I wrote yesterday, how this song popped into my head once I saw myself in the elevator mirror:
I was originally thinking this was a second department song, but it didn’t come out until I was living in my house! I was already teaching Reading! Sean was not a Selena Gomez fan! He was when we lived in our second apartment, because he was all about Wizards of Waverly Place!
It took me a minute, but, this is 100% Dodgeball!!! I heard this song so much because on Fridays the kids played dodgeball in their PE class! That’s why I know that song because my classroom was just off of the cafeteria/gym. retrospectively, that really wasn’t the best place for me to teach reading to below level students but that’s what we did.
Friday I had my doubleheader. It was a success, but I am not ready for what comes next! I had two appointments and I have two new return dates. One in May and one in June I told my Mom this morning, “I’m not ready for this.”
I spent yesterday recovering from Friday, but I needed to wear my contacts because I had to pillage. All three of my appointments were in the same building on Friday. I started out on the second floor and then took the elevator down to the lab, and then took the elevator back up to Internal Medicine.
I’ve been going to that office for years, I used to take Sean there for his pediatrician. This is the first time I can remember, taking the elevator, and actually facing the doors. I hadn’t seen myself in the mirror for years!!! Once the doors shut, I stared at myself and shock.
This song popped into my head when I was staring at myself, because I thought that, “I am NOT ready!”:
I have been chubby for my entire life! But once the doors shut, my coat was hanging off of me. I stared at myself in disbelief. Six times we were in the elevator, and six times, I was not okay with it and I was reminded that I am not ready for this!
I did not get weighed at Internal Medicine this time but I will do it in three months. I will need to buy a new coat next year. I’ve had that one since Sean was in high school! This time, Dr. Chamas, my internist, wants to see me again in three months. Wait. What?! Three months?! I have NEVER gone just three months between appointments.
But I think she is seeing all of my upcoming appointments and wants to talk to me about them. I will see my new doctor in May for genetic testing and I will also see my endocrinologist for the first time in May the week before that.
I have always wanted to be skinny, but not like this! I really am NOT ready for this…
I am going over in my head constantly what needs to happen tomorrow. I need to wake up at 6:30 in the morning and I will get out of bed at 7. I will start my morning routine at 10 and once we are finished, we will leave for the doctor.
I had forgotten until last night that tomorrow, we have to get a new tens unit. The cool thing about that is that Binson’s is located in the SAME complex as I will be at for my doctor appointments AND my blood work.
So right now, it is the quiet before the storm, and I will just sit and talk with my Mom tonight until “Go Time” tomorrow.
“Go Time” had a slight change of plan this month. Instead of having two doubleheaders, one today and one on Friday, today I just got my haircut. My doctor was injured so he was out of the office today. I just ordered supplements from them instead.
I like that I was able to place all of my orders! I think I will crash tonight because I am a little tired and then I will twilight sleep on Thursday night because that “Go Time” is a bit intense to say the least!
I’m glad that all of these appointments are in the same exact building because I have a specialist appointment at 2:30 and then an appointment at 4:10 with my internist. I have already spoken to her and she ordered bloodwork for me to get done between appointments.
I am just a little bit nervous about this one! But after Friday, I can crash big time and then the next day out is April 17.
Today is the eve of ‘go time,’ and my Mom has already gone to pick up the van. I have already set my alarms, went over my routine for the morning before I get out of bed, and I think I am set. I learned something new today! I think it’s crazy how I STILL learn something new every day!
Let me ‘splain ya:
I have been Catholic for 42 years and went to a Catholic school for my entire 12 years from kindergarten to senior year. Today, I learned a new term. I heard it while I was praying the Lenten prayer for today on Hallow. Jeff Cavens said today begins “Passiontide.”
It’s kind of like when I read the Bible for the first time. I was a Bible Quiz champion who never got a question wrong for all the years that I was there! Upon my first reading of the Bible, I quickly discovered that I didn’t really know the Bible before! I am currently in my third read through, and I have never heard the term ‘Passiontide.’ I looked it up on Google:
I’ve only known about Holy Week and those days. Holy Thursday is my favorite day of the Catholic liturgical year and I think it has been for my entire life! I remember watching the ‘Washing of the Feet’ when I was a child at church. They don’t do that anymore after Covid and I don’t even go to church anymore. I just go sitting in my living room watching my TV and I am part of The Virtual Front Pew.
I learned in my 21st year of having MS that it ain’t no joke, and I needed help to get through! I seem to have found it on Hallow. I started with the Bible in a Year and that segued into Hallow. I’m really digging this peace that I have found!!! This is difficult, and it hurts, but I still have peace and for that, I am ZBEYOND grateful!!!
I saw a random duet on Facebook today, maybe it was Twitter, or YouTube, but it took me back to when my Dad had just died! So, naturally, it messed me up! The duet I saw was of Pink! singing with Kelly Clarkson and they were singing Pink!’s song:
Seeing this random duet set me so back! When the song came out, I was still driving and my hair was very long. I recently had a conversation with my brother and we were talking about the fact that we still choke up and cry when we think of Dad and I told him that eventually it will be a smile, but we both agreed… NOT YET!!!
So, today is St. Patrick’s Day, and I’m rocking my shirt! I took this picture last year and my hair is shorter now, but;
I clearly remember that day, it’s when I got my state ID renewed, and I was trying too hard to handle it myself! That was a really rough day, but it got done! Today, I did nothing! I am just gearing up for my two doubleheaders next week!
Since it’s St. Patrick’s Day, I always wanted red hair when I was a child! I sent this real to my brother. If you have Facebook, you can watch it yourself:
I woke up today, and I felt ‘wonkier’ than ever! I can say ‘wonkier’ because I don’t think ‘wonky’ is even a word, but it is for me. It describes how it was feeling this morning, or afternoon really, when I awakened. I really couldn’t understand why I was feeling NOT well at all until I heard the rain on my roof!!!
Of course I was going to feel terrible because it’s raining! I pillaged today and I am gearing up for ‘go time’ next week. I have two double headers. One on Wednesday and one on Friday! Wish me luck!
Well, I realized pretty early on, when I woke up that putting in my contacts in was NOT going to be a thing today! I have been wearing contacts for 30 years now, and I have muscle memory when putting them into my eyes, but muscle memory is NOTHING when I don’t have enough hand control to put my contact on my finger to put it into my eyes. Subsequently, this is what I saw today for the entire day:
I needed to get my hair washed today and my Mom said that we should watch Ben Hur while she was washing it. I agreed and put it on. It might’ve been about 15 minutes into the movie when my Mom realized that I was not wearing my contacts. I told her that it was okay and that I have seen Ben Hur before.
I have seen that movie for my ENTIRE life so I know what’s going on! I did wheel up close to the desk under my TV to watch when Jesus gave Judah water. I knew enough to cry! I also was aware of the Roman soldier’s face of embarrassment and shame when he tells Jesus that Judah is not supposed to get water and Jesus silently looks at him.
I was prepared to watch the entire movie, but my Mom got tired and she is laying down so I stopped it just as the second half began! We will watch it tomorrow when I have my contacts in! It’s still Lent!
We just watched the second half of Ben Hur. That movie gets me every time, especially because I’m an adult now! The second half is the chariot race and when Judah gets his sister from the leper colony. I bought this movie when Sean was 10. We watched it for the first time together. It’s our Easter staple! I’ve already seen it three times this year… It was made in 1959, but I absolutely love it and still think it is Epic!!! I still have two more weeks of Lent to watch it!
