Month: April 2021

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I was hesitant to watch the first night of the NFL draft yesterday. I am currently at an impasse right now because I don’t know if I have been a Lions fan since 2009 or if I have just been a Matthew Stafford fan since then! I haven’t even been able to watch GMFB a for a long time now since my sleep schedule is so off! I can’t fall asleep till early in the morning until about two or 3 o’clock therefore, I can’t be up at 7:00 am to watch GMFB. I can see highlights on Twitter but it definitely is not the same!

Previous drafts, I have known all of the top draft picks and have seen their highlight reel‘s on GMFB. So much so that I have cried with the prospects once they get drafted (Jadeveon Clowney)! I’m not sure if it’s Covid that took away my football watching or the progression of my disease. It’s probably both because my disease is definitely progressing and my Mom who has been living with me since the beginning of Covid. I know she doesn’t like it at all so I have cut my football watching.

So, as I was texting with a friend, I turned it on and I see Kings of Leon playing this song!:

This song reminds me of a time when I was still able to drive and I lived in my second apartment back then. I could not believe how old he looked! I texted my friend that it was insane how old he looked and he said that WE are old!!!

I felt even older as I watched how young these prospects were! I felt a little uncomfortable because I did not recognize any of them but then Jim Brown started speaking with a U2 song playing in the background:

It was comforting to hear my favorite band also involved! I ended up watching the first 15 picks even though I did not know any of them because Mac Jones caught my eye! I had to wait until he found a home. I had to watch previous NFL draft until Johnny Manziel found a home. (That was a long night

Mac Jones

I don’t know how long my Mom will be living with me because we have Leia now and Covid has really showed me how disabled I am now. I’m not even sure what I’m going to do this coming season for football anyway. I don’t even have a team!

Shopping

My Dad read the entire paper every single day! On Sundays, he would take all of the sale papers out and put them on the floor in the living room while he sat in his recliner and read the paper. On lazy days, I would walk into our living room and sort through the pile of sale papers. I made two piles. One pile for things I wanted to look at and the other pile was to discard and put into the recycle bin.

I remember one time laying on the floor in the living room on my stomach with my knees bent and my feet lazily kicking behind me that my Dad looked up from the paper and asked me what I was doing. My answer was short and direct. I didn’t know why it was not obvious but I just said, “Shopping.”

I remember him kind of chuckling a bit at my answer but it made complete sense to me! I was not old enough to drive back then so I was entertaining myself by shopping from my house. I never really thought that would actually be a thing but, it is!

I thought about this today because I am not feeling well and it would be a good day to go shopping laying on my stomach on my living room floor with my feet kicking behind me. But, first of all, I am not physically able to do that anymore.

I am really not feeling well because it’s raining and I even opted to NOT wash my hair. Seems like it is another another #DirtyHairDontCare day for me!

MyGirlL: “Good Teeth”

So, dental hygiene has been huge for me for my entire life. It became more important to me once a had Sean! We have cleanings every six months and I looked into getting braces for him when he was seven. He didn’t get his braces on until he was 13 after for teeth extractions. While he had braces, he needed a second mouth surgery!

So, I made his teeth a priority as well as mine. For my last cleaning, my dentist told me that I have, “Good teeth.” So, I find it really funny (my mom does too) that Leia likes to get her teeth brushed as well! I guess it’s through osmosis that she wants ‘good teeth’ too!

#Overwhelmed

I can clearly remember some 16 years ago of hearing this song in a car during the summer and feeling vastly contented. It was warm and I probably was wearing still able to wear my Doc Marten’s. I started to feel overwhelmed when I heard the beginning guitar chords I and I began to cry! Hearing all of these people sing-along made me cry this morning again and remembering that memory and I’m sure I have seen this in my YouTube feed and shared the song but to hear all of those people sing it made me cry as well as I remembered that day in the summer so many years ago!

And this one has the lyrics as well:

“You Were So Cute!”

