12.3.15 32 Hours OR A Random Thursday

Elle called me on Thursday and told me that Mike had a 6 o’clock appointment available.  I checked with my Mom, (she’s driving) and then called Elle back because I was going to take it.  We got to Barwis a bit early and Sue was able to take me early so I could get home early.  Sue and I did our normal PNFs and they felt really strong!  Sue told me hat I didn’t feel THAT tight and I hadn’t been to Barwis since the Monday before Thanksgiving!  I was strong and my responses were immediate and complete.  When told to push or pull my legs, I do so immediately and completed the motion through the entire movement.

Mike had just finished his 5 o’clock appointment and Sue asked for his help with stands.  He came over and he and Sue adjusted my feet and placed their feet in front of mine as stops.  They gave  their outside hands to me and placed their inside hands on my elbows.  I grabbed their thumbs and they held my hands in return.  I pushed with my quads to get to a standing position.  I squeezed their thumbs and my eyes equally as tight.  I gritted my teeth and did my best to keep my quads and butt engaged by squeezing them as tightly as I could.  It was INCREDIBLY difficult but it was the longest I have remained standing in a LONG time.

I told Mike and Sue it had to be 10 hours.  After I sat to rest, my hands felt tingly from squeezing theirs so tightly.  I apologized to them because I was sure I was squeezing the blood flow out of their hands.  For my second stand, I told them it would be for 7 hours as Mike told me to lock my knees and bend forward for a minute and then straighten up so I could more easily throw my hips forward.  Easier said than done!  For my third and final stand, I was trying to decide how long I was going to stand.  It was decided that I would stand for a total of 32 hours because that’s how old Sue is ? and that was Mike’s football number in high school.

I’m not sure how long I REALLY stood for but it was a LONG time.  It felt good and I was tired.  It wasn’t until my Mom was pushing me across the gym and out to the car that I realized that it was not Wednesday.  I asked my Mom and she told me that it was just a random Thursday.  Ive never been to Barwis on a Thursday but it’s no wonder I did SO well!  I LOVE Thursdays!

11.23.15 “Dance Gurley Man! … Dance!”

Recently, while watching football on the weekends, I have seen THIS Jolly Rancher commercial and it has become my favorite!  I think it’s HILARIOUS!  Gurley has been on my fantasy team a few times so far this season.  I keep saying, “Dance Gurley man!… Dance!”  My son shakes his head at me and tells me that it’s not as funny as I think it is.  I don’t care.  I kept saying it on the way to Barwis last Monday and when we stopped, before we got there, I showed my Mom the commercial and laughed and laughed.  I think that is a funny line – “keep on sucking.”

Barwis was busy, there were a bunch of little kids there.  I think there were 3 or 4 teams working out there.  I worked with Sue and we did our normal PNFs.  I was a lot stronger doing these and I talked about how I used to think that just being stretched out was NOT productive.  I told her how I had to stop “Walking Wednesdays” with Adam and how Mike Rhoades used to stretch me out.  I explained the “Ooh Doggie!” stretch to her and she completely knew what I was talking about.  After we did that diagonal stretch that I’m not good at, she had me roll my leg out.

I remember doing this, or rather, ATTEMPTING to do this with BOTH Jesse and Phil.  It was SO difficult that I was TERRIBLE at it!  Thinking of the Todd Gurley commercial, I told Sue that, “I sucked!”  and laughed and asked if she saw the Jolly Rancher commercial.  She told me that I didn’t and then she bent my legs and I STILL could do it.  It felt REALLY good!  My Mom came over and she didn’t realize that I was the one moving my legs until Sue told her.  I texted Jesse and Phil the good news.  I told them, “Look who’s not sucking anymore” and explained the Gurley reference.  I told Jesse, “who would have thought that it would take 2 years, 4 months, and 11 days?”  Well, I didn’t think it would but it feels SO GOOD to get control of my legs again… regardless of how slowly getting that control takes…

I wished Sue a “Happy Thanksgiving” because that was the only time I was at Barwis before Thanksgiving.

