12.27.13 Surrender

I’m still not used to this weather!  I remember Jesse telling me a long time ago that I am my own biggest obstacle. I have to get better in my head to get my legs to perform properly. I know that’s true. Backey used to tell me “don’t think about it; just do it” and Phil tells me to “just walk.” Today, I know I was NOT right in my head. Tomorrow, it will be 13 years to the day since my diagnosis. I think I’m a little bummed out.

When I came in to Barwis today both Dan and Eric asked me what was wrong. I smiled and told them “nothing”and tried my best to mask my emotions which I wear right on my face.  Phil asked me if I wanted to try squats or stands today or just go over to the table. I said to just go over to the table. He stretched me out REALLY good today!  I will willingly surrender in this battle because I know I will win the war! I already AM winning!  So I am going to take this weekend to regroup and gather my troops to be ready for battle on Monday.  Do I like this? No. But it is a strategic tactic.  You have to give a little to get a little and I am going to get A WHOLE LOT!

***Oh!  And as Phil put me into my car today, he pointed out how carefully he does it so YES, PHIL IS THE BEST!!!