Okay, so while I was writing my last blog post, I received a YouTube alert on my phone. It interrupted me editing my blog post but I had to click on it because it was for this song
I finished my blog post before watching the video but after I finished, I listened to the song and it was immediately taken back to still being in college and working at the credit union. I have two different college experiences. The first one was at WMU when I didn’t have a child and the second experience is living back at my Parents’ house and commuting to U of M Dearborn with an infant and later a toddler once I graduated and Sean and I moved out on our own.
Yesterday, I was talking to Sean on the phone and he asked me what song this was and he started to kind of sung this tune to me:
I is mmediately recognize this song and knew that it was a song that I listened to often when Sean was growing up. I really didn’t think about it! I have always underestimated my influence on Sean’s musical tastes but I guess I DID influence him!
I thought about this a lot today regarding this post. I’ve been thinking about it for a while but I remember my colleague and friend telling me that,” you know that you’re old when you keep listening to the same music from your youth.“. Well, I have felt old for a while but then this happened and I’m totally OK with sharing my jams from my youth:
My Mom has told me that I’m not allowed to go gray in her lifetime and I will wait for this hair to get some friends before I will let my hairdresser caokor my hair. She has been dying to put highlights in my hair for years! So now that I am officially, “Old,” I don’t mind sharing these songs because I seriously had forgotten how much good music was on, somgs about Jane:
Today is the third day that my body is going through a whole lot! This change in the weather is KILLING me! On the first day, it was, “Tiring” and yesterday I tried to deflect but I couldn’t get ahead of the pain. I checked the weather last night and knew it wasn’t going to be good before I fell asleep but to wake up and FEEL it not being good it’s EXTREMELY difficult!
Sean would always marvel at the fact that I grew up during The Pistons three peat. I was young and I didn’t really think about it back then. But now, as an adult, and seeing how badly destroyed sports are struggling, I should’ve appreciated it. But this, these last three days, are my three peat and it stinks! I was supposed to wash my hair today but that is NOT happening! I don’t feel embarrassed by saying that and it just goes to show that sometimes people with MS just can’t!
Usually, on days when I feel this badly, I will post a song because it doesn’t take a lot of effort. A couple days ago, my MS Music Lovers Group posted this song and I had never seen the video but I remember it coming out and I remember that I liked in a whole lot:
I will hope for better weather tomorrow. I hope it’s “like cinnamon.”
Yesterday, I saw this Tweet and I had to think for a moment how to answer it. I didn’t want to answer it with the obvious answer for me. U2! I know the words to pretty much everyone of their songs! And I also wanted to answer it with an obvious answer. I thought back to when I was a junior in high school. I remember listening to this CD on loop for months! My senior quote was a lyric from, “No Woman, No Cry.” So this was my answer:
But, additionally, I have been seeing a commercial about going to Jamaica. This song plays in the background:
Hearing this song in the commercial reminds me of when I first injured my knee. It was before surgery and before I got my motorized chair. I had a routine back then, Sean would get me out of bed before his ride came to take him to school. By the time he came home from school, I would be sitting in my wheelchair, “Puzzlin’” (I used to sit under the dining room light and work on a puzzle on a card table I’d put up in the living room. I was on leave from work but my surgery was not scheduled as yet. I appreciated the escapism of doing a puzzle. So, I put playlists on my Apple Music Account and I would sit there and l would, “puzzle” for hours.
I had just added a Bob Marley playlist to my phone because that is a GREAT album! I will never forget that I was straight jammin to that album when Sean came home from school. I was singing along and just doing my puzzle. Sean would come in to the house and go into his bedroom to change out of his school clothes.
He would come out of his room changed and would go to the kitchen to get something to eat out of the refrigerator. I still continued to jam to the album and when he sat down on the couch, he got my attention by telling me that it was weird to come home to hear his mom sing to Bob Marley! I started to laugh and I told him about this album being on loop for months in my car when I was in high school. I told him about my friend who really liked Bob Marley and he was the one who turned me onto it.
We started talking about this specific album and I told him my favorite songs and about my senior quote. I told him that Bob Marley was before my time but he was super cool then! GREAT music lasts!
So, last Wednesday, I wrote a post about three random songs that showed up in my YouTube feed. They were songs that used to break my heart when I was young and dramatic! But, I didn’t cry and that made me happy that perhaps, Big Brother May have lost a step because they didn’t make me cry! Maybe I am on the road to healing! I (TOTALLY don’t see that happening anytime soon especially since I can’t control my emotions anymore!)
