I have not realized that I have been in a funk for a while. Since I went to the doctor for my feet. So, a couple days before that as one really started to hurt and then I found out some answers. Now I just have to wait. But here’s the thing, my body does not heal quickly at all! I’ve told you before that I can handle internal pain but external pain, yeah, not so much.
i’m posted that I was completing puzzles in silence and I posted these two puzzles:
But then I completed three more in silence:
I had just excepted that I was just going to do this in silence because my mind is so full because the pain in my feet is putting my brain into overload. But then I saw and completed this puzzle:
When I completed this puzzle, I completely thought of this movie and it made me want to watch it again and listen to music again.
Still trying to process all of the things that are going on with me! I feel like I am in a cartoon and Daffy duck is being pushed around in a pinball and he gets all crazy eyes because he’s dizzy and then the red letters, “Tilt” comes on the screen because he is totally in overload. Well, that’s how I feel right now!!!
And this is why:
It still is a matter of internal pain verses external pain. I can totally and completely handle internal pain! I have been doing that for 21+ years! Not by choice! But this is the way it is! But, external pain not so much. I have been realizing that the past four days! I have been experiencing external pain for about a week. Last Tuesday, I went to the dermatologist and had him help with the sores/blisters that irrupt it on the outside of both of my feet.
That same day, we bought new shoes for me to help with that because my other shoes were the ones that gave me the blisters/sores and I’m trying to deal with that right now and I’ll write about it soon.
But, to deal with the sores on my feet, which I normally can’t feel so it really doesn’t hurt me, hurts now! My Mom will take my socks off at night and tend to the sores with Neosporin. To let my feet air out, I will sleep in my bed without compression socks. In ‘zero gravity’ mode which is most comfortable. Doctors have been telling me since I started wearing them in 2016 that I should take them off when I sleep but I did not want to do that because I depended on them so much. I was too afraid to! But now, I HAVE to! But, the reason I have to wear them 24 seven it’s because I no longer have blood flow in my legs. My legs begin to swell in 2016 and that’s when I started wearing them. At first, I just wore them for a few days at a time and I take a couple days off but then it became apparent that I can’t take any time off for long periods of time.
But, for the last four days, I realize why I HAVE to keep them on all night! I have CRYSTAL CLEAR realization/revelation for the past four days by being ripped out of my sleep because my legs are throbbing so terribly! Hey I’m not really familiar with this song but it was the B side of, “My name is Luca” by Suzanne Vega. It wasn’t even my tape but I vaguely remember the song and as I am being ripped for my sleep at about 6:30 in the morning, this song plays in my head:
I am NOT a fan at all of this external pain but I fear that it will take a long while to heal! My MS ridden body no longer heals they quickly at all! I wonder how long this is going to take but this one is a difficult pill to swallow for sure!
So, I have figured out that I need to finish the complete tune and puzzle completed by the next day.
Last night I heard two songs while I completed a rather difficult puzzle that I did not finish until this morning in silence but as I worked last night these are the two songs I heard:
I posted this one last night but I love re-posting it because I needed to hear that song exactly when I heard it!:
Notable Tume #4:
Now, I know that the suspense is killing you but this is the puzzle I was working on for both songs and I did not complete it until this morning as I set up in bed and silence.
But this is all I completed as I was listening to those songs:
I just came up with this idea as I was puzzling and my Mom was sleeping. But then I heard two songs that are great so I want to add to that growing list but I need to add in a clarification. I should have posted this that day or even the next day but I have two songs that I really love and I heard as I was puzzlin.’ I can go back to the date I published the post and I can narrow down for the first two tunes one of three puzzles I may have been working on for both of those songs.
I will add in a recap into this clarification:
Tune #1:
Tune #2
Now, because I did not explicitly assign Hey son to which puzzle I was complaining there’s a choice between three. I will purchase puzzles that I think are cool but I also just complete puzzles to get the points because they’re free to complete. Here are the three options of a possible puzzle that I was doing while these songs played:
The first puzzle I took a picture of farm myTunes thread:
But then I took pictures of two other puzzles a day apart so I don’t know if I was completing them when I was letting you know the song. Here are the last two puzzles;
I don’t know why I took screenshots of these two puzzles differently than the first one but I know exactly what puzzle I was doing while I heard the two songs today but I think I may start going to bed now or at least waking my Mom up so I will post that tomorrow.
I think that I have poached the puzzles I was Working and when a song came on. But I haven’t heard this song in a while and it reminds me of my second apartment for nice soul head my beautiful bedroom sad before my disease progressed wear it is now. I hadn’t thought about this song for a while:
I have thought about this long and hard since I got my haircut. Even though my cousin, Melissa, and I jammed to Debbie Gibson, we also jammed to this one and that’s what I heard in the salon:
Today is tax day. I just paid my first installment of the amount I owed. It is the first time that I have I ever owed the IRS money and for some reason I can’t stop singing this song and I think that my Dad is proud!
My bed was delivered yesterday and I slept in it for the first time last night. It’s going to be tricky to get in and out but the sleep was superb! Best sleep everrrr!!!
I am a little bit overwhelmed and I will try to sort my feelings out but trust me that this song was playing in my head!
So, my Mom will take a nap before I finally am ready to turn in for bed. I puzzle on my phone app and I have decided that there are some songs that I am hearing that I’ve never heard before and it’s just randomly generated from the song I begin puzzling to. I always start with Sara Bareilles, “She Used to be Mine” but now I’m hearing this song almost every day:
My phone is about to die but I heard this song and was immediately transported back to driving my blue Chevy cavalier to my summer time job after high school at 7:11. It’s early in the morning and I am hung over from a graduation party last night! Time to make a coffee! And that’s why I don’t drink coffee! Disgusting!!! Never!!!