I had written this post probably a month or two ago, but I deleted it because a I had posted a video that was in English on my phone, but on my blog, it was in Spanish. I just deleted the post and shoved those feelings down.
I’ve been thinking about it more so now because I never saw this one coming. Definitely never saw this one coming! I really can’t believe how small my life is now!!!
I started thinking about a memory from about nine years ago. A guy who we had a fun, flirty existence with each other. I say that because I KNEW that I was flirting big time with him!
We started messaging each other Facebook messenger, and the flirting continued! it was after I injured my knee and was fired, but it was before my surgery. I was in A LOT of pain!!!
He messaged me that everyone needs ‘a person’ and I completely understood the Grey’s Anatomy reference. it took me a moment to respond and when I did, that was the last message I sent him.
I told them that MS is raging through my body right now and I don’t want to involve anyone else in this fight!
I said that because it was and is the truth. I don’t think MS is ‘raging’ right now, but rather; it is a dull, unrelenting ache. Sadly, I still mean what I said, I’m not going to involve anyone in this fight. It’s difficult!
The video I posted here that was in English on my phone, but in Spanish on my blog talked about five celebrity women who have prioritized their health above a relationship.
For me, I couldn’t help but think, or rather, KNOW that that is NOT a choice to prioritize that. These five women had intense medical problems and chronic illnesses, and you really can’t choose when you’re facing one of those, I can attest to that!!!
That’s what kind of makes me sad about it all. I didn’t have a choice in getting this disease and it is more difficult than I ever imagined so no, I do not want to involve anyone else in this. I DEFINITELY did not see this one coming. I had plans for my life and this was NOT one of them.
But, it is what it is and I just have to deal with it. It’s obvious that I think that having MS sucks and my new hashtag is #Pray #Persevere #Endure #Survive because that’s all I can do at this point.
My eyes do not hurt today so that is a good thing.