I purchased Laws ofAttraction with Pierce Brosnon and Julianne Moore on St. Patrick’s Day. It was $1299. I haven’t seen that movie in so many years and I keep checking on my TV and it’s never OnDemand! I decided to splurge! I love it because part of it is in Ireland! The other reason I love it, is because this song is in it:
Not only do I love me some Gavin DeGraw but it was my friend Marilyn’s wedding song! Her husband’s name is also Gavin! She lived down the street from my parents house, we played basketball and softball together in school, and we were in Girl Scouts together! We laughed SO MUCH together!
Her anniversary is coming up next month and every time I see that part of the movie, I think of her with the utmost fondness!!! I have already watched it three times since buying it on the 17th. So, instead of being $12.99, it is only $4.33 and going down because I will be watching it numerous times!
First of all, let me say that I am not a spoiler but… all I will say is that I saw Captain Marvel with my, “Two sacreds” today. I know that I am late to the party but my son told me I would dig the music which I did! Who doesn’t dig 90s grunge?! My favorite song was:
I awakened this morning at 6:30 and thought it was Monday. I called to Sean and he didn’t answer so I called him on the phone. When he picked up, I told him that it was 630 so he should get ready for school. He told me it was Sunday. Oops! Since I was already awake, I checked my alerts on Facebook. There was a post that cited the 17 songs you have to hear on St. Patrick’s Day.
What?! There was no U2! That is preposterous! I have always had a strange relationship with Ireland/ being Irish. I want to be though! I am not Irish! I am Mexican! However, my son’s name is Sean. He is half Polish but when his dad told me that he thought Sean would be a good name, I told them that it had to be spelled the way it is spelled now.
As my Mom and I finally got our routine going for the day, I asked her what we should listen to. She told me that I could choos. Because it is St. Patrick’s Day, I chose the two U2 songs that she can tolerate:
When we got sick of listening to this song over and over again, I chose another one:
I kept telling her, “Well, it IS St. Patrick’s Day!“ Ever since I was young, I wanted red hair. My Mom’s friend’s daughter had red hair and I thought that was really cool! My Mom‘s friend told me if I ate a lot of tomatoes that I would get red hair. Well, I ate tons and wouldn’t you know, I still do NOT have red hair! I can’t stand tomatoes now!
Sean’s friends will ask him if he is Irish and he just says, “No, my mom is just weird!“ He spells his name in the proper Gaelic spelling and I remember that being hard for him to understand when he was learning his letter sounds and couldn’t understand why his name was spelled with an S and an E instead of SH. I told him that it was a different language but I started telling my colleagues that I must’ve been Irish in my past life.
I am Catholic and do not believe in past lives but I’ve decided that I was Irish, had long red hair, and was a dancer. Sean was young when The Disney movie, Bravecame out and we went to see it in the movies mostly because I wanted to see it. I liked seeing the character of Merida but was unsure of her hair.
I always pictured my hair like the woman from Riverfance that I saw on TV so many years ago.
I have since come up with an elaborate story of my Irish past life and my name was Bridget. But I always thought it was spelled like, Bridgette. I have already watched Laws of Attraction , the movie with Pierce Brosnan and Julianne Moore (a redhead) which is set in part in Ireland.
And probably will watch Leap Year with Amy Adams (also a redhead) n a little while. Because it IS St. Patrick’s day! Even though I am not going out drinking today, I am wearing green in my old Eagles Super Bowl Champion shirt. (I don’t have much green to choose from).
I thought for sure I U2 song would be on the list of songs you have to listen to on St. Patrick’s Day! Any of the songs would be OK! I think I just love the Irish accents and red headed people! I’ve thought about that and my elaborate Irish past life a lot today, because it IS St. Patrick’s Day!
Yesterday evening, my Mom came to my house singing that Santana song, “Smooth.“. You know, the one that Rob Thomas sings. I told her that I really didn’t dig that song and it came out about 20 years ago. She laughed and asked me who Rob Thomas was. I told her that he was the lead singer of Matchbox 20 and he also has done some solo work. She didn’t know who Matchbox 20 was and I racked my brain thinking of which song she would know. I ended up Google searching their songs and I came across one that I HAD to listen to that completely made me get, “In it” like a Natalie Portman says in Garden State.
