I’ve been searching for this song for three days! Ever since I saw, The Secret: Dare to Dream.
I was trying to find a lyric I could search for to get the song and I wasn’t having any luck, so then I searched: “What song is the woman singing when Bray is fixing Miranda‘s roof?”
And low and behold:
I’ve decided that I really like that movie and my Mom hasn’t seen the whole thing through since the first time we watched it but I’m OK with putting that on. Repeat!
My Mom suggested this movie and we saw the trailer a few movies ago so I was game!:
I really liked it! I told her that I’m down for a rewatch!
The other day, when I talked to Sean about my “Daddy” playlist, he told me that there were two songs that I was missing from that playlist. I was surprised and I asked him, “Which songs?” He simply said, “The Jetplane song.”
I gasped because I could not believe that I forgot that song! I searched for it as we were still talking on the phone. I found it and then put it into the playlist and let me ’splain ya about that song:
The song he was talking about is Peter Paul and Mary. Leaving on the Jet Plane.
That song was a special song to my Parents when my Dad left for Vietnam. I have known that song since I was a child!!!
Sean knows that song because we lived with my Parents until Sean was three years old and I was in college. I graduated with my undergraduate degree on May 1, 2005. We moved out on our own on August 1, 2005.
I was studying to be a teacher and I read parenting magazines all of the time. I was MORE THAN AWARE of the importance of reading to my child!!! I read to him every night! Sometimes as many as three books! What I realize now is that I was so exhausted because MS was raging through my body that sometimes I could only read one book or sometimes two.
On those days, because Sean was still awake, I would ask him if he wanted to hear, “Grandfather, and Abuela’s song?” by asking that, if he agreed, I would sing Peter Paul, and Mary’s song, sometimes up to three times until Sean was asleep.
I could just lay in bed with my eyes closed and sing until Sean was asleep. I listened to that song tonight before I started writing and it brought me to tears! It brought me to tears because I no longer can sing. I don’t have enough strength to get enough air into my lungs to let it come out sounding good.
I cried about that tonight, and my Mom said to me when she saw me crying, and I told her that I can no longer sing, she said,”You are still Sean‘s mom” and I know that she is right but today, I kind of wish that I could still sing!:
So, I wrote about that Maroon 5 song that I added to my “Daddy” playlist. I hadn’t heard it for a while so I played it last night when I read over my blog post. Well, I lost it!… Again. 17 years later!!!
I turned this song on and as I heard the opening bars, I saw myself driving to the School of Education at U of M Dearborn. It was just off main campus and driving there from my work, seeing that I have lived in Dearborn for my entire life, certain landmarks hold deep memories for me!
I think that I have written about this memory before, but it was just after my Dad died when I was still in school to get my masters degree. The School of Education building is on the way to the Henry Ford dialysis center. I think it had been just months after my Dad had died and I was driving to school after I had to teach for the day.
Something that I have realized now that I no longer work, it was SO BEYOND tiring to work for the 12 years that I did work! So, I was tired and I still needed to go to class. As I was driving to school in a familiar environment, I saw a car that was my Dad’s car! My Dad had stopped driving for a few years before he died but you couldn’t tell me that then when that car turned into the dialysis center.
I gasped and turned into the parking lot of the building where my class was. I always parked in the front in the disabled parking. I pulled into the spot, and I lost it! I told Sean that the other day. I never told him that before. He was only four. but 17 years later, I thought I could handle it, but when I heard the bars, turns out that I can’t!!!:
I chose this video of this song because I think it’s more dramatic and I can’t believe that it affected as much as it did, correction: as much as it DOES! 17 years later?!!!
I have written before how I shared a playlist with my oldest nephew, not too long ago. He asked me about a playlist that I made for my Dad. I made it for my Dad’s 55th birthday and I gave him 55 singles to commemorate the day. I did not think that in less than three months, he would be gone.
Right after I sent that to my nephew, I sent it to my son just so he would have it as well. Yesterday, he decided to tell me about myself, and he said that I shared that playlist with my nephew. Before he said anything more, I told him that I sent that playlist to him as well that same day, and he should look for it!
He told me to send it to him again so I did, but I told him that I added two Toby Keith songs for my Mom because we listened to Toby Keith a lot after my Dad died! Then I told Sean that I added two songs for me. Maroon 5 and U2.
He called me when he was driving home and he told me that he did not recognize the Maroon 5 song and he waited until Adam Levine started singing, and then he said, “I’ve heard that song 10 million times!” And I just responded with, “Because I played it 10 million times!”:
We watched this movie yesterday instead of watching the ball drop:
I watched it again today to see anything that I missed the first time through. I didn’t get why Oliver does not like surprises; but now I know!
I dug this song the first time I saw this movie and so the second time I saw it, I searched for it, and found it:
OF COURSE!!!:
But this song has also been speaking to me, given the current state of my condition:
This is how I rang and my New Year:
All of these holidays seem to run together now…
I’ve had this blog for over 10 years, but there is so much about it that I STILL don’t know. I took the advice from my colleague who said, “It’s not a thesis! Just write.”
That’s what I’ve been doing and the site constantly updates and I could not see the total number of views that I have had this entire year. I don’t even know how I stumbled across this, but I did today:
Wait. What?! The total number of people who have read what I have written is more than what I made my first year teaching.
I will start my third time through the Bible tomorrow, and I am so excited because in reading the Bible for a second year (that I just finished), it was in color!!! I have heard the entire narration of Bible in the year, but hearing it a second time, made it all come to life!!! I was even hearing stuff I didn’t really understand before when I was listening yesterday?!
My first time through the Bible was so shocking because I thought I knew the Bible because I was born into a Catholic family, was baptized, received first holy communion, and was confirmed and went to a Catholic school for 12 years I was a Bible Quiz champion who never got a question wrong ALL THREE YEARS. I have said that religion is religion, but God is God!!! I am so excited to see what my third time around the sun will be like, you should join me! I will be there listening, and praying for you as well!
Just a note: I listen to the Bible in a year podcast on YouTube in the morning to the Bible in the year podcast on the Hallow app. as I am going to sleep. So maybe I have already read the Bible three times?! Either way, I’m doing it again!!! You can come along!!!