December 2015 Faves

It feels SO good to have my car back!!!  I’ve missed you Bea!!! (my car is a girl).  She is named after Colbie Caillet (the 1st song I heard on the radio the first time I drove it).  I can hear songs now!

Sean says that I listen to “teeny-bopper” music.  Yeah, well… Whatever.

“Wildest Dreams”. Taylor Swift

“Hello”. Adele

“Good To Be Alive (Hallelujah)” (EXPLICIT)  Andy Grammer

“Song For Someone”  U2

“She Used To Be Mine”  Sara  Bareillis

“Worth It”  Fifth Harmony

“Renegades”  X Ambassedors

“Go Big Or Go Home”  American Authors

Throw Back Tune: (I WAS a teeny-bopper!)

“Disease”  Matchbox Twenty

 

11.20.15 Standing Tall

I worked with Mike on Friday.  We worked on the last black table.  We did all of our normal PNFs and then Mike said we would work on standing.  I inched to the edge of the table as he pulled my ankles the rest of they way.  I closed my eyes and activated all the muscles that ALL of my trainers have told me to and I was standing tall!  My back was straight and I was standing!  Mike was impressed and I stood tall for what Mike told me was “at least 1/2 a song.”  I wish I knew what song was playing but I didn’t.  I was so busy concentrating on keeping my muscles firing that I wasn’t aware iof the music.  After my knees bent and Mike helped me back on the table I was just too tired to really listen.

Mike had us move over to right in front of the mirror so I could see myself stand.  I didn’t dig that because I could see how ENORMOUS my butt was when I stood.  Standing got difficult and the stander was nearby.  I told Mike that this stander kind of looked like the stander I used with Adam but it had a tray in front of it like it was a high chair.  He told me that this stander used to have a tray on it but they took it off so this was the same stander.  He adjusted the feet rests so the stander would hold my knees in place while I stood.  My legs are pretty short.  Well, I’m pretty short so Mike raised the foot petals so it would hold my knees in place.

i vaguely remember Phil adjusting the petals the same way.  Once I was in the stander, instead of cranking it up as Phil used to, Mike had me standup on my own.  This was progress!  It was difficult to stand in the stander so I eventually I sat down to rest.  Mike told me that we’d figure it out and put his arms out to help me out of the stander.  I grabbed his arms and stepped out of the stander.  I stood up straight just as my Mom came into the gym from talking with Elle.  She got to see me standing tall.  It felt good to have her witness my progress.  It may be slow but it’s steady!

11.18.15 “Wacky Sock Wedneesday” #36

I worked with Sue on Wednesday and we started with the normal PNFs as we always do.  She’s added a new stretch.  I’ve done it a few times and I’m not very good at it.  I’ve explained to Sue that I am getting stronger standing.  I feel really sturdy on my feet and that feels really good but once I am standing after using my quads to stand and I am up tall;  I don’t know what to do.  I can’t move or shift my weight at all.  She explained to me which muscles I would need to activate to pivot and shift my weight to transfer onto the table from my chair.  These are the same muscles I would need to use when I am walking.

Well, no wonder I’m bad at it!  This stretch has me activate a small muscle group on the insides of my legs.  I need to push my leg in on a diagonal and on the next set, push them out on that same diagonal.  These movements are particularly difficult and Sue explains that using my quads or even my hamstrings to push or pull in a straight movement is much easier.  THAT is SO true!  I think I did two sets of like 5 on each leg both pushing and pulling and it felt like a MILLION.  I think it’s the diagonal part that makes it SO difficult!

i look forward to the day that these movements will become easy for me but that day was not here yet and I was EXHAUSTED!!!  My legs felt like Jell-O and it was difficult to even stand to transfer to my chair.  I had to just sit for a minute.  Sue told me that my legs felt looser than they did on Monday so that encouraged me.  It was a bit discouraging however, how difficult this new stretch was for me.  I sat in my chair absolutely still because I was SO tired!  It was “Wacky Sock Wednesday” #36 and I didn’t even take a picture of my socks!  I had my Mom take this picture because I couldn’t move because I was so tired.  My ankles were a little bit swollen.

