In Awe of This Competence

I left my house today. That is the first time that I have been outside since December 15th. I got my haircut and eyebrows waxed on the 15th but I left my house because I had a wheelchair evaluation appointment downtown at RIM (Rehabilitation Institute of Michigan). You see, I have had a motorized wheelchair since July of 2018. I am not up for a replacement chair until July of 2023. But now, after 3 1/2 years of use, my motorized chair is having problems. It is not holding a charge very long at all and the wear and tear of the armrests, the head rest, and my pelvis stabilizer need to be addressed, just to name a few things.

My Mom drove me downtown in a rented van that was accommodated my power chair. We had a lot of paperwork to fill out before my appointment. My Mom, as my caregiver, is my secretary. She accompanies me to all of my doctors appointments and she does the rwriting for me because I cannot write anymore. She will fill out the paperwork and have me sign it. That is the only thing I have muscle memory enough to write. That and as a 39-year-old woman, I am legally obligated to sign things at times. Especially when it comes to my medical needs! We plugged my chair into the wall as she filled the papers out because we brought my battery pack with us. Once all that was finished, we got directions to where we were going and then we got in the elevator because we were headed to the second floor.

I was able to propel myself around the corner to the elevator, get into the elevator, get out of the elevator on the second floor, make the turn to see where I needed to go but then, my wheelchair beeped and stopped moving. I have figured out that if I turn the chair off and then turn it back on, sometimes I will get enough power to move. I have been sitting in front of my TV with my chair charging most of the day for the past couple weeks. I turned my chair off once it beeped and stopped moving. My Mom walked up next to me and once I turned the chair back on I flipped it into indoor fast and I started moving and I called over to my shoulder to my Mom that I have to go and I will see her there.

I stopped when I saw Diane standing in her office. She introduced me to his Chris, the wheelchair tech from a company that Dave just started working at. It will be my new wheelchair company. They plugged my chair in as we all talked. I was quite impressed at hearing Diane and Chris talk to each other. They figured out a game plan and I sat there in awe of all of this competence! Tomorrow, my Mom is going to call National Seating & Mobility to have them make an appointment for my wheelchair to be seen.

I will NOT accompany my Mom on that trip and it makes me a little bit nervous but I need to not be seated in my chair to get the batteries and everything else worked on. Diane said that it’s always best to take the chair to Troy to their office resident having them come to see me. She said that that’s only because they have a lot of needed supplies to fix what needs to be fixed once they put my chair up on the lift and check out all the mechanical things going on. So we’ll just have to see I guess! It is strange that Diane and Christie told me 3 1/2 years ago that this chair will become an extension of myself. I told Diane that she is 100% correct but I still have the scars on all my door jambs and moldings based on the time it took for my child to become an extension of myself! I will never get the door jambs fixed because it’s proof of who I have been.

Absolute Commitment!!!

Yesterday, I saw a post from my best friend, Ami on Facebook. I watched it seven times yesterday and three times so far today!!!:

I’ve researched this before I posted it because it is fairly new that Tom Holland did this. I am ALWAYS late to the party! I was years late for Breaking Bad, Grey’s Anatomy, The office, and new girl!!! I still haven’t finished watching Downtown Abbey!

I liked that an article was written about this performance just last week so this isn’t that old but now I have it in my blog history to view anytime! I laugh out loud so much during this performance and I can’t get over the sheer amount of absolute commitment from Tom!!! He even shaved his legs and armpits?! My Mom has also watched this performance with me a couple times and she comments on his bow at the end. It’s a true performers bow!

I showed my mom Rihanna‘s video last night which made it all the more funny!!!

#MyGirlL: “You Look So Cute in Your Coat!”

Sean came over last night again and he took Leia out to go potty as my Mom was washing my legs. He put her coat on and commented as they were heading out the door, “You look so cute in your coat!” I thought the coat was cute when I bought it but I have yet to really see her in it. I turned my head as he commented because if he’s going to say she looks cute then she must look really cute!

I talked to my Mom this afternoon and told her that she had NOT sent me pictures of Leia in her coat. So she sent them to me today. She really looks cute! Even with her stoic ‘Kate Moss’ face!


