Highlights from the soundtrack of my life.
I think that Big Brother is trying to kick me when I’m down! But it’s not gonna work this time! This song showed up in my Facebook feed today and for the first time in 20 years, I did NOT. I can still see myself in my mind’s eye driving down E. Pond Dr. on WMU’s campus back to my dorm but no tears came.
Look at me being all healthy and stuff! Not really… there is still plenty of dysfunction to go around!
This video showed up in my Facebook feed last night:
I think that Big Brother was just trying to mess with me. Normally, the song one strike a chord with me and I would be reminded of playing basketball in someone’s backyard and I was still a bright-eyed, high school graduate and not yen diagnosed with MS. This song would normally have filled me with regret but I was just checking one I liked the song and before things got real once I was diagnosed.
I think that Big Brother put the song in my Facebook feed to serve as a deep dive from days when I was still able-bodied. But it didn’t work because I’m still in a Different place from hearing Kings of Leon. I was less disabled than I am now but I was still an adult back then. Sadly, I don’t even recognize the child I was before I was diagnosed anymore.
I am so very much into this song. All three versions of it! :
But then I saw Kings of Leon playing at the NFL draft and I thought of this song and I had to listen to it. I cried a little bit and I think I will write about that exclusively:
I was hesitant to watch the first night of the NFL draft yesterday. I am currently at an impasse right now because I don’t know if I have been a Lions fan since 2009 or if I have just been a Matthew Stafford fan since then! I haven’t even been able to watch GMFB a for a long time now since my sleep schedule is so off! I can’t fall asleep till early in the morning until about two or 3 o’clock therefore, I can’t be up at 7:00 am to watch GMFB. I can see highlights on Twitter but it definitely is not the same!
Previous drafts, I have known all of the top draft picks and have seen their highlight reel‘s on GMFB. So much so that I have cried with the prospects once they get drafted (Jadeveon Clowney)! I’m not sure if it’s Covid that took away my football watching or the progression of my disease. It’s probably both because my disease is definitely progressing and my Mom who has been living with me since the beginning of Covid. I know she doesn’t like it at all so I have cut my football watching.
So, as I was texting with a friend, I turned it on and I see Kings of Leon playing this song!:
This song reminds me of a time when I was still able to drive and I lived in my second apartment back then. I could not believe how old he looked! I texted my friend that it was insane how old he looked and he said that WE are old!!!
I felt even older as I watched how young these prospects were! I felt a little uncomfortable because I did not recognize any of them but then Jim Brown started speaking with a U2 song playing in the background:
It was comforting to hear my favorite band also involved! I ended up watching the first 15 picks even though I did not know any of them because Mac Jones caught my eye! I had to wait until he found a home. I had to watch previous NFL draft until Johnny Manziel found a home. (That was a long night
I don’t know how long my Mom will be living with me because we have Leia now and Covid has really showed me how disabled I am now. I’m not even sure what I’m going to do this coming season for football anyway. I don’t even have a team!
My Mom was on hold again today. And I heard the perfect music and I was completely aghast! This is the song that played while she was on hold with GM Finianxial. I don’t have any car payments so I would not speak with them but this is what I heard:
My sentiment continues that I am completely old!!!
I saw this meme and shared it on Facebook yesterday:
I posted on this song on my blog yesterday:
it got me thinking about a very long time back when I worked at dfcuu financial. I looked through my tunes tab and checked what I wrote about Matty. I wrote this post a couple years ago so the video for, “Electrical Storm” is no longer available so I will re-post the video for that song here:
This song always reminds me of working the drive-through with Matty because his sister like that song. But another memory of Matty I have and clearly remember this day because it was the first time I fell in public. It was before I started using crutches and was still walking on my own. It was the first time my legs just gave out in public! I was walking behind the teller stations and I don’t know how but they just gave out and I fell. I was walking with another woman and she helped me up. This was the beginning of balance issues so I didn’t know anything about see it. I just knew that I was really embarrassed! I could feel my face ignite into flames!
I think it was a couple weeks later that Matty and I were working in the drive-through (a different time) and he started to talk about seeing me fall. I was completely mortified with a branch full of members and everyone I worked with there! He started to chuckle and told me, “You were so cute!” I disagreed with him and I started to laugh too. I’ve been thinking about that time of my life and it makes me a little bit sad. Even with that being the case, I always have some great music to listen to and to remember!
I’ve been thinking about this song a lot lately and was not able to post it seven years ago back when the procedure for posting links on my blog was a lot different. I want to clear up any questions or confusions about the song that I always liked it because I used to work at the 7-11 the summer before college aand NOT not because I used to get hit!
Based on my previous YouTube search history, I received some germs this morning because Big Brother Has yet to disappoint me. My Mom asked me if I was going to cry EVERY time I heard this song (she was talking about, “One”). As I wiped The tears off of my face, I just simply said, “Probably.” At that point I had cried hearing both the U2 version and Johnny Cash a couple days ago. So today, this showed up in my YouTube feed and I HAD to share it on Facebook!:
Hearing both of these voices singing The words to this song warmed my heart! My two oldest brothers slept in the basement and I would hear various U2 songs as I fall asleep so Bono‘s voice is very comforting to me and whenever I hear Johnny Cash, I think of my Dad with fondness! As I watched this video, another version showed up and I remember sharing this version sometime ago:
And then I watched this one and I really think it’s the lyrics that get me EVERY. SINGLE. TIME!!! ! (regardless of who is singing!) Some of these lines pierce my soul at make my heart burst!:
So now, I can hear duets of Bono and Johnny Cash or Bono and Mary J. anytime I want and just Johnny Cash and just Bono so I will have four options to choose from when I want to hear this song!:
So, when my Mom asked me if I was going to cry every time I heard this song, after hearing these four versions my, “Probably” is now a, “Definitely.!” I appreciate the Johnny Cash cover and the duos with both Mary J and Johnny Cash but there is nothing like the original:
Well, I can’t decide if it’s. “One of Den Days” or #DirtyHairDontCare but I think it’s a combination of the two. Change in weather is always hard on me, harder now that I am 20 years into this mess but Take your pick what’s up what you want to call it but this one’s a rough one!
Yesterday, the final leg of the u2 virtual tour was on but I have felt bad yesterday. Well, I don’t feel much better today! That seems to be happening a lot more these days but I slept with my window air conditioner on last night because it was too warm (and yes I still have those!) and this morning, my house was cold. So I turned the heat on! The fact of how much I cannot control my body temperature anymore really hit me when my heat turned on when I started to watch the u2 concert from last night.
It wasn’t from last night though, it was from:
it was from France and they still knew all of the words! I could only watch a few songs at a time and it’s taken me all day to watch the entire concert. They ended with, “One” and the sun before that was, “Bad” so I dug it, actually, I thought the whole thing!
I just finished Easter dinner and I had some pie. Sean came over earlier today and retrieve his Easter basket because I got him one! He’s my ONLY child and he will ALWAYS be my ONLY child! Giftgiving is my love language and even though he tells me that he is, “A grown man” I tell him just to, “Take the d*mn presents!” He will always be my, “Little boy!” regardless of how old he gets!
My brother, Jimmy, came by today to touch up my wax. A spot was messed on my jaw. He came in wearing a mask and I was not. He told me that I was forgetting something and I kind of shook my head. Then he asked me if I was completely vaccinated and when I nodded, he asked me if he could hug me. I nodded again and since he is also fully vaccinated, we hugged!
I hug my Mom every day because she is my caregiver. I put my arms around her when she transfers me so it’s really not a hug even though we have hugged each other purposefully in the past year because we were the only ones in “Our bubble.”
Sean got his first shot yesterday and I am excited and the best Moother’s Day present I could get is to hug him because it has been over a year! My brother, Jimmy, was my first Covid hug. It was SO NICE!!
Given that today is today, I posted this song and both Twitter in Facebook because it’s, ”April 4” and I LOVE this song!!!: