Yesterday, I went Christmas shopping with my Mom. As we were driving, I said to her, “my legs hurt.” they really did! Last night, I kept trying to flip over and sleep on my stomach because my legs felt gnarled up and it hurt and I wanted to flatten them out. It really didn’t work. I texted Phil about it this morning. I told him the weather is not helping and he agreed.
Parker called me this morning. It was SO nice to hear from him! I hadn’t heard from him in so long! He asked of my progress at Barwis and I told him that so far I have clocked 116 yards. I told him that it is SO hard. I recently told a colleague about the difficulty of training at Barwis and she pointed out that now I smile when I say this. I told her about the difficulty of Barwis when I first started working there but she said that now I smile. I think I smile because I know that all of the hard work that I’m doing at Barwis is a means to an end. The end is going to be me walking. That is something to smile about! Parker wished my Mom, Sean, and me a Merry Christmas and then it was time for me to get ready for training.
Phil took into account the weather and how my body has been feeling lately today at training. He really stretched me out today. I was extremely grateful and it felt really good! I will not have a “Walking Wednesday” this week because of Christmas but I think that how good my legs feel now will tide me over until I’m at Barwis again on Friday. It is easier now for me to accept that it will not be linear progress on my road to walking. Today hurt. That does not mean it will always hurt like this but it does now. I’m just going to get through this pain of today and “tomorrow” it will feel better and I will make strides on my journey to walking.