I have always been completely impressed by Kyle Brant’s random 90s references on Good Morning Football! I am pretty groggy in the morning but I could not help but to Tweet at Kyle Brant because he always fits in some random and often obscure 90s reference.
They were discussing the Pittsburgh Steelers, Ben Roethlisberger, Antonio Brown, and Le’Veon Bell. Kyle talked about Antonio being on a new team and the fact that “[He’s] got a man.” Ever since he said that, Positive K’s song popped into my head and it’s been that way all day long! I was 10 when that song came out and I was surprised at how many of the words I still knew after all this time!
At the tail end of that segment, he threw in an N’sync reference of a song that came out when I was 15 which left me in stitches! I Tweeted at him telling him that he is the BEST! (Because he is!)
This morning, as Sean was in the shower and got ready for school, I laid in my bed and deleted songs from my Mom’s playlist on my Apple Music account. When my Mom had requested some Stevie Wonder songs, I accidentally added the entire, “Essentials” list that includes songs that neither I nor my Mom are familiar with or like. I had of been telling her for months that I would fix the playlist.
She recently took me to see Captain Marvel.I liked a lot of songs from that movie and so did my mom. She requested that I add Nirvana, “Come as You Are” to the list. Really? Nirvana?
Nirvana?!
As I laid in bed, I deleted the Stevie Wonder songs we did not like and I added Nirvana to the playlist. Nirvana? I think that’s funny to me but my Mom likes what she likes!
She told me that she did NOT like the video, however.
I pretty much only leave my house about once a month to get my hair cut and my eyebrows waxed. This time, Sean drove me and once we got home, he unloaded me onto the sidewalk and told me that he was going to pull the car up the driveway and asked me if I could wheel myself up to the porch ramp. That had never been a problem before so I said that I do that.
I should have been concerned when I could not push myself over the uneven sidewalk square in front of my neighbor’s house. Sean nudged me over the ledge as he closed the passenger side door and pulled the car up the driveway. I turned my wheelchair around and pushed myself to right in front of the walkway up to my front door.
By this time, Sean had pulled the car up, gotten out of the car, walked toward the porch, and stood next to the ramp up to the porch of our house. I turned my chair to position myself to push myself up the walkway. There is a slight incline so I would need to use a little more force to propel myself up. Sean stood at the ramp and told me he would push me up the ramp but I would have to get there on my own.
I took a deep breath, lunged forward, and pushed. I felt my arms and my chest burn and I felt my face flush and I went NOWHERE. I sat up straight, took another deep breath and decided to try again. I lunged forward and again, I went NOWHERE. ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE! By this time, Sean was cheering me on telling me to, “C’mon mom!”
On my third try, I STILL went NOWHERE! Sean saw the look of defeat on my face and he told me he would come get me and walked toward me. To keep me from crying, he told me that it was really good that I went to fatigue and patted my shoulder and pushed me up both ramps on my porch and through my front door, I thought of a blog post I wrote years ago about Jon telling me, “Way to go to fatigue!”
I didn’t, “Go to fatigue” though! I didn’t go ANYWHERE! The fact that I could no longer push myself up the walkway to my house made me miss Barwis so badly! So badly that it hurt! It has been two years, five months, and five days since I have been to Barwis because after my injury, Dr. Frush told me not to go back there until my knee did not hurt. It still hurts! And it will be two years since my surgery on May 1st.
Because my knee has been hurting so badly since my injury and even after surgery, I was put in a motorized chair so I can sit with my legs elevated, almost entirely straight out all the time. The chair helps with my knee pain but I did not want to be in a motorized chair for fear of losing my upper body strength. It’s been nine months since I’ve been in a motorized chair and it seems as if my upper body strength is gone because I couldn’t even push myself up the walkway to my house.
This fact is very difficult to deal with and it makes me quite sad! When Sean got me into our house and he was helped me take my coat off, I thought of that Jewel song that came out when I was in seventh grade because I DO miss Barwis so badly!
I was alone in my house and just after Michigan made it into the Sweet 16. I turned off my TV and read. I really dig that book! Once my eyes got tired and the, “Leopard print” changed from yellow to dark green, I stopped.
Commercials were playing as I turned the TV on and hit the, “Last” button to continue watching my movie. Laws of Attraction, (this is the seventh time I have watched it since purchasing it on St. Patrick’s Day so it is only $1.86 each time I have watched it so far!) Pierce Brosnon and Julianne Moore are going to fly to Ireland shortly!
But as I was scrolling, the commercials still played and then a Spotify commercial began and I exited my scanning to see the Spotify commercial that played this song:
Before I could turn my movie on, I HAD to watch the ENTIRE commercial! I was immediately taken back to my cousin Alex’s quinceañera. My brother, Jimmy, was going to play the guitar at the reception and his friend, Luis, was going to play the drums. He called me just after I had gotten home from class and told me that they had decided on a song to play and since a girl sings it, I had to sing. He wanted me to come over and practice. I think the wuince was in less than a week.
I remember that I had a killer dress on at that quinceañera. Sean, who might’ve been 2 at the time, had accompanied me to find and buy it. He told me that, I, “Looked very pretty!” which was part of the reason that I bought it. I was still walking without Canadian crutches back then and I remember holding the microphone stand to strady myself as I sang.
I know that I was in my young 20s then but to hear that song on that commercial immediately brought back so many fond memories of that day and for so many different reasons! I was young, still could carry a tune, had a great dress on, and was still walking all by myselfy!
I first saw this movie a couple times in the beginning of December 2013. It was free OnDemand. It’s OnDemand again but it’s on HBO OnDemand so there is a lot more nudity than when I first saw it! It still makes me cry though!
Despite all of the nudity, I still cry and it is when I begin to hear this song:
Now, I have heard in many circles that Hollywood movies tend to glamorize chronic illness and this one does that for sure but when I hear the beginning bars of that tune, the scene that is showing is something that makes me cry!
So yes, I would say that this is a glamorization of chronic illness because it does not show how horrible and humiliating illness can be but it definitely hints at it and because I am dealing with chronic illness, it resonates with me and makes me cry. I’d still recommend it but know that there is a lot of swearing and nudity.
I purchased Laws ofAttraction with Pierce Brosnon and Julianne Moore on St. Patrick’s Day. It was $1299. I haven’t seen that movie in so many years and I keep checking on my TV and it’s never OnDemand! I decided to splurge! I love it because part of it is in Ireland! The other reason I love it, is because this song is in it:
Not only do I love me some Gavin DeGraw but it was my friend Marilyn’s wedding song! Her husband’s name is also Gavin! She lived down the street from my parents house, we played basketball and softball together in school, and we were in Girl Scouts together! We laughed SO MUCH together!
Her anniversary is coming up next month and every time I see that part of the movie, I think of her with the utmost fondness!!! I have already watched it three times since buying it on the 17th. So, instead of being $12.99, it is only $4.33 and going down because I will be watching it numerous times!
First of all, let me say that I am not a spoiler but… all I will say is that I saw Captain Marvel with my, “Two sacreds” today. I know that I am late to the party but my son told me I would dig the music which I did! Who doesn’t dig 90s grunge?! My favorite song was:
I awakened this morning at 6:30 and thought it was Monday. I called to Sean and he didn’t answer so I called him on the phone. When he picked up, I told him that it was 630 so he should get ready for school. He told me it was Sunday. Oops! Since I was already awake, I checked my alerts on Facebook. There was a post that cited the 17 songs you have to hear on St. Patrick’s Day.
What?! There was no U2! That is preposterous! I have always had a strange relationship with Ireland/ being Irish. I want to be though! I am not Irish! I am Mexican! However, my son’s name is Sean. He is half Polish but when his dad told me that he thought Sean would be a good name, I told them that it had to be spelled the way it is spelled now.
As my Mom and I finally got our routine going for the day, I asked her what we should listen to. She told me that I could choos. Because it is St. Patrick’s Day, I chose the two U2 songs that she can tolerate:
When we got sick of listening to this song over and over again, I chose another one:
I kept telling her, “Well, it IS St. Patrick’s Day!“ Ever since I was young, I wanted red hair. My Mom’s friend’s daughter had red hair and I thought that was really cool! My Mom‘s friend told me if I ate a lot of tomatoes that I would get red hair. Well, I ate tons and wouldn’t you know, I still do NOT have red hair! I can’t stand tomatoes now!
