I went to the doctor today to get weighed, to get annual bloodwork, to get a new prescription for compression socks, and to ask how the measles outbreak affects me.
I did that. But I think the most concerning thing was my weight. In the past six months, I have lost 23 pounds. Wait. What?! I am currently 1.6 pounds lighter than I was when I was 18 at the appointment just before I found out that I was pregnant with Sean.
There might be something really wrong with me and she tested my thyroid. I have family members who have thyroid problems so maybe that’s it. I think that having MS for 24 years is taking its toll. I am concerned. So very concerned… I see her again in a month to check my weight further.
So, father Mike started the homily before Lent started saying that “…we should start lent in silence.” I have been thinking about that and actually working on it.
I’ve written before about my cell phone being at an iPhone 12. Obviously, it is starting to get wonky, because I’m supposed to buy another phone! On Friday, it told me that ‘Siri was not available’ and I could not get off of the home screen that had the time. I thought for a moment and decided that this was a lesson in silence for me.
Mu Mom shared her cell phone with me so I was able to pray but otherwise, I was contemplative and silent and had an experience to say the least!!!
I’m not even sure how to put it into words, but it feels extremely big!!! I spent the weekend without my phone and my Mom’s phone did not work on Sunday. Because it is also an iPhone 12 and it is getting wonky like my phone!
The timer worked, so instead of praying, I just set the timer and offered silent prayers. I told my Mom that it was going to be a, “Silent Sunday”
Today, my nephew fixed my phone because he worked for Apple in college so he knew how to do it. But somehow, I can’t shake my silent weekend! It was wonderful! I even pillaged in silence! I don’t know what is going on, but it feels so big and wonderful!!!
I have been following Hallow for a few years now and this is my third Lent listening to their prayer offerings. I think that is helping with this big feeling!!!
I caught up on the prayers for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday as I prayed today. On Saturday, a foreign cardinal speaks to us about contemplative silence. I heard this today as I was catching up:
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This is all new to me, but it feels powerful, and even wonderful!!! I can’t explain it yet fully, but it’s so big!!! I’m excited to see what happens!!! Cardinal Sarah told us to, “Rest in the awesome silence of God.” MAN, THIS IS SO BIG!!!!!!!!!
Today, we had an encore of my movie we saw a few days ago but I can’t post a link to the trailer. (I will write more about that in the coming days). The movie is The Magic of Ordinary Days.
My Mom asked if I minded seeing that movie again because she really dug it! I didn’t mind at all! I’ve had a crush on Skeet Ulriche since The Craft.
And I told my Mom that, “Of course I don’t mind! Skeet has Matthew Stafford cheekbones!” Because he does!
It did NOT take long for today to feel like a birthday thanks to my Facebook family and friends!!! I’m pretty sure that I responded to everyone and I’ve felt that love all day long!!!
I even received birthday emails from my chiropractor’s office and my optometrist’s offices.
Sean came over with a red Velvet buntini and I had llhalf of it! He also brought Sabina’s. We watched Leap Year.
It was a low-key day for sure and it sounds strange to me to be 43 but all in all… it FELT like a birthday after all!!!
I still feel 95!!! Oh, wait. I’m 98 now!!! At least at is how it feels…
It’s 12:19 on March 12. Today is my 43rd birthday.
It’s 31 degrees right now.
My birthday has mostly been mild spring days. I never would have thought that it would be so cold on my birthday but furthermore, I would never have thought that on my 43rd birthday… I really don’t care. #MSsucks!!! 😒😒😒…
it has been 12 days since I left my house and I went to the dentist. It’s been 12 days since the Westland fire department had to assist me because I got stuck on the ramp getting into the van.
I have been feeling terrible since I got home, I was concerned that this terrible feeling was my ‘New Normal,’ but I don’t think that’s the case given how I feel today. I am saying that cautiously, but I do feel a little better than I have been feeling since my meet up with Dave and Sean from the Westland fire department.
It is so startling how long it takes me to wake up these days!!! “Go Time” is March 19 so that’s kind of coming up quickly given that a ‘weekend recovery’ has turned into a ‘12 day recovery.”
That’s not sustainable at all but I have two different doctor appointments and a haircut this month. There will be no snow on the ground so that’s good.
For my two doctors appointments, I am going to see my internist, which is in the same building that I used to take Sean to see the pediatrician and my other appointment is in Dearborn as well where I used to go to see my pediatrician, so I’m familiar with both places and I have been getting my hair cut and eyebrows waxed at the same place since I was 17.
Today is Saturday and I pillaged, but I could not get a memory out of my head last night! I think it was in late 2021? I know that I still had my original bed that I got from Art Van.
In this post, I’m kind of telling on myself, but this happened before I got my new bed, CORRECTION!!!: before my Parents got me my new bed! But I’ve decided that I can talk about it because I don’t even have that bed anymore. And this kind of explains why:
I think it was in the winter time and it was pretty late, but my Mom was getting me into my bed and I fell. I landed laying down on the floor in my bedroom. I looked at my Mom and both of us had no idea what to do! She called 911.
I will never forget the two EMTs who showed up. One was the big stocky guy and the other guy was kind of slight. Probably 5’6 and about 140 pounds. My Mom told the guys that I had MS and I would need help getting into bed because that’s what we are doing.
The smaller guy told us that his brother has MS so he knows what to do. The bigger guy had no idea what to do. He just held the clipboard. But I was thinking about this last night as I was almost falling to sleep.
I thought about this, as it began to drift off, and I think that was one of the best transfers that I have ever had! He was holding onto me like he was holding onto his brother, and he knew what to do. At the same, I was holding onto him like I hold onto my Mom! It was a seamless transfer, and like we knew each other!
There is a reason that I no longer have that bad! I loved it! I bought it in 2006. It was a black wood four poster bed. I wanted to gift that bed to my granddaughter when I died. I think it’s better for me to have a Tempur-pedic bed now though…