When I came across this song, I immediately had recollections of undergrad. Specifically, Professor Degreggorio. I’m not even sure which class it was but he was the professor who talked about the Jennifers being in college. He was an English professor so of course I had him for a few classes. It was an English class so of course I dug it but he was no Dr. Watson or Dr. Smith! I had the biggest crush on Dr. Smith!
I remembered listening to this song on my way to class and I can see the classroom that I was in for professor Degreggorio’d class. That was the same classroom that Dr. Smith was in shadowing. I remember being so embarrassed when Dr. Smith looked at me, smiled, and said, “Hi Jennifer!” as I walked in! *blush!*
Anyway, I found a live version of this song and listening to it, the second verse still squeezes my heart! I was such a dramatic young mother!
When I opened my eyes this morning to my alarm going off to wake Sean up for school, I saw this post recapping my birthday. I smiled and shared it. Of all the birthday posts I received yesterday, this one had to be the first one to show up in the montage. Now the world knows that my brother, Dave, calls me, “Poop.” He’s been doing that since about the time I was in seventh grade and was 13 years old. It wasn’t until I was about 32 or 33 that my Mom noticed that he calls me that. She hates it but now that’s just what he calls me.
I knew that I would feel pretty bad today because I was so excited yesterday! It’s not Sunday, I did not, “smoke my mind,” and I am not hung over… but it kind of feels like it.
After my Dad‘s death, I absolutely love this song! It reminds me of him although he never pushed me on a swing in the park. I told my Mom that I put the sweatshirt I was wearing yesterday back on so technically, this is my, “Cleanest, dirty shirt.”
I spent the day just reading my book. When the, “Green leopard print” would show up on the pages, I just put the book down and closed my eyes to rest them for a little while. I closed my eyes when Sean left to work out and did not open them until I heard him unlocking the front door. That was a lot of sleep but I am sure that will help because I don’t sleep very well at night
I want to write about my wonderful birthday dinner yesterday but, I’m just not feeling it today! I feel like, “Poop.“
Because my license is expiring tomorrow (because it’s my birthday!), my Mom and I went to the Secretary of State today. It was really busy there but since I am disabled, there were only two people in front of me. Once it was my turn, my Mom pushed me up to the counter and I told the woman that my license was expiring but I needed to change it to a state ID because I can no longer drive. She immediately began typing on her computer and gave us paperwork to fill out. As my Mom was filling the paperwork out (because I can no longer write well enough to fill out a legal form – my writing is mostly illegible, oversized scrawl) I took this picture:
Something told me that this would be the last time that I would see my driver’s license complete. As we finished the paperwork, I went back to the counter and gave it to the woman. She did some more typing and handed me two pieces of paper to sign on a clipboard. I signed both pieces of paper and gave the clipboard back. She gave me one piece of paper and my Mom was going to fold it up but I stopped her because I wanted to read it. I probably shouldn’t have done that.
It had my name at the top and my driver’s license number that would become my state ID number and there was one sentence written above the line where I signed my name. This sentence was, “License canceled because of voluntary surrender.” As I read that and it sunk in, my eyes began to well with tears. I had tissue in my coat pocket so I was able to dab the corners of my eyes so as not to have tears streaming down my face in such a busy place.
As I kept wiping my eyes, my Mom told me that it was OK and she tried to calm me down and handed me additional tissue. The woman had me sign two more things and then she directed us to walk down to take a picture. Well, I was happy that my poofy hair would not be on my license anymore because it rained the day I renewed my license so my hair got really frizzy!
The new ID picture is just a picture of me and my Mom and I left. After leaving, we stopped to get some chicken schwarmas for lunch. As she pulled into a parking spot at Hamido’s, this song came on:
This song has always been my song to my Mom. Sitting in the passenger seat, I grabbed her arm on the inside of her elbow like I used to just after my Abuela died. (My Mom’s Mom) We both sat there in silence and I was the first want to start crying and my Mom cried too because she finally was able to pay attention to the lyrics.
My state ID will come to my house in two or three weeks. They punched a hole in my old license because it will be expired tomorrow but stapled the paper that states that I will be getting a new ID soon to it. I need to call my insurance agent to adjust my car insurance now that I am no longer a licensed driver. I don’t think I will do that tomorrow though, it IS my birthday and that might bum me out!
When my Mom allows me to choose the music we will listen to in the morning, lately, I’ve been choosing this song:
This song was released on June 22, 2010 as a single from Train’s album, Save Me San Francisco. That was around the time I started seeing Parker Whitaker in Plymouth. He was my MRT (Muscle Release Technique) therapist who I saw just before I started going to Barwis Methods.
There are so many good songs on this album but, If It’s Love is one of my favorite songs! It’s catchy and has memorable lines for sure! My favorite line is: “On a spinning ball in the middle of a space, I love you from your head to your face“ which demands to be yelled out as loud as I can!
Right after I finished yelling those lines, as my Mom drove the car she asked the question, “What about the top of your head? I told her that, “face” rhymes with, “space” and talked about artistic freedom. Every single time I belted out those lines with the song, my Mom would always ask, “ What about the top of your head?” I would tell her that I had already explained it and, “Way to ruin it Mom!”
As we listen to this song in the mornings now, I always ask that question after my favorite line. Then I kind a laugh a little bit. My Mom did not remember saying that but I let her know that she completely ruined the song for me! (NOT REALLY! I STILL LOVE IT!!!) I also LOVE the memory of hearing her say that as we drove to Parker’s so many years ago!
This morning when my Mom came over and helped me out of bed, I sat in the kitchen drinking my kiefer and I felt pretty badly! She told me that I did not look good and that my eyes look bad! Well, they feel bad! She was puzzled because it wasn’t snowing and I just kind of shrugged a tiny bit and played her this song:
I was in seventh grade when this song came out but I could not think of a more perfect instance to play it. Hopefully, it will get better as the day wears on… We will have to see because it’s, “One of Dem Days!”
The other day, as my Mom and I were getting me ready for the day, I moved in such a way that put some strain on my right knee as we were getting me ready. It really hurt! I looked at my Mom and told her more than I asked her but it was a statement and a question rolled into one. I said, “I have a bad knee now.” It was a statement and a question because I could not believe that that is true. My Mom just answered me with a simple, “Yes.”
My knee popped out this morning and when my Mom came over to help me out of bed, my knee popped back in as she was helping me to transfer into my motorized chair. When my knee pops out now, (because it does often), I no longer gasp when it happens but rather, I scream! Often, tears will accompany that scream and it’s been one year, 10 months, and one day since my surgery.
A few days ago, I was sleeping in bed when I kind of rolled over to my back and it popped out! It was probably around 4 o’clock in the morning and my eyes shot open and I called to my Mom! She wasn’t at my house (OF COURSE!) and she laughed when I told her when she got to my house if little bit later. She told me that she must be a good caregiver for me to call to her! I will never dispute that, EVER because as much as it hurts me to realize that I have a caregiver, I couldn’t have a better one than her!
MS is difficult and add it to that, the pain STILL in my knee, just about makes it unbearable! I’ve been thinking about the fact that just after I told/asked my Mom about me having a bad knee and when she answered with a simple response of, “Yes.” I’m not sure if I cried but it was a sad realization! My Mom saw my face and told me that, “The game ain’t over!“
I KNOW it is NOT but it IS difficult! I find myself, “grabbing my guts” even more now and often with tears streaming out of my eyes. I knew what she said was true, and MY TRUTH but it still was a little difficult to hear! As I agreed with her assertion, and I thought of this song:
With the kick off of “Birthday Month,” even though this song did not win at the Oscars, I still dig it because I really liked the documentary and the song!
Yesterday, I get to choose the music my Mom and I listened to and I had completely forgot about these gems until yesterday!
This song reminds me of Parker And the Conversation we had about this song years ago, one day while he worked out of me!
Addendum: Jammed to the last one as we got me ready for the day. I swear I was at DTE years ago with my cousinT, Shannon. We saw them there twice! Such great memories!
