Well, yesterday was day one of my 23rd year of having MS. It was a difficult one to say the least! I feel that I have started to project how my body feels on my face. I was thinking yesterday that everything just hurts so badly that I just look like I’m in pain all of the time!
After 23 years, I just can’t hide it anymore. Last night as my Mom and I were doing our routine before I got into bed, and tears just seeped out of my eyes as we worked. I no longer think of them as,”Strong, silent tears.” I actually think that they are kind of pitiful now, but we continued working just the same.
Once we were finished and my compression socks and Tens unit were off, I used my sleeves to wipe my tear-stained face as my Mom handed me a tissue to blow my nose. I apologized to her for crying and she just said matter-of-factly, “It’s my job.” After I blew my nose, I told her, “Mine too.” I pillaged today so I am still quiet. I’m kind of leery of this 23rd year…
Jen you are the most amazing mother, daughter, sister, and friend. A human can only take so much n the tears do fall and they are deserving tears. Never be ashamed of being human n showing your feelings. God loved you.