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Why?!

I was frustrated yesterday because I figured out tht I am having difficulty posting pictures on my blog because I am still using my iPhone 7S. I think the latest update is non-compatible with the old technology of my iPhone 7S. I’ve had a blog for 7 1/2 years and have not had a problem. I guess this just proves that I need a newer phone but I’ll deal with that later.

That frustration is not the only reason I was having a bad day yesterday. So much so, I almost want to call it my 10th COVID-19 tears but the reason I was crying was not because of the pandemic. The pandemic has made it clear to me how unable I am now and that frustrates and saddens me very much!

These tears were more than the just the few I’ve shed before regarding my inability but I was straight up crying with a lot of tears streaming down my face.

I looked at my Mom and asked, “Why?! Why is this so difficult? Why does it hurt so much?! She didn’t have an answer for me but told me that she didn’t know, put her hand on my shoulder, and handed me tissue.

I’ve sat with this feeling all day today and wrestled with the fact of writing it in my blog because I want it to stay upbeat but luckily for me, these days are few and far between and ones that I can tolerate and get through. “Birthday Month” or not, these days come and I just needed to acknowledge it.

Annoying

When I didn’t make a haircut and wax appointment last March, I did not think it would be over an entire year that I did not cut my hair or wax my face and eyebrows! Since I’ve been living without haircuts for just over a year, I’ve decided one thing about long hair. It is INSANELY annoying!!! It’s almost as annoying as not being able to load pictures onto your blog post!!! I’ll post the picture of my hair as it currently stands but for right now, it’s in a fold-over (under) pony.


MyGirlL: A Sunroom

I wrote this yesterday but I can’t figure out how to insert more pictures so I will just share it now given that that is what Leia is doing right now!

Since the weather has begun to break, it’s obvious that Leia prefers to sunbathe. This is her on March 2nd when my Mom calls her in from outside:


She will think about coming in for a moment and sometimes my Mom can get her to come in by saying that she’s going to give her a, “Treat” but most times this is her reaction when my Mom calls her:

My Mom has told me that I should build a sunroom to my house for her. She has asked me a number of times and I tell her that I am NOT going to do that! This was Leia today:


    My Mom went outside to see that Leia had gotten grass all over her back by laying on the ground:


    Leia is still getting used to her outside bed because a.m. NOT A sunroom to my house for a dog!:

    Learn Something New Everyday

    A common theme in all of these Irish themed movies but I didn’t pay attention until I heard Darby O’Gill mentioned it that I started to think about it and I like Pierce Brosnan’s explanation in Laws of Attraction but I found this explanation on Wikipedia:

    Still not a drinker anymore but I wonder what it tastes like. Julianne Moore says it taste like, “Poo.” Learn something new every day!

    It’s Been a Year

    I have always loved this song since I was a little girl!:

    Even though what I am going to write has nothing to do with this song, I just wanted a reason to post it! Today marks a year that my Mom has been sheltering in place with me in my house.

    This song is a far cry from my Mom coming into my house before I was awake to strip my bed to wash the sheets. I was still asleep when she walked into my room that I had to take my mouthguard out as she was getting ready to take the sheets off of my bed. She helped me into my chair where I fell asleep and Sean woke up confused about me sleeping in the living room in my wheelchair.

    My Mom and I never had the mother-daughter angst when I was a child/teen and I lived with her and my Dad until I was 23 and Sean was three. I lead a very small life anyway and my day is pretty much scripted. I’ve written before about the fact that being quarantined and sheltered in place hasn’t really changed my life.

    Maybe things will change pretty soon and I will finally be able to get my eyebrows waxed and a haircut but it hasn’t been that bad with my Mom here! There are so many things that I can no longer do for myself and my Mom steps right in to help and doesn’t make me feel guilty about it!

    Yesterday was the 4th Friday of Lent

    AND my birthday!!! I enjoyed my FAVORITE Christmas cookies from my aunt Lola as I watched Jesus Christ Suerstar and had a large glass of milk! As I watched it, I thought about Caiaphas’s hat. That is so cool and I thought about The fact that if I was still, “High school Jenny” I totally would have rocked it! We’re talking about the person who had Cookie Monster purses and bow biters for her school shoes that I used in wore every day!

    But, thinking about the events of yesterday, and being my 39th birthday, I am too old for that now! I bought Cheeseheads for me and Sean that we DID wear while we’re watching the Packers when I was 28 but 39 is a little too old!!!

    I told my Mom that I feel 39 this morning but I think that feeling comes from having MS for 20+ years. Sean brought my mint chocolate chip ice cream cake that I was excited to eat and he also brought Red Robin which he ate in the kitchen and I ate in my bedroom.