I saw this meme and shared it on Facebook yesterday:

I posted on this song on my blog yesterday:

it got me thinking about a very long time back when I worked at dfcuu financial. I looked through my tunes tab and checked what I wrote about Matty. I wrote this post a couple years ago so the video for, “Electrical Storm” is no longer available so I will re-post the video for that song here:

This song always reminds me of working the drive-through with Matty because his sister like that song. But another memory of Matty I have and clearly remember this day because it was the first time I fell in public. It was before I started using crutches and was still walking on my own. It was the first time my legs just gave out in public! I was walking behind the teller stations and I don’t know how but they just gave out and I fell. I was walking with another woman and she helped me up. This was the beginning of balance issues so I didn’t know anything about see it. I just knew that I was really embarrassed! I could feel my face ignite into flames!

I think it was a couple weeks later that Matty and I were working in the drive-through (a different time) and he started to talk about seeing me fall. I was completely mortified with a branch full of members and everyone I worked with there! He started to chuckle and told me, “You were so cute!” I disagreed with him and I started to laugh too. I’ve been thinking about that time of my life and it makes me a little bit sad. Even with that being the case, I always have some great music to listen to and to remember!

Roughly 7 Years, 5 Months Later…

I’ve been thinking about this song a lot lately and was not able to post it seven years ago back when the procedure for posting links on my blog was a lot different. I want to clear up any questions or confusions about the song that I always liked it because I used to work at the 7-11 the summer before college aand NOT not because I used to get hit!

This One REALLY Hurts!!!

Okay, So, I have written before about the fact that I was still rockin’ my iPhone 7s. Disability does not allow for much extra things so I just rocked my old phone. It worked just fine! It wasn’t until the phone case broke and I started having real difficulty with it that I started thinking about replacing it. During the NCAA Championship game, I saw a commercial from Verizon talking about offering trade-ins for phones and big discounts. I called him the next day and figured out that I could get a purple iPhone 11 for a reasonable price. The 12 is already out but I want to the purple phone!

But then, I received this email and 1146 today:

This one really hurt! It looks even cooler than my phone! I texted this to both Sean and my best friend, Ami.

This is what Sean send:


I told Ami thatI have a sparkly case and this is what we’ll have to do until I get another phone but this one really hurts!

The Lyrics

Based on my previous YouTube search history, I received some germs this morning because Big Brother Has yet to disappoint me. My Mom asked me if I was going to cry EVERY time I heard this song (she was talking about, “One”). As I wiped The tears off of my face, I just simply said, “Probably.” At that point I had cried hearing both the U2 version and Johnny Cash a couple days ago. So today, this showed up in my YouTube feed and I HAD to share it on Facebook!:

Hearing both of these voices singing The words to this song warmed my heart! My two oldest brothers slept in the basement and I would hear various U2 songs as I fall asleep so Bono‘s voice is very comforting to me and whenever I hear Johnny Cash, I think of my Dad with fondness! As I watched this video, another version showed up and I remember sharing this version sometime ago:

And then I watched this one and I really think it’s the lyrics that get me EVERY. SINGLE. TIME!!! ! (regardless of who is singing!) Some of these lines pierce my soul at make my heart burst!:

So now, I can hear duets of Bono and Johnny Cash or Bono and Mary J. anytime I want and just Johnny Cash and just Bono so I will have four options to choose from when I want to hear this song!:

So, when my Mom asked me if I was going to cry every time I heard this song, after hearing these four versions my, “Probably” is now a, “Definitely.!” I appreciate the Johnny Cash cover and the duos with both Mary J and Johnny Cash but there is nothing like the original:

He Laughed.

I posted this meme on Facebook not too long ago:

I posted it because this is COMPLETELY me! I’ve been talking to my Mom about me possibly getting a house plant. My kitchen gets a lot of sunlight and I’ve been kicking around than ideal.

I talked with Sean yesterday and I mentioned this fact to him. I said, ”I’m thinking about getting implant.” And I waited for his reply.

He laughed. Kind of hard! Hearing him laugh made me laugh! Sean has known me for his entire life and he knows firsthand that my thumbs are black and I kill every plant in my possession!

in my defense, my Dad had JUST died! I am so sad that I do not have ANY plans from his funeral anymore. It’s just a thought I have had recently. I told Sean about a commercial I saw for Urban Stems. He continued to laugh and told me that the flowers are shaking because they’re afraid of coming home with me!

When I think about it, maybe he is correct. maybe I should start with a Chia pet? Do they have elephants?