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All-Time Christmas Faves 2015

It’s about that time and STILL TOTALLY is NOT Christmas without these tunes!!!

“Last Christmas” Wham!

“I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas”   Gayla Peevey

“Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” Judy Garland

“Merry Christmas, Darling” Karen Carpenter

“All I Want For Christmas Is You” Mariah Carey

Feliz Navidad” Jose Feliciano – DUH!

“Christmas Shoes” Alabama

“Shake Up Christmas” Train

“Mary, Did You Know?” Cee Lo Green

“Please Come Home for Christmas” Bon Jovi

“O, Holy Night” Jon Secada

“River” Sarah McLachlan – Parker digs this one so I do now too.

“”Baby, Please Come Home” U2

Added these songs in 2014:

“Underneath The Tree”  Kelly Clarkson

“Do They Know It’s Christmas?”  Band Aid

 “God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen/We Three Kings”   Barenaked Ladies Feat. Sarah McLachlan

My Mom played this one for me on Veteran’s Day this year.  I’ve heard it before but… I cried.

The Soldier’s Christmas Poem

Feature/Profile

So, my cousin, Ariel (the same one who drove me to Barwis) is in college and she is a GREAT writer and an honor student.  She wrote about me for one of her classes.  I was not only flattered that she chose to write about me, but I was so pleased with what she wrote… WOW!!!!

Check it out:

Ariel Guevara
JOUR 131
Dr. Kim
Fall 2015
Feature/Profile

Who: Jennifer Rios

What: A single mother and Detroit English teacher living with MS.

Why: To inform readers about MS and to spread awareness about the need for ADA regulations to be upgraded.

How: An interview with her.

Significance: Jennifer is a single mother and a teacher who inspires others with her ability to cope with her illness and succeed despite it. She hopes to spread awareness about the failings of the ADA to truly make the world more accessible for people with disabilities.

Sources:

Rios, Jennifer. “Not Spinning My Wheels.” Not Spinning My Wheels. N.p., n.d. Web. 14 Nov. 2015. <http://notspinningmywheels.com/>.

“What Is MS?” National Multiple Sclerosis Society. N.p., n.d. Web. 14 Nov. 2015. <http://www.nationalmssociety.org/What-is-MS>.

Disabled People Matter Too

“You have MS. You’re going to go blind and then you’re going to die.” This is how a doctor broke the news to Jennifer Rios who was only 18 when she found out she had been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). To that doctor, Jennifer says, “I’m not dead yet!” In fact, she is far from dead. Despite having what she calls “a really mean disease,” Jennifer  is raising her son by herself, teaching struggling students to read, and working on gaining the strength to walk again.

According to the National Multiple Sclerosis Society, Multiple Sclerosis is a disease that disrupts the flow of information between the brain and the body. Essentially, those living with MS lose the ability to control their own bodies. Jennifer’s MS has mostly affected her legs, leaving her wheelchair-bound. “It’s definitely not something I would wish on my worst enemy,” says Jennifer who goes on to describe the near constant pain she experiences and a numbness in her legs that she can’t quite find the words to explain.  “This really hurts,” Jennifer admits, although she says she tries not to acknowledge the pain because  she has other things to do and can’t afford to dwell on it.

Jennifer is often told that she is inspirational by people who marvel at her ability to persevere and  continue working through her disease, but she doesn’t see it that way. For her, living with MS is not something she does to inspire others; she does it because she has to. “I have a son who’s in eighth grade and I still have to get through the high school years! Not working is not an option.” She adds that her MS is both an afterthought and a forethought in that she has things she has to accomplish outside of coping with the disease though it affects every part of her life.  “It’s gonna hurt whether I’m at home or I’m at work, so I might as well be getting paid for it!” Jennifer describes her disease as an obstacle that she has no other choice but to work around.

When it comes to her work, Jennifer is dedicated teacher. As the Reading Specialist at the Cesar Chavez Middle School in Detroit, MI, she often works from the ground up, teaching struggling students to read. Before she can do that, though, she has to make it to work and even that requires a lot of effort. When describing a typical work day, Jennifer says that she starts getting ready at about 4:15 a.m.  when her mom arrives at her house to help her out of bed and into the bathroom which is not accessible.  “My house was built in 1951, and in 1951, people in wheelchairs didn’t own houses or live by themselves,” Jennifer laughs.  The process after she gets into the bathroom takes almost two hours. “My hair is still wet, I have my clothes on, and I am officially tired at 6:30.” Still, Jennifer travels from Dearborn to southwest Detroit five days a week, teaches until school lets out, and then grades papers while waiting for her mom to pick her back up.

To her students, Jennifer expresses a great deal of gratitude. “They’re really understanding,” she says. “I have never struggled with the door in 11 years because the kids always open it for me.” Jennifer even adds that her MS helps her students relate to her even though they don’t deal with the same struggles that she does. “I think it humanizes me to them,” she says and adds that her students feel less vulnerable about their inability to read when they’re working with a person who has visible disabilities. “I love giving them the ability to read […] That’s really cool.” For Jennifer, the silver lining to her situation is that it hasn’t hindered her ability to do her job. As she says, “You can teach a kid to read from a wheelchair.” She does explain that there have been plenty of awkwardly funny situations stemming from mishaps with students. “Every year probably about four or five sixth graders end up in my lap because they’re running and not paying attention in the halls and they run right into me and I catch them. They’re so apologetic […] and they just kind of laugh that embarrassed laugh.” She also admits that she has accidentally run over her fair share of toes.

Jennifer also has a strong relationship with her son, Sean. She decided she wanted a child immediately after finding out that she had MS, remembering that her mother’s coworker had MS and couldn’t have children because of her deteriorating condition. “I always knew I needed to be a mother, probably because my mom’s the best in the world,” Jennifer recalls. She says she wanted to have a baby before she could get to that point. She was 18 when she said, “‘I’m gonna have a baby,” and she was 19 when she gave birth to her son.  When describing her relationship with Sean, Jennifer smiles and says, “We’re a team.”

When asked if Americans with Disabilities Act (ADA) regulations are effective enough, Jennifer replies that they’re not. Though she says they have come a long way, she thinks there are still ways in which our society can be more inclusive towards people with disabilities.  “Accessibility is just a list that contractors are checking off,” says Jennifer who finds the most problems with public restrooms. Of contractors again, she says, “[…] They don’t think about a person who does not have control of their body having to use the public restroom.” The sinks are usually so high that she has to lift her arms until her elbows are at her ears, just to wash her hands. Even simple things like a garbage can too close to the door can become a new challenge for a person in a wheelchair. Another thing that bothers her is when she finds a baby changing station inside the only extra-wide stall. “What if there’s a baby who really needs a diaper changed and a disabled person? Who takes priority?” Jennifer asserts that disabled people need to be made contracting consultants when building plans are being made so that situations like that don’t happen. Jennifer says that someone in a wheelchair would know to make a door wide enough for them to fit through even when their elbows are out because they have to wheel themselves.

There are local businesses that are extremely considerate towards the struggles of disabled people. Jennifer mentions a local Potbelly that has gone above and beyond to make going out a little easier for them.   The one she talks about features a special, shortened counter that she can roll right up to and ring a bell to let employees know that she’s there. The same store even has a special way of stocking drinks in the coolers so that they resemble a palindrome which makes it easy for disabled people to get to them. “Everything that’s on the top shelf is also on the bottom shelf,” meaning that people in wheelchairs can grab any drink they want for themselves without having to ask someone else to get it for them. Jennifer particularly loves that the restaurant has handicap seating where one side of the table is completely open so that she can sit there comfortably with her son. These considerations are proof that public places can be made to accommodate people with disabilities.

As for herself, Jennifer remains optimistic. She works with trainers up to three days a week to stretch and exercise the muscles in her legs, and she keeps others up to date on her progress by sharing her experiences on her blog, Not Spinning My Wheels.  Jennifer says of her progress, “… All the work I’m doing at Barwis, my legs are slowly waking up. I’m slowly gaining control of my muscles. You know, I can wiggle my toes.”

 

11.16.15 NOT Lost

I worked with Sue Monday and she took me a little early because I got there early.  My legs were SO tight that I couldn’t even bend them!  I wasn’t on the schedule last week at all and I FELT it!  Sue did too.  She REALLY worked me hard.  I was afraid that not being on the schedule (that hamstring tear REALLY stunk!) would make me lose some of the progress I’ve recently felt that I’ve been making.  As Sue worked me and my legs gradually loosened, I kept exclaiming that, “It’s NOT lost!” as my legs started doing what Sue told them to do.

The PNFs were strong and that made me happy.  After Sue stretched me out, it was apparent that I hadn’t lost the strength and control that I slowly have been gaining.  I was working HARD and that was apparent to me when I could feel the bile rising in my throat.  I remembered Adam telling me that it was a good thing if I threw up.  It means that I have pushed my body THAT hard. GROSS! I remembered Mike Rhoades telling me that PNFs were working and I didn’t really believe him.  Then, I thought of my days of teaching English and teaching the book, The Outsiders because I was chewing my gum hard (just like Cherry Valance did when she met Dally).  She did it because she was mad but I did it because I was trying to keep getting sick at bay.  Random things that I have kept in my head over 11 years of teaching.

My time was just about over and my legs felt SO relaxed and I knew that I would sleep well.  It felt good to be at Barwis after what seemed like a LONG absence from it.  I can’t wait until I can feel this loose all the time.  Seems that when I’m walking, I wont get so stiff.  That’s what I am working toward.

11.2.15 The Human Shuttle

It was Sean’s 14th birthday but he of all people knows first-hand how IMPERATIVE it is that I go to Barwis.  It was the only time I was scheduled for that week so I HAD to go!  I worked with Sue on a black table.  We started with the PNFs I always do.  This time Sue added a different PNF.  I laid on my back and instead of me pushing my leg straight out (which I am getting pretty good at!), she turned my foot in and left my knee straight.  I needed to push my foot out.  It felt extremely strange and Sue had to talk me through it and touch the spots in my legs and hips where I needed to use.  It was DIFFICULT and it made my butt and outside of my hips ache from overuse because I NEVER use those muscles.

Sue explained to me that this stretch will help me with pivoting and changing direction when I stand or walk.  Standing up from my chair has become A LOT easier for me but I don’t know what to do after that.  I just smile once I am standing straight up with my weight evenly distributed on my feet and tell whomever I am working with that day that I don’t know what to do and have them help me to the table.  I don’t feel upset anymore that nowadays my time at Barwis is largely comprised of stretching and PNFs because NOW I understand that all of these PNFs ARE getting my muscles stronger.  It’s a piecemeal.  I’m activating different muscles one-by-one in isolation and when I will put all the activated muscles together, I will walk.

Sue looked over to the shuttle and then at her phone.  She told me that we would not have time to go over to the shuttle so instead she was going to be the human shuttle and mimic the movements I would need to do as if I was on the shuttle and she would offer the resistance like the shuttle did.  I liked this because it was a movement I was familiar with and am getting kind of GOOD at!  My legs proved to be pretty Jell-O-y as I tried to stand to transfer back to my chair so Sue had to help out a lot.  Once in my chair, my legs felt looser and warm. I LOVE that feeling and I was satisfied and knew that I worked extremely hard.