My Life is Sad.

My Mom always tells me that I like sad music and I just tell her that my life is sad. I did not know how sad it would be 23 years ago when I was diagnosed with MS. Which at this point, the is a mother b*tch!


I do wonder what this song is about but I like it. What can I say, I like sad mood sick because my life is sad!

Parachute

Because it is August now, I was listening to my Train Apple Music playlist, and I heard this song:

I have a very vivid memory of driving to work, and I was listening to this album for the first time, and this song came on just as I was making that very weird Isosceles triangle type turn off of Dix and onto Goldsmith to go to work.

This album came out in 2009 and I think I was still in our 2nd apartment so I thought I had a social life ahead of me. Well, that didn’t happen, but I love this song!!!

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10 Pounds

I was thinking about my eye doctor appointment yesterday and it is going to take me a few more days to process, but thinking about the last time I got weighed. It was in June when I saw my PCP. That was the appointment where she told me that my weight is of no concern. Well, that’s the first time I heard that in my lifetime!

I thought of this song because based on my last weight and given my current weight, this song popped into my head because I lost ‘10 pounds’ without doing anything. But I don’t think I am in danger because I’ve been on nutrition shakes for over a year. I just thought of this song and I love her:

I think it is strange that now I am completely in the realm of the infirmed… 😒😒😒…

I Can’t!

I posted on Facebook yesterday a video of the top 20 songs that you forgot were Awesome! And I must tell you, pretty much every song was pretty awesome!!! but then there’s this song which takes me back to being 12-year-old “Jen.” I was “Jenny” back then. And this was my jam!!!:

As I was searching in YouTube for this song, I actually found this video that has this song the movie in it and I think I have pretty much forgotten that movie! It is way too hot to watch it now, but I think I will watch it in the fall. I’m racking up movies to watch when I can see straight. I told my Mom today that I can’t see past my pain right now because I can’t!

Rando Tune #49

I think that it’s the heat! I have been doing puzzles because it keeps my mind off of the pain I feel in this heat! I have been listening to to my Gavin DeGraw playlist, and then songs just play after that. A lot of Train, The Script, Sara Bareilles. I don’t mind and just let it play.

I have heard this song so much! I’m not sure if we were living in our house yet but I remember this song being back when I thought that I could have a social life. How dumb?! Here’s the song that made me cry, and I’m not sure why, but I think it’s the heat. I am barely holding on!!!

Martika?!!!!

I watched this entire video and totally enjoyed it!!!:

There were definitely some bangers on this list! I texted my oldest brother and told him that I am about six or seven and hearing these songs from our basement of our house through the floorboards.

But, Martika started it off?! That was my jam!!! A Kids Incorporated alumn?!

Fergie was on that show too, but she was just Stacy back then. I had to watch this video a number of times💯💯💯

An Encore Performance

I told my Mom about the movie that I watched yesterday so I decided to watch it again today! She ended up coming back here early today, so I decided this would be an encore performance and I restarted the movie and we saw it together. We haven’t watched a movie together in a long time! Because I watched the same movie again, I didn’t post the song that I had forgotten about but then I remembered when I heard it: