Reese helped me into Barwis yesterday. I got in and wiped my wheels off that were full of the snow that was coming down. I asked Phil before we began if I was going to get harnessed again today. He snapped “I don’t know!” I told him, “Don’t be mean to me again, Adam!”he kind of laughed at that and he stretched me a bit at the Kaiser machine. I was nervous about standing because my right leg was SO tight. I asked why it is doing this now? It hasn’t done it before. He told me it might be the cold that is causing this because it’s been SO cold for the past few weeks. Then he set my feet and told me to stand.
It was immediately difficult and I was envisioning that person standing behind me pushing my hips to the floor. Phil was sitting in front of me and he said as if to read my mind, “No one standing behind you pushing your hips down! Fight! Keep fighting!” I think that was what I needed to hear. I continued to fight and continually did quarter squats to try to get myself to stand upright. Eventually, I got myself to *BINK.* He told me to hold it there and keep standing. Both of my feet were on the floor this time and I was standing upright. It was SO difficult! I would stand until he told me to sit and rest. We did this a number of times and he would press on my lower spine to help me a little bit so I could *BINK.* I felt myself shaking, both my arms and legs. It was SO tiring! But, I would continue to stand until he told me to sit. My eyes were closed and I was picturing new pathways being set in my leg muscles so I continued to stand. It felt really good and I think that I knocked my OWN socks off! We fist bumped and I stood a few more times. I was COMPLETELY tired!
I am sitting on the table and we did leg curls and extensions. We haven’t done those in a very long time and it made me feel like I had a good showing at standing so I could complete this task as well. After we did some curls and extensions, Phil had me lay on my back and he stretched me for a while and then he told me to raise my knees (one at a time) to my chest and I STILL could do it!
I was I was SO tired yesterday. But it felt really good that I was doing better than I did on Wednesday. It’s almost like now I feel myself on the rise again. So that excited feeling of anticipation when you’re sitting in a rollercoaster and it’s click, click, clicking to the top. That’s how I feel right now. I know that it will stink going down and I don’t know how long it will last. But it’s nice going up right now. I’m excited. I wonder if I’ll get the guts to raise my arms?
Seems as though it might be…