Today, when we got our haircut, I told Christina that Sean will be 24 on November 2. She was totally floored!!! She has been cutting my hair for 25 years?!
They listen to the same radio station each time I go to get our haircut and my eyebrows waxed and I was picking a montage of 80s songs to post on my blog; but, then I heard this song and I was completely floored myself! I remember singing this song and holding onto the mic stand for dear life because I was about to fall over.
I could still sing back then. My cousin was 15. I know that Sean was alive. Here’s the song:
When the doctor told me that he ‘rid my body of cancer,’ just as I was hearing Our Lady Peace and thinking about all the people that I have loved and lost as well as the people currently fighting it, I instinctively said quietly, “Thank you” because I am my Mother‘s daughter.
He offhandedly told me that the polyp is being biopsied and that I would be contacted on MyChart with the results.
Well, those results came in today. Actually, when I had just awakened and hadn’t quite gotten out of bed yet. I decided to log in to MyChart to find out what it said. I completely expected it to say nothing!!!
I STILL do not understand why I DO NOT realize that I have had MS for almost a quarter of a century! OF COURSE they would find something and they did. I read this message, screenshot it, and sent it to my Mom.
Here is part of it, and I don’t know what else to say about it:
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I read that and remained silent. My Mom came in to get me out of bed and told me that she read the entire thing as well. Our routine when she gets me out of bed is pretty much a silent one. We both know what we have to do. It’s been years.
So, when she gets me into my wheelchair, I need to adjust my chair all the way back to that gravity do the work to get me seated comfortably in the chair. I then buckle my seatbelt (really it’s a pelvis stabilizer) and then bring my chair forward, and I put my sweatshirt on.
Then, my Mom grabs my hands and pulls them straight out in front of me. I get to stretch my back as she pulls the back of my sweatshirt down. As I did that this morning, (this afternoon) I said, “I guess he really did rid my body of cancer.” What I was not prepared for, was what happened next.
She has both of my hands and I am leaning forward and I began to sob!!! Like, tears streaming out of both of my eyes and I’m STILL sobbing!
I didn’t think about this until after I was in the living room and the only reason I stopped sobbing was because I gave myself a headache. This song came out when I was at Western, and I only learned probably in the last decade that she has Lupus and that’s what this song is about:
They were diamonds on MY bedroom floor this morning for sure!!!
Now to talk about the successful colonoscopy just a little bit. They put me back into a room after I got out of the procedure room. Two nurses were helping me and told me that the doctor would be in soon to talk to me about my procedure. I was pretty groggy!
I looked in MyChart, and this is the guy who did my colonoscopy:
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He looked about my age and walked into the room, saying these six words, “I rid your body of cancer.” he walked in further and he said that that’s what happens when you leave polyps there. I had one on the left side of my colon.
But when he said those six words to me, I immediately thought of my aunt Rita and the corners of my eyes stung a little bit. This song was playing in my head:
I thought of Sean’s other grandparents who lost their battle with cancer and currently the people fighting it! I’m just happy that he says that I don’t have to come back for 5 to 7 years. My Mom said we will see you in seven and as he left I asked her, “When you’re 80? We’ll see him in five.”
Vertical Horizon opened for Third Eye Blind for my very first concert at DTE music theater just after graduation from high school. I saw them perform this song, but it was not until the music video where I really liked it and bought the CD out in Kalamazoo:
I’m pretty sure that my high school friends made fun of me for doing so. It wasn’t the type CD that you listen to on loop, but I’d liked this song! I thought of it last night just after I brushed my teeth.
I was trying to fall to sleep last night and this video popped up in my feed so I HAD TO watch it!!!:
I, straight bawled my eyes out!!! With every chair turn, it was so exciting. I think that I was tired but I LOVED watching this!!! ALL 21 minutes of it!!!
