Month: November 2019

Bad Day(s)

So, yesterday was a bad day! A really bad day! Now, I will accept fault for the snow in Southeast Michigan. It is no secret that I have been setting my Christmas tree up and watching Hallmark Christmas movies as I do so. Well, as my Mom did so! I will admit that it is my fault that it has snowed because I can feel the Christmas vibes exuding from my house! So, I guess that snow would be in order. For that, I am truly sorry! My Mom, however, does not believe that I am that important in the grand scheme of God and the cosmos!

On Monday, a nurse from the Henry Ford Health System called my Mom because she has been listed as my caregiver. This woman, Geraldine, called to ask how I was doing. She wanted to make sure I was OK with the weather and the snow. She told my Mom that she usually calls all patients with mobility issues/restrictions when the weather changes. I am now listed on the patient list having met with both the physical therapist and occupational therapist. My Mom assured her that I do NOT go outside in the snow and this year, I was forced to turn my heat up by 3°.

My Mom saw how badly I felt yesterday and it was a continuation of Monday’s snow. It continues today as well but my Mom got me a present to make me feel better.

I am wearing it right now! I was excited to put it on today after my Mom washed my hair because it will help to keep me warmer. I don’t even care that it will smash my clean hair down! So, I apologize for making it snow with my premature Christmas tree setting up but know that I am gearing up for some bad days coming!

Random Songs in My YouTube Feed #9

I saw this video clip in my YouTube feed late last night and I shared it on Facebook so I wouldn’t forget it I’m still digging this song and I dug this movie and cried when I read the book. I used to read books in between my classes as my students filed in. Before the second bell, as I read, I started to cry. When my students asked me if I was OK, I nodded and told them that, “You know you are reading good writing when it evokes emotion!”

ALMOST Forgotten Tune #62 + Random Songs in My YouTube Feed #7

Okay, I checked my YouTube feed and this song came on. This song is Barwis in 2015.It also is Fifty Shades of Grey.

Now, I read all 3 of the books and they’re so much more than just smut! I also have seen all three of the movies and I’m not sure what to say about them! They kind of are smut. But seeing this video clip montage of Pride & Prejudice set to this song put me over the edge! I sent the link to my Mom because I have gotten her to love that movie also!

This song reminds me of driving myself to Barwis three times a week in the winter. I haven’t thought about this song until I saw the montage on my YouTube feed so I will share both the montage and video here:

Tune #41 Inspired by GMFB

So, this morning, on GMFB Kale began talking about the #1 song in 2010. It was:

He was saying that because that was the last time Matthew Stafford did NOT start the game for the Detroit Lions. I begin receiving tweets and getting notifications from my NFL Network app that he may not play on Sunday. L That made me really nervous and he ultimately did NOT play:

Since Friday, I kept saying this because of Kyle’s statement in passing before they cut to a commercial.

I tweeted him on Friday and I said it 1 million times so my Mom called me a “Weirdo” and a “Goofball.” I thought my wish would be granted and the Lions would get a win. That didn’t happen. That really bummed me out on Sunday but hearing that Train was #1 in 2010 made me think of littlep Sean and constantly belting that song out in the car!

I was too tired to tweet Kyle this morning but I have been thinking of that song as well as Pee Wee’s Playhouse today as well!

Phase 3 = Complete.

As I sat in my living room like a lump, my Mom completed Phase 3. She has always been a morning person and as time goes on with this disease, I really can’t comprehend that! I was so out of it this morning that I couldn’t even turn on GMFB because the Lions lost yesterday and I couldn’t even bring myself to hear about it.

She busted those beads out this morning very quickly! I think phase 4 is my favorite but I don’t know that we will do that today. When I say, “We,” it’s really, “She.” She knows how much joy my Christmas tree brings me so that is what she is doing and I will take it!

Phase 2 = Complete.

So, I guess I am just breaking norms these days! Decorating after Thanksgiving is not really an option. I’m OK with that because I’m not doing it and I could definitely use some happiness right about now! Phase 2 is complete.

Sean brought the other Christmas boxes upstairs and I opened one and this took my breath away.

It is the Hallmark Keepsake ornament from 2006. 2006 was the only year that Sean and I completed making a gingerbread house. I say “Completed” loosely because Sean was five and I had divided all of the candy as we were putting the sides together with icing. Sean had put little bit of candy onto the house and then asked me if we could just stop and could just eat the rest of the candy. I let him do that. It was really cute having a half finished house!

We were still living in our second apartment then and that year, the plumbing backed up into the basement storage units. Raw sewage smells really bad! We spent a couple of nights at my Mom’s house until it was all fixed. I threw the gingerbread house out because I would not let Sean eat in because it was sitting out when our apartment smelled disgusting! He didn’t really understand back then but it was gross!

I had planned on getting that ornament when I saw it but that year was really rough for me! It was the first year that myDaad wasn’t with me! Last year, I scoured the Internet to try to find it and I was able to It did not come until the day after Christmas so I will unveil it this year. I actually Accidentally got two of them and I told Sean that once he has it tree of his own, I will give him one. As for all of my other ornaments, he will have to wait until I am dead to get them!

Ornaments are not until Phase 4 so I have some time before I get to put it on the tree. I’m not even sure where I will put it yet though.

ALMOST Forgotten Tune #61

I’ve written about this before but in the spring of my senior year, I was cast as Dorothy in The Wiz. I bought this CD and listened to it constantly in my car and I belted it out all of the time! Stephanie Mills has some serious pipes and I was up for the challenge to sing these songs. It didn’t work out with the director and he was eventually fired before the show went on. I was crushed because I had worked really hard.

The school play it was a review that year instead and the new director knew that I had worked on the songs from The Wiz a lot so she incorporated this so into the show so I could sing it.

I’m not sure why this song popped into my head last night but I can’t stop hearing it play in my head and I see myself standing on the stage in my high school gym. I am barely awake but I put it up on YouTube and rested my phone on my chin as I t played. I still know all of the words but there is no way that I could get any of them out. I listened to the song play and began to cry.

Phase 1 = Complete.

I read an article not too long ago that stated that the longer you have your Christmas tree up, the happier you are. I am definitely a person who believes to NOT put your Christmas tree up until AFTER Thanksgiving! There has been one exception to that rule though. In 2006, the year that my Dad died, I put my Christmas tree up November 1st.

That’s right, I put my tree up BEFORR Sean‘s birthday. Because I was so broken that year, I needed time to get used to Christmas. Even though it was my first Christmas without my Dad, Sean was is only 5 and he needed a good Christmas to keep his mind off of our grief.

My Christmas tree is always a 6 phase process. I’m pretty particular and now my Mom puts my tree up because I can’t. She’s pretty particular as well; I get that from her.

With that article in her mind about being happier with the Christmas tree up, my Mom put mine up. Only phase 1 is complete and my Mom has left for the day.

So, even though it’s before Thanksgiving, I think I just need some happiness right about now and my Mom recognized that. I’m grateful for that and I can’t wait for the lights to go on the tree! (That’s phase 2)