This category is full of randomness that really doesn’t fit nicely into any of the categories having to do with my road to walking.
I snapped this picture of Leia a couple weeks ago when she was fully on steroids:
She was just listless and she looked at me as if to say, ”Really?!”
She is gradually stepping down from the steroids now and taking one pill every other today until it’s gone but she’s already pink! I don’t know what we are going to do for her! But we have to do something!!!
I made this decision possibly in October or November 20221. I knew that my 20th year of having MS was difficult! I also knew that I would not get through any more years without some help and I found it here:
I told Sean that I am going to get an, ‘A’ in listening to the Bible! I thought that I knew what the Bible was about having 12 years of Catholic education and being a Bible quiz champion, I thought it was going to be a piece of cake!
Man, was I ever wrong?! I like the fact that it was in my 40th year on this earth that I read the Bible and I have found that I have a peace about me and I will restart the journey tomorrow so feel free to join me because I will be praying for you as well!
I am nothing if I am not consistent! Today is New Year’s Day:
You’re welcome!!! I have recently been thinking about this CD and I bought it back when I was still able bodied enough to shower in the bathroom in my room. I eventually had to move to the main bathroom to use the handicapped railing. But these songs are in my head now and I’m thinking of winter time and our second apartment:
I remember that I was listening to the CD and the song title was scrolling along the dash and Sean saw Ed and his eight year old self asked, ”What are you? A dog?!” I think I smirked and told him that I liked this song!:
I have been thinking about this for a while. Based on my last post, I will explain a little more. Granted, being diagnosed with multiple sclerosis when you are 18 is QUITE traumatic but that is not even the reason that I watch movies over and over again!
I think I was NOT thinking about it because I didn’t WANT TO acknowledge the fact that my vision is going/dimming/fading just like that horrible doctor said 22 years ago! I did not want to handle it when I was 18 but now, when I am 40, I have no choice.
Having had MS for 22 years now, when I wake up, I put in one drop of eyedrops before I put my contacts in every day. Once my contacts are in, I put my glasses on which are $9 glasses from Amazon but I have a prism over my right eye to allow me to see single objects clearly.
I have another set of eyedrops that I put two drops in each eye when my eyes get dry (which is quite often!). When I watch the same movie multiple times, I do not have to strain my eyes to really focus on what I am looking at, I already know what’s going on in the movie. My eyes are relaxed each time I watch Hocus-Pocus in October and Love Actually in December!
I guess this was just to explain the method to my madness and this song fits as well (AND it’s in my head):
I posted this video because I was popped up in my YouTube feed last night and I watched it twice and cried and then I watched it again the next day and I’m not ashamed to say that I cried again:
But I want to explain how my two worlds were colliding…
I was born in 1982 and I have an older brother, Ray, who is 9 1/2 years older than me and my brother, Steve, he’s 7 years older than me and he recently told me about my brother Ray and him falling asleep to the new U2 album when they slept in the basement of my house growing up.
Retrospectively, this is why I absolutely love u2!!! They were falling asleep to the album and so was I sleeping just above them. I have always felt something about Bono’s voice and when he told me that, it all made sense!
Being born in 1982, made me fit perfectly into the 90s grunge era! Therefore, Eddie Vedder’s voice is so Iconic for that era!
Middle school Jenny:
Undergrad Jen:
I have written so extensively about U2’s song, ‘One’, on my blog over the years because it is easily one of my top five!!! Seeing and hearing Eddie Vedder singing my jam was a bit much for me!!!
I watched Eddie Vedder’s performance again last night and I was able to snap a couple of pictures!!!
I noticed this the first time I saw the performance and it made my heart warm for a completely different reason! My heart was warmed from my GMFB days with the original crew!:
when he put up his four fingers, I am reminded of K Adams and Nate Burleson giving an interview for some young running back. I don’t even remember who it was but he said that if he got a touchdown the following week, he would put up his four fingers for the four members at the breakfast table!
I just loved seeing Eddie put his hand to his heart! I just loved that experience so I had to put it on my blog for future reference!
Okay, let me ‘splaying ya:
Whenever I go into my website to write a new post, I can see the site as statistics and I can see which posts people are reading. Yesterday, someone started reading my blog because I got a lot of views and I’m getting the same amount today as well.
I will click on a random post that has been read and then I will read it and remember writing it. But the post I read yesterday, took me back to a lifetime ago! It’s one that kind of blows my mind!
I read that post and listened to that song and reminisced. I think this memory is from longer than a lifetime ago because it completely blows my mind!
So the post I clicked on was talking about a song that I used to love hearing when I was working at Lonestar steakhouse and saloon. It’s not even a restaurant anymore but I Crystal clearly saw my 18 year old self walking up to the bar and grabbing three cold beer mugs with my left hand and intertwined my fingers with the handles and with my right hand, took three beer bottles with my index, middle, and ring fingers and took these to my table.
Wait. What?! I live in my memories and I can see myself doing that and I remember doing it myself but thinking about my abilities now, there is no way in the world that I could hold three beer bottles between my fingers! Beer mugs are heavy! My hand strength is so far gone away now, I could not do any of that now!
Okay, I have to confess! This evening, both my Mom and I, who combined are 110 years old, watched High School Musical and enjoyed it! 😂😂😂
it has been so long since we first saw it, it was like it was a brand new movie! I couldn’t get over how young they were! We started watching the second one but my Mom decided to lay down for a nap so we’ll watch it tomorrow. Then we will probably watch the third installment:
It’s good that I have Disney+ because all three are on it! I called Sean after we watched the first one and he laughed at us and called us losers! I told my Mom that I didn’t want her to make fun of me when we watch the second one because she did the first time I saw it because I was heartbroken when Troy and Gabriella break up!!! I think Sean was six at the time we saw it. He’s 21 now.
Because my mom and I enjoyed watching High School Musical so much yesterday that we watched, High School Musical 2 today:
We are still 110. But, about halfway through, my Mom got tired so I just watched the second half by myself. The first time I saw this, I think I was 25 and now that I’m watching it again, at 40, I did not cry when Troy and Gabriella broke up! Mind you, it was so hard wrenching for me, definitely! But, I’m 40 now. With that being said, we still have a third installment of these movies to watch tomorrow! 😂😂😂
I have a shared this Guinness commercial many times on my blog over the years because I can still remember Adam showing it to me for the first time when I was at Barwis working with him and Chris on the white table I am pretty sure that I had just gone to my school’s kick off for the new school year so I had mascara on.
Adam did not tell me anything about this commercial when he handed me his phone as it started to play. I remember gasping and toward the end of it, a tear began to roll out of the corner of my right eye. I tried to stop it quickly with my left hand because I didn’t want black streaks down my face.
I randomly thought of this commercial and I had to search for it in the wee hours of this morning because it seems that sleep is not an option right now. I will look for the other times I have posted this commercial on my blog because I’m not going to be sleeping but I’m not wearing mascara so I let the tears flow freely this time…: