I can’t sleep. Typical. I have been falling asleep lately to my Dad’s Play list on Apple Music. I fall sleep to that music often. Sometimes I cry sometimes I smile to myself. Tonight, as I heard this song:
I didn’t cry as I put his songs on shuffle and remained wide awake in my bed in my dark room. I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately! Especially today because I would like him to be here for Seanie’s milestone of passing his road test and would like to hear what he thinks of his glasses. I miss him!!!
As I heard this song, Oddly enough, I thought my African-American literature class during undergrad. Our assignment was to perform a poetry slam to something written by an African-American poet. My professor gave the class a lot of freedom in deciding which poet’s work we would use. It had to be an African-American poet and we only had to check in with Dr. Pollard, my professor, to get approval before we could perform our poetry slam. I chose this song to recite:
I thought it was strange that I was nervous before it was my turn but this song meant a lot to me! Sean was about 1 1/2 at the time and I really had to fight back tears as I spoke the lyrics to the song in front of the class. I remember one guy was kindof a jerk said something about not liking the sentiment of my performance but I didn’t care because I got through it without crying and got a good grade. I chose this song for Sean. I still think the words at the beginning of this song ring true for him and me. Back then, I placed more importance on getting married but I haven’t yet so I don’t know about the end of the song but for Seanie, this song still makes me cry.