How cute?!:

I really like these pictures and I am really happy with my purchase because she loves it! When we first received the package, and my Mom opened up her coat, she started to put it on her but Leia was trying to bite at the fur and the hood. My mom had told me it was a fail because of the previous coat I ordered for her didn’t work out because of false advertising on their part. It looked like it would fit our dog!:

When I saw this coat for her, I HAD TO get it! By the looks of this dog in the picture, it would definitely fit Leia because she is smaller than that dog. Well, turns out that it was too small and cannot be returned because she was wore it. Seriously?!:

So, this coat is definitely not the same coat from the picture! I’m not sure what we will do with it now. In a totally unrelated note, Sean recently bought a Carhartt Coat that has a hood similar to Leia’s and I asked him if I could take a picture of them wearing their coats together. He told me something like, “Probably never.“

We will just have to see about that!

A Melodramatic Teenager

My Mom and I watched the movie, Armageddon, last night and I haven’t seen that movie in such a long time! I remember just enough of it to know that I had just gone through the, “Most significant, life-shattering break up of my life!!! At least, that’s how I felt as a dramatic teenager who was going into their junior year of high school. That summer, I probably unhealthily exercised relentlessly! I would wake up in the morning and put my contacts in and brush my teeth and walk to the local park, hemlock Park, that was a couple blocks away and I would walk around the large track at the park 10 times. Hi think the entire circumference was about a mile but I would do that every day and then I would walk home and continue being a melodramatic teenager! I remember that summer that I walked to my friend Natalie‘s house on the other side of Warren close to our school One day and say remember putting on Moonlight Path Shimmering Lotion from Victoria’s Secret. I remember that that lotion smells so good and made my entire body sparkle in the sun.

Watching this movie last night made me think about my high school experience. In retrospect, that was the best time of my life but I did not know that then. I did not know that I would be diagnosed with a chronic illness eight months after I graduated. Looking at it now, I realize that I peaked in high school and I have been managing this chronic illness since then and right about now it’s getting to be a little bit more difficult. Why did I have to waste so much time being a melodramatic teenager?!

January 2022 Faves

So, I HAVE TO write my faves this month! I cannot help but think about when Sean came over a couple weeks ago and laughed about the music that was playing in the bar Colin was at inWisconsin. He laughed even harder when I started mouthing the words to what Robb Thomas was saying!:


But then there was the blog post I wrote about Leia coming to my rescue at night and being a, “Beautiful Girl”:

This song made me buy the album from Matchbox 20 the summer after I graduated and I jammed to it on my way to work at 7-Eleven.

I remember driving to our softball field up the street from the school to have practice when I was a dramatic teenager:

Ah, to be hopeful about and long distance relationship…

And ultimately… I DO have, “A hole in me now [and] a scar I can talk about…”

New Year’s Day 2022

Today, I can post a song from my FAVORITE band that it’s only fitting TODAY:

And because this year will mark my 40th year, I had to get this shirt because it’s true now…

I think I look like my Dad in this picture. I think it’s the glasses that I have to wear now. What I am now discovering is the trifecta of symptoms in my 21st year -= vision problems, chewing problems, and speaking problems!!! 😒😒😒

The Orange Bowl

So, my TV was installed on Monday and I called (with my Mom) Xfinity today. We talked to an agent who also lived in Michigan. She liked talking with us because she said that she rarely talks to other Michiganders. She told us that I needed a different channel subscription to watch the orange bowl today. There was no question of me watching the orange bowl? IF COURSE I would!

I will never forget watching the exchange between Rich Eisen and Matthew Stafford regarding this game. Rich eyes and said to wager some thing and Matthew Stafford was OK with that. Which eyes and said that he will wear a Georgia shirt on his show if Jojo wins and Matthew Stafford will wear Michigan shirt for his media availability on Sunday. If I can see Matthew Stafford in the Michigan shirt, I will LOSE MY MIND!!!

I think it’s about time for pregame now…

3 Lessons in Humility…

Today is my Mom’s birthday.  I was the first in my family to with her a “Happy Birthday!”  Birthdays are important to me.

This morning, my “Mottos for Success” book read: “Though God’s ways of operating may perplex us at times, if we trust Him, in due time we will understand.”

\Wow.

I am not going to say that I understand because I don’t.  My Mom tells me that God is talking to me.  I can’t really hear him.  I’m okay with having monologues with God as a means of discourse.  I’ve heard I won’t hear Him like I think I will but that I should still listen.  Perhaps he IS trying to teach me a lesson.  A lesson in humility.  In the past few days, I have definitely been humbled!

Working out at Barwis was hard last week.  I only got 8 yards off on Wednesday.  My right leg is my “poop leg.”  It is NOT strong and it gives me the most problems.  I was prepared to go in on Friday and work my hardest!  I had my road test at 9:40 (I passed).  I drive with hand controls and periodically have to take road tests.  I was going to get my oil changed and tires rotated, see Ender’s Game with my son, and then go to Barwis.

As we are waiting for our car, I go in to use the restroom.  I LOVE the restroom at Les Stanford (my car service place).  The facility is spacious and EXTREMELY handicapped accessible!  Just when I am about to get back into my chair, my chair slips backward and end up on the floor.  I didn’t get hurt nor did I freak out.  A short time later, my son calls me on my cell phone and asks where I am.  I tell him that I am on the floor in the women’s restroom.  He tells me that he will be right there to help.  I say, “Babe, there is nothing you can do.  Tell Dan.”  I unlock the door and sit up on the floor.  Dan is the service guy.  I ABSOLUTELY love him!  He knocks at the door and tells me that it is him.  Just behind him is Keith.  I’m not sure what Keith does but he works there too.

They both walk into the restroom and Dan closes and locks the door.  I am BEYOND embarrassed!  I tell them that I have never been in a public restroom with two men in my life!  They both chuckle.  Dan asks what they should do.  I tell him that “I can’t see beyond my flush!”  I tell them to lift me like my trainers do at Barwis.  Both men grab an arm and a leg and I put my arms around their necks.  They can lift me into the chair.  Which they do.  They finish up my car and we are on our way.  I STILL am embarrassed no matter how many times both men told me that I shouldn’t be and that it’s okay.

A few days later, I am at work and I need assistance from the office   manager (my brother’s fiancé) in the restroom again at work at the end of the day.  She helps me and I tell her all about Keith and Dan and my embarrassment.  Later that evening, I am going to my son’s football banquet at his school.  I can’t transfer from my car to my wheelchair.  I am there with my 12 years old and I am not sure what to do.  A man I have never seen before asks me if I need a hand.  I give my standard reply of  “two legs would be nice” with a smile.  I accept his help and he and my son assist me to get into my wheelchair.  I don’t know if he was a football Dad or a cheerleading Dad.  I don’t know who he was; I have never seen him before but he helped me and was gone.  I didn’t see him again.

Wow.  3 different times I was completely EMBARRASSED but 3 different times complete strangers helped me out.   Thanks!

“My Kids”

I thought about writing this blog post last night and I thought of my school leader conducting my very first performance review and commenting that I referred to my students as, “My kids.” I remember being touched by that observation and I was excited to write about it today. I was prompted by a Facebook friend’s meme. So many of my Facebook friends are former colleagues, former teachers of mine, former students of mine, and former classmates of mine!!!:

I reposted this meme and wrote on it that, “ I don’t teach anymore but anyone who was my student at CCA between 2005 and 2017 are STILL, “My kids”!!! Also, I love that another former teacher of mine commented that my brother did plumbing work at her house and he insisted on calling by her maiden name even though she has been married for 11 years and has a child now. That’s how we knew her when she taught at our school.

I remember telling Sean about students from the high school coming back to see me at the middle school. The young men who would come in, would walk-in and say, “Hello Ms. Rios.” To which I would always respond in a forced deep voice, “Hello [insert name here].” They always would laugh! I would remind them that I had them as students when they were 12 years old and before they hit puberty. Sean thought that was funny because he had already hit puberty. He thinks it’s funny that I would tell my students that but I liked it because they sounded so different from when they were my student and they are young men now!

Eleven-year-old Jenny

I heard this commercial last night before the YouTube video I was watching played. I know that I have posted about this song before but I heard it again this morning! I remember that song being my jam and I couldn’t place what year it was. I googled it and Fade Into You came out in 1993. I was 11 years old! Back then I was known as, “Jenny.”

So, since I heard this commercial twice I had to post it here so I can listen to the full song whenever I want!