Special

Today is an extremely difficult day! I have been in excruciating pain from the second I woke up. It felt like my body was just a bag full of liquid and bones. I prayed and pled with my God that the pain would go away! I constantly changed the position of my wheelchair trying to find a comfortable spot. My hip bones were killing me.

It took hours for me to feel well enough to finally have my Mom wash my hair at about 630 this evening because I have my swallow test tomorrow in the afternoon.

I constantly heard this song in my head and remembered a classmate making me a mixed tape of his favorite songs off of Janet Jackson’s “The Velvet Rope” album. He was a big fan of Janet Jackson!:

I would really like to feel “real special” instead of how I feel right now.

2 Songs

So, I have been completely immersed in Sara Bareillis this month. I just keep my Apple Music playlist on shuffle. I Had a lyric stuck in my head and I did not know what song it was from so I searched for it deliberately and I found it! This is the lyric that was stuck in my head;

I actually was reading the lyrics to songs and when I heard this song, it sounded familiar so I read the lyrics and sure enough this is what I kept hearing! It’s from this song;

Listening to Sara all month has been kind of bumming me out because I no longer can sing but then this song also pops into my head and it is true!:

Reminds me that #MSsucks!!!

T-4 OR “Alvin Green?” OR Chef 2 of 4

So, I really didn’t pay attention to this part of the movie during the song until about May 3 of fourth time watching it. My mind went completely blank and I looked at my Mom and asked for the guy”s name. I knew that it wasn’t Marvin Gaye or Otis Redding but I just didn’t know who it was. I was having a brain fart!

My Mom got up to get the laundry out of the washer from my room. I had renovations done to my house where they knocked a wall down and moved the washer and dryer from where they were to the other side of the house. As she did this, I google searched the song.

I found out that it was Al Green who sang the song. I told that to my Mom but she was in my bedroom pulling clothes out of the washer. I called to her and said that, “Al Green sings it.” I took a little offense to the next thing she asked. She asked me, “Did you say Alvin Green?” (I don’t know if his full name is Alvin but I have only Heard him referred to as, “Al.”

She was on the other side of my house and I waited until she came back to the front room and told her that I was offended said it was Al Green. I told her that I knew his name was Al and then I ended with having her and my Dad as my parents, how can I not know that?!

they both were born and bred in southwest Detroit and they were completely entrenched in Motown growing up!

Saturday is coming closer and I am completely missing my Dad! I don’t know how much of the song the clip from the movie plays so I will add the entire song in this post as well:

T-5 OR Chef 1 of 4

I think this year is hitting me a little harder because of Covid. I just miss my Dad! So lately, my Mim and I have been watching, Chef, on Netflix and you know we have watched it multiple times so far! That’s how we work!


There are many things that I like about this movie and I am going to write about 4 things. The first thing I noticed about this movie was this song and I’ve texted it to Sean:

Sean likes this song just like I liked the song he sent to me. It’s kind of like we’re connected or some thing! Like we have been living together for almost 20 years and for all of his life!

I highly recommend this movie to everyone!

A suggestion

Sean texted me this morning at about 9:30 with a song suggestion. I set my phone to do not disturb when I go to sleep so did not wake up until about 1 o’clock but when I did, I listened to it! That sentence made me sound super lazy but that’s not the case because my sleep schedule is so messed up was having had a mess for 20 years!

I had a conversation with Sean some years ago, he was driving and I told him that music these days is not good! I told him that I am old now because I prefer listening to music that I listen to when I was growing up and when I was a young adult. He sent me this song using our Apple Music account. This is the song he sent me:

I listen to the song and told him that I liked it. He said that it sounded like the stuff I used to listen to and he thinks that I might like it. I really did like it but my Mom did NOT! I don’t know if you are familiar with this song but I have a listen:

I think it’s pretty cool that Sean and I can share music! He’s known me all of his life so he knows what I like and I really like that he made this suggestion.but I think I just LOVE him!

“She’s Gone”

I am quiet as I am getting ready for my MRI tonight at Henry Ford Hospital Downtown. This song is in my head and I miss the person I used to be before MS, doctor’s appointments, and medical testing:

I feel strange but it’s NOT like they are going to tell me I have MS or anything…

Random Tune #76 in my YouTube Feed

I took notice yesterday that a lot of Sara Bareilles songs were showing up in my YouTube feed because I posted my faves for August and they’re all her songs. I never saw this video and I watched it in its entirety.:

I was never a great dancer but I could keep time but what I really wish is that I still had freedom of movement like that now!

This Lyric…

This month, I am re-immersing myself in Sara Bareilles’s musi.c and even though I can no longer sing along with her, I am completely blown away by her lyrics!

One song that I enjoy listening to has a great lyric but by no means is it autobiographical! I no longer allow myself to be put in positions to have my heart broken but this song is one that I like to listen to but this lyric blows me away!:

“He’s the air I would kill to breathe“

Really?!… Really? That sentiment is kind of unhealthy thinking about it but the song is great! At least it’s really in my head these days!:

This Gem OR “They’re Old!”

Sean came over and I was talking with him recently, I had my phone in my hand and I told him that when I scroll through my YouTube feed, (I scrolled through), and showed him my phone and told him that randomly I will get things like, “This gem!” I gave him my phone and he watched the video:

I’m not sure if he was just patronizing me because this is MY band but he watched it and was appreciative of the orchestra accompaniment which I really liked! When the video was finished, Sean looked at me and said, “They’re old!” I just took my phone from him, shook my head, and kind of smirked.

August 2021 Faves

Since I have already established that I am, “Old,” it’s about time for Sara‘s turn. If I’m thinking about when I used to be able to sing I think of her. I saw her when she opened for Maroon 5 just before she got big. I heard her perform these first two songs and I definitely took notice! Within a few weeks, she was on the radio!: