“Whichever”

It was my first year teaching and I’m not sure if it was my first class ever but when calling the roll, I came across a student named Jorge. I asked him if he wanted to be called George or XOR:xeh (Horhey)? He shyly smiled and said, “Whichever.” I told him that he would have to choose or I would call him, “Whichever.”

I called him, “Whichever” for the rest of the year and while he was still in the middle school when he was in the eighth grade. I have so many memories from the 12 years I taught but this one is from one of my favorite students. I used to sit at the student table in the front of the room in my roller chair before I was wheelchair-bound.

The students were completing independent work when I overheard a conversation that, “Whichever” was having with another student at the table I was sitting at. He was telling them about pedicures. I remember that I stopped what I was doing and looked at him questioningly. He asked me if I had ever gotten a pedicure to which I told him that I had not.

I remember shaking my head and telling both students to get back to work. A few weeks later, “Whichever” came into class beaming. As he sat down, he told me that he just had gotten a pedicure. He took off his left sock and shoe and showed me his toes. As I looked at them, he began to wiggle them!

I remember laughing pretty hard and shaking my head. He came back to the school years later, after he had graduated from high school and after I had become the Reading Specialist. My first office as the Reading Specialist was on the second floor and had a bathroom inside of it.

When I was teaching Read Natually (I taught a small class of six and a couple kids were absent) I ducked into the restroom while my students were working. I heard someone knocking at the door and then I heard voices but I couldn’t tell what they were saying as I washed my hands.

When I came out of the restroom, I saw that there was no one in the classroom other than my students. I asked them who was at the door and they said it was a man. I asked them if he told them who he was and they shrugged and told me that he said something like, “Whatever.” I didn’t know who they were talking about because, “Whichever” had graduated from middle school a good seven years before that.

Later that day, “Whichever” came back to my room to see me! He was all grown up! Every time a male student came back to see me when he was in high school, he would say, “Hi Miss!” to which I would respond copying a very deep voice, “Hi [whatever their name was]” and they would laugh as I told them that they did NOT sound like that when they were in seventh grade!

I’m not sure what made me think of this student this morning but I told Sean about it and he kind of laughed and looked amused that I was THAT kind of teacher. I DO miss that even though it’s summer now!

Different

The book I am currently reading, Good In Bed, is different than I remember it. I must’ve read that book 16 years ago.

Another thing that is different from when I remember first seeing it is Where the Heart Is. That movie is free OnDemand for me right now. Upon watching it, the scene where she is left at Walmart and the camera spins around her made me cry.

It had been so many years since I have seen the movie but that scene gets me every time because that is EXACTLY how it feels to be left taking care of your child. I was extremely lucky to have my Parents’ help in the formative years!

My situation is different than Novalee’s but seeing this movie put me back a little bit. This movie came out almost 20 years ago so things look different now. I swore I would find my, “Forney!”

At this point, I have NOT found him but I also think I am too old to believe that I could find him! But you never know, it could happen. I saw that this movie is based on a book so you KNOW that I ordered it! My life has turned out so vastly different than I thought it would so I can give up finding my, “Forney” because I I’m pretty sure that MS has something way different to say about that…

Protein Shake

I started a no carb diet in 2007ish. Then I switched to the B.E.D diet (same principle) in probably 2010-11? I have been on some form of a low-carb diet for more than a decade. Aside from my birthday, free donut day, and Christmas ( I HAVE to have aunt Lola’s cookies!) I’ve pretty much stayed with it for my health. Knee injury and surgery did a number on me but I have since gotten back on to no carbs this year, since January.

Now that it is warmer outside, I can drink protein shakes in the morning. I need to drink my breakfast because without nourishment, I get faint but I am too tired to chew in the morning. So, after I drink my Kiefer, I have an Atkins protein shake:

This morning, after I shook it up, opened it, and took a drink, I was immediately reminded of being the Reading Specialist at CCA. I got my Masters’ degree in 2010 and taught reading for the past seven years of my employment. I taught two reading programs, READ 180 and Read Naturally. and in order to adhere to the proper way to administer these reading programs, I taught three sections of Read Naturally and four sections of READ 180.

As a result, I forewant my regularly scheduled lunch break and taught straight through the day in order to reach more students. I drank my lunch pretty much every day! So today, as I sipped it, I closed my eyes and remembered so many wonderful times of teaching a reading program that I was very familiar with! It was nice to remember that. It’s interesting how the smallest thing can trigger the greatest memory! And all because of a protein shake.

#45 OR Disappointing

Last night, I waited until Sean got home from work and then he got me into my bed. I wasn’t tired and Sean sat on the couch resting before he took a shower right after he went to bed.

He was watching the highlight reel of the Detroit Pistons new draft pack from France. Sean was telling me about this right from the living room as I laid in my bed. He told me that he was pretty good and then he told me that he was #45.

He said that was a stupid number and I gasped and told him that #45 what’s my basketball number in high school. He made the statement that I must not have been good, it sounds more like a football number. I laughed and told him that I didn’t say that I was good. I am only 5 feet tall! I told him that I was an off-guard or a small forward because I could box out because I have ALWAYS had a big butt!

He told me that he could not picture me as a basketball player and got into the shower. I searched my camera roll to find this picture:

You told me that it was strange to see me like this and that I pretty much look the same except the creases around my eyes are deeper. Then he told me something that was so disappointing. Disappointing and sad. When I told him that I used to play basketball he told me that he can’t even remember me standing anymore. How sad! I have difficulty remembering that as well.

ALMOST Forgotten Tune #51

So, after taking a short nap, I turned on the Hallmark channel. There is a movie premiere after the current one I am watching. The promo for the new movie had this song in it. I was immediately transported back to Spanish class, sophomore year.

My name for Spanish class was, “Julia.” “Julio” sat next to me and he rolled his eyes when I told him that we were Raggedy Anne and Andy! Just before channel one came on, I used to begin singing this song very softly. Lauryn Hill released this song on her “Miseducation” album. I would stand up and stand by his desk next to me gradually beginning to belt this song out. Sometimes I would sit on his lap. I was SO crazy in high school!

Bad

This video showed up in my YouTube feed this morning. I shared it on Facebook before I even got out of bed! It made me think of my first year teaching and when I learned that a colleague shared my love for U2! Well, he’s a guy so he really doesn’t love Bono like I do but he likes the music!

It was either during my first for my second year teaching that we ended up driving to the U2 concert together. We got tickets separately and realized that we were going the same place so my brother and I drove with him and a couple more colleagues. He actually picked out the T-shirts that I still have because I was on Canadian crutches then and it was too far to walk for me.

I have been thinking about my first years teaching, cleaning my classroom, or grading papers/ entering grades into the computer and listening to a best of U2 CD. It was back when I worked way too much in order to get by craft established.

Maybe now my YouTube feed will be flooded with U2 videos. That wouldn’t be a bad thing…

A Heavy Burn

My Mom had to accompany my cousin who I call my nephew (who she is the guardian of) to attend orientation for his freshman year of college beginning in the fall. She helps me daily with getting ready for the day. They need to be at the school by around 830 this morning. My eyes opened this morning when I heard my Mom fumbling with the lock on my front door. I checked the time and it was 5:15 AM.

During my working days, I would wake up every weekday at 4:30 AM to begin getting ready for work. It’s been almost 2 years since I stopped working. It’s harder for me to get to sleep now a days so I Fell asleep shortly after 1 o’clock this morning. I have NEVER been a morning person and it was difficult this morning for sure!

Once out of bed, my Mom gave me five minutes to sit in my chair and acclimate myself to being awake. That acclamation usually takes about an hour. We couldn’t afford that this morning so we completed and abridged version of our morning routine so she could leave to take my nephew to be there on time.

It was about 10 after six when she left. My eyes felt heavy and they burned just after putting in my contacts so early! I read for a little while until GMFB Started at 7:00 AM. I really like waking up to them and I love hearing about football! I wanted to stay awake until 10:00 AM when it is over. I ended up dozing off just after 8:40 AM. My eyes were killing me!

