Category: Tunes

My last post from a few days ago was somewhat of a, “Debbie Downer” and for that I apologize!  I try my best to NOT buy in to the devastation MS has had on my body and my life thus far.  However, since my lapse in positivity and with  that recent post, the LOVE I have felt from everyone is BEYOND heartwarming!   Comments and suggestions I have on both Twitter and Facebook are very much appreciated!!!  I definitely feel the love and with every comment I read  and with every view on my blog I  I am reminded of this song:

I never knew the words to the song until watching the lyric video. Sorry about the cussing. It’s kind of deep. No wonder I’m poor! When it says, “Your health is your wealth”  well… yeah, no.  Not so much! But Sean tells me that we have enough so that makes me feel OK.

I’ve almost forgot about The Script and recently have been listening to them again.   As I listen to their songs on loop, I am reminded of the last concert I went to with my cousinT Shannon. As things are playing out now, I really feel that will be the last concert I go to EVER.

Those memories are helping to cheer me during this HORRIBLE heat where I have been confined to my living room, not really moving from my spot in front of the TV.

So, know I am 7 years late on this one but at a friend’s  recommendation, it took me 11 days to binge all five seasons of Friday Night Lights.   

It reinforced two things for me: 1. I LOVE Football 2. I LOVE happy endings.

I really dug this song and I’ll probably put it on my Apple Music.

I saw this clip on YouTube and really liked it:

I’m not going to be a spoiler because this show is so old,  but on my first day of watching it, I really dug them as a couple and had to hold my breath for two seasons until it ended thusly:

Yay!!!

I was late watching Game of Thrones and binged that in 10 days, Breaking Bad took me a little longer but I only did that a few years ago.    I binged all 12 seasons of Grey’s Anatomy the summer before the 13th season started. I think I prefer binging shows that are already finished because I can get through them quickly and know how they end   right away instead of having to wait a week to find out in little bits. Any suggestions?

I woke up this morning and put on my Apple Music playlist that is just a bunch of random songs that I need to categorize into a  specific playlist. Sometimes I don’t get around to it.   I was by myself and sat in my kitchen sipping my garlic tea while the songs played.   I was jammin’!   Well, as jammin’ as I could with a body that just woke up. All the jammin’ was in my head as I sat there very still. My mom came by to help me get ready for the day and the songs continued to play.

My body slowly adjusted so I turned the music off and told my mom we could begin. She told me that she wasn’t around when I was listening to music, and then she added, “It’s just awful!”   I started to laugh really loudly! It was a very eclectic mix that I was kind of excited for. The songs were random but I knew all of the words. It would go from Bob Marley to Sheryl crow to Sara Bareilles to Gavin Degraw to The Script. There were even songs from musicals that I listen to. There were a couple of songs that played from Across the Universe and I Am Sam because they have really good soundtracks!

I REALLY like waking up laughing! I appreciated that my mom afforded me that privilege even though she was making fun of me!  After I was ready for the day, I cleaned my kitchen and continued to listen to the playlist. It was really good random songs that I knew all of the words to! I just continued to laugh because my Mom thinks my music is, “Awful!” 😂😂😂

I’ve been at a, “Low Point” for a few days now!   At this point in the progression of my disease and with the ache in my knee;  I just have to feel it.  Today is my Dad’s 67th birthday and I figure that’s a good excuse to let the tears flow. Tears that have been building up for so many reasons! Today, as I make my garlic tea,  a song popped into my head.   I made my dad a mixed CD for his 55th birthday. I couldn’t find this song so it wasn’t on the mix 12 years ago. I thought about it, and searched it on YouTube. Well, I found it!

I was immediately taken back to a time laying on the green carpet of my parents’ living room with two of my brothers as my Dad played this record over and over as he tried to write down the lyrics.   That last sentence completely showed my age but as I made my tea, I cried and had to listen to it twice:

This next song made it onto that mixed CD that I gave my Dad for his birthday. When I was young, I did not understand that this song was about a really bad hangover; I just remember my Dad  referring to, his “cleanest dirty shirt” often.   Now, when I  hear this song as I fall asleep because I have a, “Daddy”playlist, I can only hear the line, “In the park I saw a Daddy with a laughing little girl that he was swinging.”   My dad and I did not have memories like this but I have a number of gems that I play over it over in my mind That cause me to miss him tons and cry.

I’ve been listening to songs that remind me of him and crying all day long.   I remember, the day of his funeral, in the church and at the mausoleum that I cried so much that I thought I was going to pass out three separate times.   By the end of the Wake that followed at the hall, I felt so exhausted from crying that I passed out on my mom‘s couch at about 7 PM.

I woke up the next morning thinking that everything would be fine because his funeral was over.   His was my first “adult funeral” (a funeral that I have attended as an adult and fully understood the loss) I had been to. I know now, almost 12 years later, that that is NOT the case.   With the progression of my MS and the pain in my knee among other things, what I wouldn’t give to hear him tell me to, “Grab my guts” one more time!!!