12.20.13 Rain

At this point, I have become more accustomed to how it feels when there is snow on the ground and so much moisture in the air.  It doesn’t feel very good but I can’t escape this feeling.  There are nerves in EVERY inch of your body!!!  It is my nerves that are going wacko!  I have adjusted accordingly, I think.  Yesterday morning as I was leaving for work, it was RAINING on top of that!  Ouch!  As I was driving in to work, I heard my “walking song” on the radio.  I am SO EXCITED whenever I hear that song!!!  Because I had training after work, I was even more excited because I took it as ANOTHER good omen (I didn’t get that it NEVER is) and that it would be a REALLY good day!

The rain continued ALL DAY!  I didn’t have students yesterday (their last day was Thursday) so I was able to get much-needed “behind the scenes” work done.  I turned on Pandora (Wham! Christmas music of course!!!) and got to work!  I heard Wham! and saw that as a 2nd good omen!  I LOVE that song!  I was able to pick my son up from school (I never get to do that!) and he was going with me to Barwis.  He hadn’t accompanied me in a VERY long tine.  Not since he got that concussion during football season and couldn’t go to practice in October.  I saw Sherrie as I wheel in to the workout area!  I hadn’t seen her in SO long!!!  We talked for a long while and we hugged and wished each other a “Merry Christmas!”  I thought seeing her was a 3rd good omen and 3’s a charm so I was excited!

I couldn’t do complete squats.  It felt like someone was pushing my hips down again and I only did like 2 quarter squats and then we tried standing.  It was EXTREMELY difficult to stand; I would only *BINK* for a second before my hips were pushed downward and I was forced to sit.  I talked to Sherrie about this feeling.  I haven’t felt the feeling of my hips being pushed down in YEARS!  Not since I was walking on my crutches all the time – before a wheelchair.  Sherrie pointed out that that is progress!  I hope so!  I HAVE made progress,  I now can feel that my bathroom floor is cold (I haven’t felt a cold bathroom floor under my feet in years!). Mike told me when I first came that I would have to shave my legs again because the hair would start growing again because of increased blood flow in my legs.   I do now.

The table was being used so we used the blocks to do leg extensions and leg curls.  I asked Phil if he read my blog and he told me to open my eyes when he picks me up.  I told him that that would be REALLY scary!  When we were done (I didn’t think my work was that impressive!) I told Phil that my legs felt like Jell-O.  He stood up and told me to keep my eyes open.  I did.  Once I was safely seated he asked if I kept my eyes open.  I told him I did and he asked what I saw.  I told him that I was WAY TOO CLOSE to the ceiling!  I wasn’t meant to be that tall!  I’ll continue to keep my eyes closed from now on!

He told me I did good and we fist bumped once I was in my car.  Not so much.  I saw Mike as I was getting my coat on.  He asked how I felt and I told him “tired.” He told me, “tired is good.”

Okay.  I’ve told myself that it’s not linear progress a MILLION times already!  I am not sure why that is SO hard to get through my head!  It rained on my entire ride home.