Sean saw my knee last Saturday as he changed by ice. He was disgusted! He told me that it looked like someone had shoved a screwdriver into my knee, twice! So, my surgical ports are still not healed! More than two months after surgery, they still look angry red and “disgusting.” But at least they are not bloody anymore!
My knee hurt yesterday and Brad started with traction first because it hurt so much! As he pulled my leg, Megan came over from Barwis! She came over to cool down because Barwis is not air-conditioned. I was a bit cold at ATI so I was wearing a hoodie in the middle of the summer! Megan came right over and hugged me!
We talked while Brad pulled on my leg that really felt good! I told her about my knee still hurting but I hoped to be back to Barwis soon. I told her how Dr. Frush had suggested that I may transition back to Barwis after my next appointment which is Monday and how I was doubtful of this because my knee still really hurt!
When Brad was finished with the traction, he unsnapped my pants so Meghan could see my surgical parts and how gross they still look. I told Brad what Sean said and he told me they were starting to look better. He has seen how totally gross they have looked since surgery. I do not remember my last knee surgery taking this long to heal.
It looks like there are two red plus signs on my knee still! I’m tired of my knee still hurting so much because it really does! Brad rubbed my knee and calf out and I was kind of spastic which is disheartening! I really hate how long it is taking to heal! I miss Barwis so much but Dr. Frush told me months ago, in September, not to go back to Barwis until my knee stopped hurting. I can’t believe it still hurts!
I lifted my foot a few times end it took a few times for my leg to relax and allow my foot to be raised. After we did this a few times, Brad pressed and my butt and had me tighten it a few times. I asked if he could feel anything and he said he could a little bit and I told him it was because my butt is too big.
He laughed but it was kind of nice to feel it a little bit. My muscles were tightening like they used to, on command. It was kind of like when I was at Barwis only less but it made me feel hopeful that I can get muscle control back because I haven’t felt that since surgery; all I have really felt is pain since my injury!
Next visit is my last visit before going to see Dr. Frush and I only have a few more visits left until my insurance will refuse to pay anymore. My insurance is running out anyway since my termination from work but Brad told me that insurance will only pay for 25 visits regardless of what Dr. Frush says.
I asked Brad if it would behoove me to continue to come to ATI if Dr. Frush extends therapy. He nodded and I said I would figure out how to pay for it because I don’t want to leave therapy prematurely because my knee doesn’t feel ready to go back to Barwis anyway. Read hooked me up for ice and stim and I thought about how my knee is taking it’s time to heal and my surgical ports still look bad. I am tired of my limits after surgery and I am tired of my knee hurting since before surgery!