“Low and Haunting”

I became a member of the ‘virtual front pew’ on week 17 of Ordinary Time 2021. I go to mass each week in my living room now. I used to just watch it on my phone. Something that I have known since I started going to mass here is that Fr. Mike is my contemporary. I think he’s three years older than me. He was 45 when I was 42?

I am on the fifth time going through the Bible a Year and I have just begun the Catechism in a Year and I really dig his message and most often; I cry. It’s cool though because I’m in my house by myself. I also will listen to his homily and Hallow multiple times before the next weekend.

I have already listened to this homily three times so far. But I am crying for a different reason. He talked about a Sia song that came out when I was still teaching and I was teaching Reading in my third classroom, which was a converted closet adjacent to the cafeteria, which was used as our gymnasium for PE classes.

The sixth graders played dodgeball on Friday. Something that everyone needs to know is that sixth graders at CCA understand that they are better dodgeball players if they scream so they all screamed at the top of their lungs for the entire class. Not a great thing when I am trying to teach kids to read on the other side of the door.

Fr.Mike referenced this song:

I really dug that week for Ordinary Time was the Beatitudes! Here’s Fr. Mike’s homily, which got me thinking:

I had never heard Sara Bareilles’ rendition of this song, but this song means so much to me because I heard it 1 million times every day well sixth grader graders screamed I was teaching!!!

A couple things I need to say before I post this video, it’s from her little black dress tour. I love that song! Absolutely love that song!!! I will put it here just so I can hear it again:

I never saw that video of her on tour with that song over playing what was going on. It puts this next video into context a little bit:

I’ve bawl my eyes out each time. I watch this rendition of this song. I think that it’s a bit cathartic, but #ItSiucksToSuck!!! #MSsucksTwentyFiveYearsIn!!! 😒😒😒…

Brown Eyed Girl

So, I heard this song a few days ago and it reminded me of a summer festival at Saint Alphonsus. I think I’m in fifth grade. My friends and I went to the gym because there was AC there! I remember dancing like crazy to this song and my friend also had brown eyes so it was fitting. I have no idea what made me think of this. But I’m liking remembering it:

Crash!

I got all 3 doctors appointments done. This was so difficult!!!! I have to ‘splain ya about my bone density test, once I am recovered. But it got done!

I got all three appointments done! I talked to the podiatrist for the first time and that’s interesting. I met virtually with the pain clinic so hopefully my leads and tens unit batteries will keep coming as per my lawsuit settlement, and I had my bone density scan. I don’t have to leave the house until February 18. I’m hearing Dave right now:

I feel the crash and I am so excited to sleep!!!!!!!!!

One More Day

My hair is cut and my eyebrows are waxed.

Man, I am exhausted!!! I have one more day though. I am getting a bone density scan tomorrow at 3:30. I’m pretty sure that I have osteoporosis in my left hip as well now. I’ll find out tomorrow and I will speak to the Endocrinologist about it next month.

I heard these two songs while waiting to get my haircut nd I really dug them! It’s from past life and one that is kind of difficult for me to remember. I used to be able to carry a tune!?!…

This first one I was in college, undergrad. I think I was smoking around this time for a short bit:

This one goes way back to middle school Jenny:

Wait. What?! OR Attacked

I watched this video probably four or five days ago and I didn’t want to share it because I watched it and felt COMPLETELY ATTACKED!!!

I want to first start off by saying that we had a wonderful Christmas! It was so laid-back and Sean liked all of his presents! I thought that I would just not think about this video ever again, but I have to share it here because what he said, cut me straight to my heart!!!

And it didn’t happen once, it happened for all three songs that he despises!!! I felt so attacked. At first, when I heard it, I thought, Wait. What?!

here is the video:

Everyone in my family knows that this song is ABSOLUTELY my favorite Christmas jam! It’s not Christmas until I hear this song!

I have been a member of the virtual front pew since week 17 of ordinary time of 2021. I watched Fr. Mike every week for mass and I listen to him every day when I’m reading the Bible. I am going to go on to my fifth time next year and it is so wonderful!

I have listened to his homily every week and I thought we are almost contemporaries. I think that he is five years older than me.

I havewatched videos from Fr. Mike all the time and I thought this one looked fun with his Christmas coat. I was not expecting what I heard!!!

I told my Mom about this a few days ago and she couldn’t believe it either. I told her that he says it is just a break up song and it’s not even a Christmas song. I looked at my Mom and said, “Have you seen the video?!”

It is completely a Christmas song and my favorite one! I will put it here just to have it one more time before the end of the season:

My CousinT Shannon

My Mom, wanted to hear a song today. She said, “What is that song, Five hundred twenty…?”

I interrupted her and knew that it was ‘525,600 minutes.’ She was surprised that I knew it and I told her that me and my cousinT Shannon sang that ALL THE TIME!!! Her and her husband took me to see it at the Fox Theatre while I was still in high school. We listened to this one a few times:

I got lost in thinking about us singing in her car. I told my Mom that I NEED to post this song because she loves it and I love Wham! and she does NOT but we listen to each other’s favorite songs when we hear them. Well here it is, this is her fave, NOT mine:

I Remember EXACTLY How this Feels!!!

This is not a new random tune, but I heard it today and we talked about this not too long ago:

My Mom had recently watched videos about Linda Ronstadt. She wanted to listen to the mariachi concert she gave.

I declined. I told her that listening to women sing is painful for me! It’s painful because I still remember crystal clearly how that feels to sing!!! I have been missing it so much right now!!!

I think that I am really feeling vulnerable right now! We had a great day today and I did not even cry for my mammogram which that is the first! I will sing praises for Lauren and Tammy my techs! I think I exclaimed in the room five or six times, “I didn’t even cry?!!!!”

We are going to handle my shoe situation on December 9 when I get my teeth cleaned. This disease progression is brutal! I was not ready for it, but I guess I was?! This stinks!!!