I woke up to the sounds of Kay Adams greeting everyone because it was the second broadcast of the show. It’s frustrating to me that I missed the last hour and 20 minutes of the show! Because I was sleeping and with my contacts on, my eyes continued to burn. I turned the TV off and wanted to fall back to sleep but then I got a text message from the company who delivers my monthly medical supplies to my house. I had to answer all of their questions via text because I NEED my medical supplies!

After I answered all of their questions, I realized that falling back to sleep was NOT an option any longer! I am mindlessly scrolling through Facebook for a little while but then I figured I should write a blog post regarding the heavy burn I feel in my eyes!

Underlying all of my discomfort is the fact that my Mom is taking my nephew to MSU to begin school next year! Really?! I know so many people who are alumni of MSU but I got both my Bachelor’s and Master’s degrees from U of M! So I have a heavy burn in my eyes because of MSU?!

The Grad Party Volume 1

This morning, while watching GMFB, the breakfast table sans Kyle Brant talked about Darius Slay going to a random high schooler‘s graduation party after Will Selva reported it:

Sean was still sleeping but I made sure to tweet them saying that I was excited that Darius Slay went to this random student’s graduation party because my son is graduating next year so it would be really, really cool if he came to you his! I tagged Darius and then I retweeted with the comment that it would be really cool if the breakfast table came! Sean has always told me I am their #1 fan! I tweet at least one of them usually daily. Darius Slay is closer to us though. We live in Deerborn and Sean goes to Divine Child high school it IS the off-season for the breakfast table to come!

Sean reminds me when I begin talking about his graduation party that it is a year away! But, it’s kind of MY graduation party too! I tweeted the breakfast table saying that I’ve had three opportunities for a graduation party but each time, things didn’t work out for me.

The day after my high school graduation, my Dad had his first open heart surgery. Five years later and after I had my son, my Dad was in the hospital on my undergrad commencement. When I graduated with my Master’s degree, my Dad was already dead. My son was eight years old. He was three and my undergraduate graduation and we took this picture:

I plan on re-creating this picture at Sean‘s graduation next year. I’ve begun thinking about Sean’s party: where it will be, what kind of food do y’all have, and all that stuff. Sean just shakes his head when I ask him about it and he tells me, “Whatever [you] want!” Thinking about his upcoming party keeps my mind off of my knee pain and my MS pain.

I’m super excited about this party and I guess it really doesn’t matter if I have any Lions players or anybody from GMFB there! (Although I would LOVE it!!!) I have a big family and I will invite all my former colleagues, the (CCA OG’s) so they can see how, “Little Sean” turned out. Sean is close with the other side of his family but I am super excited for my boy! I hope to send out, “Save the Date” reminders sometime in February or March and have the party sometime in June.

I don’t have anything pressing or anything to pass the time so this will be my focus! I hope it’s really good!!!

Vastly Different

I had an appointment to get my eyebrows waxed today. The woman who waxes my eyebrows will be on vacation for the first two weeks in July so she won’t be able to wax my eyebrows or cut my hair. Because the temperatures are rising now, my Mom made it a point to buy me a white zippy and thinner black sweatpants.

Once Sean wheeled me outside, I was immediately grateful for the thinner pants but the white zippy took a minute for me to get used to because it was SO bright! He put me into a cooled down a car. He shut the door and disassembled my wheelchair and put it in the trunk.

As I sat there, in the driveway, waiting for my Mom to come out of the house to drive me to my appointment, this song came on:

Hearing this song immediately took me back to seeing them in concert with my cousinT Shannon!

Things were SO different back then! I was not hiding from the heat AND I still could drive back then (even though Shannon drove to the concert). As my Mom got into the car and pulled out of my driveway, I realized how vastly different things were! There’s a good reason that I don’t drive anymore! I thanked her for driving and as we got into the salon, was extremely grateful that I had the zippy on because I was freezing inside! It really frustrates me how vastly different my life is on so many different levels! … Well, at least my eyebrows look good now though!