Sean’s friends will ask him if he is Irish and he just says, “No, my mom is just weird!“ He spells his name in the proper Gaelic spelling and I remember that being hard for him to understand when he was learning his letter sounds and couldn’t understand why his name was spelled with an S and an E instead of SH. I told him that it was a different language but I started telling my colleagues that I must’ve been Irish in my past life.
I am Catholic and do not believe in past lives but I’ve decided that I was Irish, had long red hair, and was a dancer. Sean was young when The Disney movie, Bravecame out and we went to see it in the movies mostly because I wanted to see it. I liked seeing the character of Merida but was unsure of her hair.
I always pictured my hair like the woman from Riverfance that I saw on TV so many years ago.
I have since come up with an elaborate story of my Irish past life and my name was Bridget. But I always thought it was spelled like, Bridgette. I have already watched Laws of Attraction , the movie with Pierce Brosnan and Julianne Moore (a redhead) which is set in part in Ireland.
And probably will watch Leap Year with Amy Adams (also a redhead) n a little while. Because it IS St. Patrick’s day! Even though I am not going out drinking today, I am wearing green in my old Eagles Super Bowl Champion shirt. (I don’t have much green to choose from).
I thought for sure I U2 song would be on the list of songs you have to listen to on St. Patrick’s Day! Any of the songs would be OK! I think I just love the Irish accents and red headed people! I’ve thought about that and my elaborate Irish past life a lot today, because it IS St. Patrick’s Day!
Yesterday evening, my Mom came to my house singing that Santana song, “Smooth.“. You know, the one that Rob Thomas sings. I told her that I really didn’t dig that song and it came out about 20 years ago. She laughed and asked me who Rob Thomas was. I told her that he was the lead singer of Matchbox 20 and he also has done some solo work. She didn’t know who Matchbox 20 was and I racked my brain thinking of which song she would know. I ended up Google searching their songs and I came across one that I HAD to listen to that completely made me get, “In it” like a Natalie Portman says in Garden State.
When I came across this song, I immediately had recollections of undergrad. Specifically, Professor Degreggorio. I’m not even sure which class it was but he was the professor who talked about the Jennifers being in college. He was an English professor so of course I had him for a few classes. It was an English class so of course I dug it but he was no Dr. Watson or Dr. Smith! I had the biggest crush on Dr. Smith!
I remembered listening to this song on my way to class and I can see the classroom that I was in for professor Degreggorio’d class. That was the same classroom that Dr. Smith was in shadowing. I remember being so embarrassed when Dr. Smith looked at me, smiled, and said, “Hi Jennifer!” as I walked in! *blush!*
Anyway, I found a live version of this song and listening to it, the second verse still squeezes my heart! I was such a dramatic young mother!
When I opened my eyes this morning to my alarm going off to wake Sean up for school, I saw this post recapping my birthday. I smiled and shared it. Of all the birthday posts I received yesterday, this one had to be the first one to show up in the montage. Now the world knows that my brother, Dave, calls me, “Poop.” He’s been doing that since about the time I was in seventh grade and was 13 years old. It wasn’t until I was about 32 or 33 that my Mom noticed that he calls me that. She hates it but now that’s just what he calls me.
I knew that I would feel pretty bad today because I was so excited yesterday! It’s not Sunday, I did not, “smoke my mind,” and I am not hung over… but it kind of feels like it.
After my Dad‘s death, I absolutely love this song! It reminds me of him although he never pushed me on a swing in the park. I told my Mom that I put the sweatshirt I was wearing yesterday back on so technically, this is my, “Cleanest, dirty shirt.”
I spent the day just reading my book. When the, “Green leopard print” would show up on the pages, I just put the book down and closed my eyes to rest them for a little while. I closed my eyes when Sean left to work out and did not open them until I heard him unlocking the front door. That was a lot of sleep but I am sure that will help because I don’t sleep very well at night
I want to write about my wonderful birthday dinner yesterday but, I’m just not feeling it today! I feel like, “Poop.“