So, let me ‘splain ya:
So, my brother read that post and commented;
I have since decided that the 90s was the BEST musical decade! At least for me, I was young, without responsibilities, and was still able bodied! I looked at the playlists and I saw this one popped up in it:
That song is woven into The fabric of Mike youth and for so many reasons! I explained in the blog post I shared last Wednesday hell my brother, Jimmy, told me about a week before my cousins’s quince that his friend and he were going to perform a song that was sung by a female so I had to sing it. He had called me when I had just gotten home from class and I drove over to his house and we jammed. Our comments continued on that blog post:
Since this conversation had taken place, (and Luis lives in Mexico) I searched my blog to find the post where I had written about this song. I couldn’t really remember what I wrote. I searched through 35 pages on my phone in my, “Tines” tab to find it!
Re-posting and subsequently reading what I had written, I DID have a killer dress on (that I no longer can wear because having MS, weight fluctuates a lot and the dress was three sizes too big for me about seven years ago. I don’t know where it is now. Probably in my basement. It has great memories attached to it!
I wrote about holding on to the mic stand as I sang to study me. Retrospectively thinking about this, it was beginning of me completely losing control over my muscles. That kind of makes me sad but I appreciate having chronicles all of these things in my blog so I can go back and think about that specific day. I’m pretty sure I saw family members recording it so, it’s a new one has it, that would be really cool to see!
Having to tell Luis that I am, “Out” in terms of getting the band back together greatly saddens me! I knew it was that I should not have challenged Big Brother but since I did, he got me! Since re-posting this blog post, I have listened to this song multiple times and I have cried!
So, I saw my latest Facebook videos that are popping them and I felt okay with it. But last night, my eyes were hurting so I took my contacts out and while my mom was walking Leia, I am put my James Blunt playlist on shuffle. I wondered if I was a glutton for punishment:
After a while, I heard this song:
I texted that to Sean and he responded with this:
If I recall correctly, it was summertime and I listened to that song A LOT!!! At that point in my life, I was coping by eating 10 packs of Tim Bits! Sean was young and he just accompanied me to Tim Horton’s. It was not far from our apartment complex. I don’t think he knows to this day how broken I was but I like that we can laugh about it now because we made a memory!
This is the lyric that broke my heart:
Back in the day, this song tore me up but now, I just remember going to Tim Horton’s the with my little boy! Donuts are definitely my weakness!!! Sean cannot hear this song without making a joke:
Big Brother has been trying to get me by posting random songs in my Facebook feed but time has passed and I’m not falling for it. I don’t want to tease him because I know that he is powerful but there were a few songs that showed up and a long time ago, they would have broken me but I’m okay. So, Nice try? I guess getting older has its perks?
I was talking to my Mom about the specific YouTube video I saw and I shared it with her. I am posting this on my blog now because my YouTube feed will be refreshed with U2 songs which I really enjoy!
Back when I shared this video with her, another video popped up that I thoroughly enjoyed and shared with her as well:
I shared this video with her because she really likes the, “Where the streets have no name“ video and that is a song she will listen to with me because she likes the video so much!
So now, I think my YouTube feed will be filled with U2 videos which I like a whole bunch! And, I need to add (which I overlook too often) but I think it is because I love Bono so much! But Adam Clayton is so cool! I remember seeing a video and they were playing their instruments and he was just nonchalantly plucking his base with a cigarette between his lips!
Big Brother it’s definitely trying his hardest to trigger tears from me! It’s in my Facebook feed that these songs show up. I’ve been thinking about the latest song that showed up for a few days now. This morning, I checked my phone to see what time it was because it was still dark outside and I saw this:
Seeing my Dad eyes staring back at me was extremely startling while I was half asleep and laying in my bed in my pitch black room.
Today, I have constantly been thinking about this song and remembering sitting in a booth at a restaurant whose name I cannot remember right now but I heard this song. It was kind of soon after my Dad’s death and it always makes me think of him.
back then, this line reminded me of him most:
My Dad has only visited me in my sleep a couple of times in the past 14.75 years that he has been gone but as I hear this song and searched the lyrics for this blog post, Big Brother has succeeded in making me cry but I can ALWAYS cry when I think of my Dad, just not immediately. Well you played, Big Brother!:
