was reminded of my car radio ADD as a constantly changed the presets. She just let me change the station at will because she knows that I really don’t get out of the house often and especially now! I was EXTREMELY terrified to even be out of my house! As I change the stations, I heard some vintage Maroon 5 in Taylor Swift and I liked that. On the right there I heard this Bruno Mars song:

My Mom really didn’t like that song but on the way back, I heard:

We were about halfway there before I start really being attention to the radio and started to realize the magnitude of being outside. I begin to cry. I didn’t wipe my face and I knew my Mom couldn’t tell that I was crying anyway:

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Once we get into the dentist, it was different with the masks and the questions but it really was the same because I have been going to the dentist for the past 30 years! Sean has gone there for the past 15 as well. Dr. Fox talked with me and my Mom showed him the gross pictures of my mouth before he began his exam. Just before he started his exam of my mouth, he told me that he did not think we would find anything because I have, “Always had good teeth!” That made me smile because I don’t know that he has ever told me that before.

he gave me a thorough exam and put my mouthguard in my mouth which still fit. He talked about possible electric toothbrushes because I explained about being heavy-handed and scratching my gums occasionally. He had Joan get me another toothbrush and since my Mom was with me, she got one too because Dr. Fox’s her dentist as well!

As we waited for the toothbrushes at the front desk, he begin writing in my file and he and my Mom talked about my brothers and my dental work that we all had there. As he was writing, I’d let him know that he was the first adult I met who was also left-handed! He laughed and said that he has been for the past 40 years as well! My Mom talked about my Dad and my brothers and my dental work again and he talked about my good exam again and I responded that, “My Dad would be proud!”

Once we got home, I waited in the car as my Mom went inside and attended to Leia because we had crated her. Something we haven’t done since we first got her. I stared off into space and vaguely remember hearing the music but not listening to it and I began to cry again because this whole thing was pretty overwhelming! I had the terror of being outside amid this virus but also I had thoughts of my Dad and all of the time we spent at that dentist office. It really did feel like, “Home!”

So, I have watched Gifted twice since buying it yesterday. I just finished watching it today and I don’t feel bad that I am 2 for 2 right now. Since buying this movie, I have cried both times that I have seen it! This song really gets me!!!

So, last night, my Mom and I w arched 13 Going On 30. I haven’t seen that movie in like 15 years or so. I think I was a junior in high school when it came out. I forgot how much I dog and still dig this song!:

It was when this song was playing in the movie that I realized that 30 is a distant speck in my rearview mirror! I am rapidly approaching 40 and 30 seems so long ago! When I realized this toward the end of the movie, I thought of this song as well:

No, this song was my JAM for sure hand for so many reasons but I remember also thinking that 30 was old! If 30 is old, I am SO MUCH older! I’m totally okay with that regardless! At least I thought of some really good tunes yesterday no will be able to access them anytime on my blog!

I watched a Hallmark movie last night. It was the first one I had seen for a really long time! I saw it with my Mom and she had never seen them before and I had seen it hundreds of times. It was called Wedding Bells:

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I liked watching it with her because she hasn’t watched 1 million Hallmark movies like I have and she is not familiar with the plot structure of all Hallmark movies like I am. It was strange that the song that playing in the movie has been in my head since last night:

This movie is by far NOT my favorite Hallmark movie like A Country Wedding is but I appreciated the happy ending. My Mom didn’t want to wait until the end for the actual happy ending but I told her to wait, and then it came:

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Sean has always asked me why I like these cheesy movies so much and I just laugh. Last night, I realized why I like them. It’s an escape! It has a very predictable ending and I really haven’t had a lasting love story in my life like they are in these movies. I like watching that! And now, that song is STILL in my head!!!

I haven’t written about Leia In a while but we learned of a situation late Saturday night. My Mom brushed her with the mitts I ordered for her and on Sunday, we noticed that she had bare patches of her coat that showed her skin. My Mom said that it looked like mange. When she said that, this song immediately popped into my head:

You know, because when he stops at the bar in Gatlinburg he sees, “The dirty, mangy dog that named me Sue!” I thought it was pretty gross if she had mange which because of our virtual appointment on Monday, she does NOT! The vet told us to begin the flea and tick regiment and to bathe her twice a week with an oatmeal-based shampoo.

Leia has her first appointment with the vet at the end of the month. The vet said that we should do that and she will determine what is going on at her appointment. She thinks that she may have sensitive skin. My Dad had sensitive skin and hearing that made me think of him. That and the Johnny Cash song!

My Mom bathed her on Monday evening and the vet said to wait 24 hours before we administer the flea and tick medicine. Last night, she was going to put the medicine on her back, between her shoulder blades. Neither one of us have ever done this before and being in the chair, I didn’t think I could be much help.

Leia was NOT all about staying still so my Mom laid her across my lap after I turned the chair off. Her front paws were on the outside of my right armrest and her back paws were on the outside of the left armrest by the control panel. My Mom stood just behind her to keep her steady and Leia was squirming a whole bunch.

it surprised me that I began speaking softly to her to calm her down and pet her head. She kind of started to calm down a little until I rested my right cheek on her head and continued reassuring her in a soft voice. She smelled good because of her bath the night before. She relaxed then as my Mom continued putting the medicine on her back.

Her coat looks shinier and she’s not scratching as much but she will get another bath tomorrow. I think with the administration of the medicine that we finally have bonded, more than I think we have because with me being in the chair, I haven’t really gotten able to get close to her like I did on Tuesday.