My cousin, Kimmy, texted me some affirmations this morning because she read my blog post from yesterday and I seemed a bit down! Yesterday was a bit of a low point for me I suppose. My mom came over this morning to help me get ready for the day and I was laughing when she came in. I’ll post later about why I was laughing but with Kimmy‘s texts and my laughter, I wanted to make today a better day!
I checked my Facebook alerts on my phone when I was ready for the day and the admin of my favorite MS support group posted this:
She wished us a happy Friday and I listened to it as I was got my things together to make my garlic tea. (I drink it for health reasons). This song brings back a flood of memories from high school, when I was carefree and able-bodied. I played the song a few times as I got my garlic tea together. I chose not to think negatively today so I allowed myself to just think about all the happy memories from high school as this song played. The radio play for this song some 18 years ago was this version :
I remember driving around with my friends and yelling the part, “Karen, I love you!” as we drove. I don’t drink coffee so I continued to remain seated in the sun that shone through my kitchen window as I waited for the water to boil.
I could feel the sunshine on my face! I normally hide from the sun because it will melt me but, in the safety of my home, I Just allowed myself to enjoy that feeling for a little while. It was warm and I could feel my skin tingle as the sun kissed me. I miss that feeling so much! I knew that when I get too exhausted from that, I can just pass out in my wheelchair so that sun-kissed feeling was worth that. It was a bit overwhelming and I cried happy tears at feeling that feeling, even for just a short time.
As I fished the garlic out of the boiling water and added the lemon and honey, YouTube continued playing on my phone; a couple of really good songs from the 90s came on and I dug it! If I have not already, I will definitely post those songs as well. But right now, because I’m done with my tea and I’m feeling a little exhausted from those few minutes in the sun, I’ll have to close my eyes for a bit…