    He also brought me presents that he showcased from the couch as I sat at the edge of the room in the doorway. He did a great job and choosing my presents!!! But before he showed me that, I realized yesterday that I have been low carbing it for a very long time! So, yesterday with the cookies, milk, and my guacamole burger and just a few fries. It proved to be too much! For all of my low carbing peeps, you know what happened! My birthday ice cream cake is still in the freezer and perhaps today I might have a sliver! We will have to see!!!

    Random Tune in my Facebook Feed #5 OR Gauges

    I came across this song in my Facebook feed at 1:54 this morning! Sleep, as usual, was evading me at that point. I saw what song it was and I clicked on it and thought to myself, “That’s Kevin‘s favorite band.” I met Kevin my freshman year of college. I haven’t seen him in 20 years!:

    As I watched the video, I noticed the gauges in his ears. I noticed that particularly because I actually helped Kevin change his gauges in his ears to the next larger size.

    I remember during my freshman year of college that gauges in your ears for guys and girls was really cool! I never did it though because I saw myself as a professional teacher one day. I opted for a cartilage piercing instead.

    So, Kevin asked me to change his gauges and I figured that was easy enough so I agreed. What I did not know is what it exactly entailed! Let me just cut the suspense and tell you that it is really gross!

    So, Kevin had gauges in his ears and he had a slightly larger pair in a little baggie in his hand and told me that I just needed to put them in. Because they were in his ears, he couldn’t do it by himself. He explained to me what I was going to do and I was just going to push they bottom of the gauge into the hole and then pop the top of the gauge into the hole so it was snug. But, they were slightly larger than the holes that were already in his ears. This meant that I had to really force them into the hole with my fingers. I never thought I wouldn’t be able to control my hands but I was grateful I could do it back then. That is, until I actually did it!

    I used my fingertips to force the top of the gauge into his ear but that slightly larger size was difficult to put into his ear! But, here’s the grossest part, the holes in his ears bled as a forced the larger gauge into them! I think we were sitting on the floor in my room as I pushed them into his ears because my wall mate, Marissa, had class.

    His ears bled as I stretched out the holes! I was not prepared for that! His earlobes were bright red and I asked him if it hurt. He said it did a little but a few days later they looked like they did when I met him. That was absolutely disgusting and I will never put gauges into someone’s ears again!

    This all happened 20 years ago but I still remember it! It was really gross!

    “Birthday Month” Day 6

    Yesterday was, “Birthday Month” Day 6. Going along with my Irish themed movies, I watched Far and Away last night. I hadn’t seen it since Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman were married and I felt like I was watching it for the first time last night. It fit in with my LOVE of Irish accents and greenery so I dug it. But I’m feeling rather, “MS-y” today. I may have to watch my tried-and-true movie that I watch when I don’t feel well, Sense and Sensibility.

    I ABSOLUTELY have NO problem watching the same five movies over and over again until Saint Patrick’s Day but I am open to any suggestions! My movies are: The Quiet Man, Laws of Attraction, Leap Year, Darby O’Gill and the Little People, and Far and Away. Since my birthday month falls during Lent, I watch Jesus Christ Suerstar on Fridays but my criterion are: Irish accents, greenery, and I would love traditional Irish dancing and castles if possible. Anyone have any suggestions?

    Skinny Jeans

    A Facebook friend of mine posted this a while back and it made me laugh!;

    I didn’t know that skinny jeans weren’t a thing anymore but I laughed as I thought of a student of mine back when they just got big. She had already known that purple was my favorite color and told me that I should wear a purple sweater and skinny jeans and that would be really cute!

    I remember smiling at her when she told me that and she said it to me a couple more times. It was the third time that I looked at her and told her that, “Honey, in order to wear skinny jeans, you have to be skinny!“. I was teaching from a manual wheelchair then and I told her that it may not look like it because I am sitting down but I have LOTS of junk in my trunk! She laughed at that and I think I got a, “No, Miss!”

    I did think of her when I wore a purple sweater and my purple chucks on a date even though I was wearing boot cut jeans. I saw this post on Twitter not too long ago and figured that I should write this post today because it is the final Saturday thatI will be 38!;

    I also thought of that student after reading this tweet. I don’t remember her name but I can still see her face.

    “Birthday Month” Day 2

    I really feel that I am killing two birds with one stone! Because it is my, “Birthday Month” and Saint Patricks Day is drawing closer, I figured to watch Laws of Attraction.

    I love this movie because it is jam packed with Irish accents, Irish dancers, castles, and greenery! I have seen this movie so many times but I still LOVE it!

    I was thinking of this song because it is in the movie as well and it reminds me of my friend Marilyn because it’s her wedding Song!

    My Mom actually sat down and watched this movie with me today. She told me that she has never seen the entire movie and I laughed because I have seen it SO many times!