Today, I am quiet. I’m always quiet on this day. I’m not going to say that it was a day that my world cracked. I’ve been through a crack in my world when my Dad died and this is not that! However, it has been a definite shift on my axis. Everyone knows that with the slightest shift in and on your course will take you so far off of your intended destination 18 years later.
The result of that slight shift has led me to where I am now. Where I ended up is so different from where I thought I would be before the doctor told me that, “I have MS, I’m going to go blind, and then I’m going to die.”
Today is the 18th anniversary of that doctor telling me that I have MS. I have had MS for half of my life! Now, it’s not as if having had MS for half of my life is not hard enough, but my knee injury, subsequent surgery, and prolonged pain has caused that slight shift to become even more pronounced!
It is beyond difficult to endure! The constant pain is almost unbearable and the fact that I resisted having a motorized chair for as long as I did doesn’t matter now because with the pain I am in, I have to have one! Yes, that slight shift on my axis is horrible! Hence, I am quiet.