I realized this today. I am not sure why but I am unsettled. The only reason I know this is because there is only one other time in my life where I changed my gum out three times in pretty much an hour. I was chewing my gum so fast that the flavor was taken out pretty quickly!
I have yet to bounce back from Thursday. Now, my recovery time is a FULL WEEKEND each time I leave the house! But I’m going to see my naturopath on Tuesday. after that, I can crash until June 19.
I saw a little over 3/4 of the movie Burnt. I will finish it tomorrow. I love that movie!!!
I met my endocrinologist today. I did this because I am a ‘rule follower.’ What I learned from her superior is that my bloodwork said that I am a -2.8 and you have osteoporosis when you are -2.5.
I see my naturopath on Tuesday. Actually, it’s a substitute for my naturopath in the same office, because my naturopath is injured. I told My. Mom today as I was thinking about my chosen MS plan I think I am Eastern medicine but I still check in with Western Medicine.. That’s why I saw her today. I think that I will write more about this tomorrow because I am exhausted!
She wanted me to give me blood sample but my appointment was so late in the day that the lab was closed. Or at least it was closing in 15 minutes and it was too far away for us to get there. She told us to give the blood sample and my next appointment, which is next month with my internist.
So, in summary, I now will see my endocrinologist once a year in May just like I am seeing my neurologist once a year in August. I started that when I was teaching because it was the summer when I would see her. So much has changed with this disease progression, it’s kind of making my head spin a little bit…
Sean sent me this picture a couple days after Mother’s Day and he asked me where he got this from:
He asked me, “Is this red?! And when I said yes, he asked me how he got it!
I told Sean that he didn’t get it from my side of the family! And then I broke down his dad’s side of the family. Sean’s grandma is Polish and I think the red beard might come from somewhere in Sean‘s grandpa‘s line.
But, then I just told Sean, I have always wanted to be Irish with red hair, so I guess it’s OK if something that I made, that came out of my body, has red hair in his beard! And then we both laughed
Oh yeah, when we got to the salon, Both my hairdresser and her sister, (who is my Mom‘s hairdresser) noticed and commented that my hair is curly. Wait. What?!!!!
Well, it is! Fat a lotta of good, that has done me! I have always, ALWAYS wanted curly hair! My Dad had curly hair, and two of my brothers had curly hair! Even my nephews have curly hair! What about me?! I really wanted it! But to get it now is kind of like a slap in the face!
My hair is short now. Even shorter than my reverse bob that I got when I was 26. It would have been nice to have long flowing curls! There’s no point to me having it now! As we were driving home, my Mom just said, “Skinny legs and curly hair.” and just said, “Fat lotta good!”
I made Sean come with me to see this movie at the theaters when he was like nine because I wanted to see it and he just went along to get snacks and popcorn. This is who I wanted to be for my whole life growing up:
So, I left my house today. My hair is cut and my eyebrows are waxed. I am set to meet my endocrinologist tomorrow. I think that I’m a little bit nervous. My Mom asked me why I was nervous yesterday and I told her, “Because this is serious now.”
I really seem to be collecting doctors now. I got two new ones this year and that was AFTER my bone density scan in February. I will need to go get bone density scans every two years now. I have never had one of those (bone density test) but I think it’s some thing that now I KNOW that I have osteoporosis. So this MS is serious. I never thought that it would get this serious in a million years!!!
But that’s enough talk about that. While I was getting my haircut, I heard this song and I had two memories that came to the forefront of my mind:
I have been thinking about this. The last few times we went to get our haircut, I always was hearing songs from my childhood, and this is one of them! I first thought of an abstract painting from an art fair somewhere that hangs in my dentist. Well, it used to. I still go to the same dentist that I did when I was a child! My Mom, me, and Sean go there!
But just after I thought about that painting, I thought about a conversation I had with someone that was quite intimate! I asked him what kind of music he listens to when he’s working out! I asked him that because the day before at Barwis, it was a big deal between the trainers about which Playlist/radio station that we would listen to!
I was completely floored by his answer!!! He very matter-of-factly, told me without hesitation. He even told me about his rituals. He told me that he put his earbuds in (this was probably eight or nine years ago) and then puts his hood on and he jams out to 80s Rock Love Songs!!! (maybe he said power Ballads) but I completely completely knew what he was talking about!!!
When I heard that song at Classic Cutz, I immediately thought of my dentist, but directly after that, I thought of this person and working out to this song. We are close in age so it’s believable that he could dig 80s rock love songs! I know that I do!
We watched Peanut Butter Falcon today and afterward I saw this on Facebook and this is by far my FAVORITE Mother’s Day post!!!:
I laughed out loud when I saw this from a Facebook friend from high school! I was a Junior when this song came out! It was my jam!!!
The ENTIRE time I played this song in my car, watched it on TV in my Parents living room on MTV, and heard it playing in the mall while I was shopping with my friends, I NEVER once thought that I would ACTUALLY be a ‘baby mama’ one day. But alas, here we are!
I watched this video just after I saw this post and I was back in my Parents’ living room and they had beige carpet back then. My Mom has hardwood floors now.
My Mom found this picture in my basement. It was attached to one of Sean‘s projects when he was young:
This picture commemorates the very first time I met Sean. He was eight hours old and I was so surprised at how small he was! He did not have a name for three days. I did not know that I would leave the hospital without him and that it would be 31 days before he would come home with me!
That was such a hard time! But this picture is 22 1/2 years old. The first thing I said to him was, “ Hi. I’m ya mom.”
So, I saw half of a Hallmark movie maybe a week and a half ago and I liked it. I knew that the movie would be on again sometime soon so I would catch the beginning half this time. This was the movie:
I liked that. I was surprised that this movie came on and I was able to see it from the very beginning! So these kids, are doing a family tree for a class project. The little girl is the product of IVF. They find her biological father in true hallmark movie fashion! I will say this movie is NO A Country Wedding or Harvest Moon. But I really liked it!
I have been a diehard Hallmark channel movie fan since 2009 when we moved into this house! I really liked the cheesy dad jokes! I heard the first one the second half of the movie that I saw first when this kid says that his dad calls them, “Ice Cubes” because they are from Iceland and Cuba.
But I must say that the thing I liked the best was when the girl’s mom has a best friend named Maura and she was talking with the woman about meeting the dad. And the woman does not want to meet him because he is a professional musician. The best friend says, “So, you don’t want to meet your long lost bad boy baby daddy?” that statement made me laugh audibly!!!
So, after I got out of bed and rolled into my living room, and while I was washing my hands, I told my Mom, “It smells like our apartments!” because my Mom made brownies this morning while I slept. They were still baking when I woke up.
It’s been a really long time since I made brownies in my house. I’m not really able-bodied anymore. I never thought that it would get like this but that is how it is!
My Mom told me that she always forgets how easy it is to make brownies. I told her that is why I would make them! They were so easy to make and then me and Sean could have something sweet! I would buy the brownie mixes when they were on sale, 10 for $10. I always had brownie mix in the cabinet in both of our apartments.
I remember that I would make three boxes to take to my work. I would put them in a plastic container, separated by paper towel and just leave them on the table in the teachers lounge. Overtime, I would have to hand deliver brownies to the classrooms of teachers teaching during first hour to make sure they got a brownie.
I smiled when I thought about how much my colleagues loved my brownies today as I ate two of them and I didn’t/don’t even feel guilty!!!
Yesterday, I had to change my visual field test that was scheduled for July 3 to August 13. That’s my life or now. Doctors appointments. But I’m OK with that. I saw the change in MyChart and then I saw that I will meet my endocrinologist in nine days.
I heard the sound of slick wheels driving down the road and I cringed. This weather is terrible for my body!
But, I was taken back to my very first Target run at WMU. It was with Marissa, my wall mate and Tonya who lived down the hall. Marissa had shotgun and I told her she was in charge of the radio. This song came on, and she started singing it so loudly, and she said to us in the car, “Oh, you know the words!” we all laughed and started singing, and that was the icebreaking moment at WMU for me.
Thinking about this day, I can STILL see it so clearly, it made me smile.
