I woke up today, and I felt ‘wonkier’ than ever! I can say ‘wonkier’ because I don’t think ‘wonky’ is even a word, but it is for me. It describes how it was feeling this morning, or afternoon really, when I awakened. I really couldn’t understand why I was feeling NOT well at all until I heard the rain on my roof!!!
Of course I was going to feel terrible because it’s raining! I pillaged today and I am gearing up for ‘go time’ next week. I have two double headers. One on Wednesday and one on Friday! Wish me luck!
Well, I realized pretty early on, when I woke up that putting in my contacts in was NOT going to be a thing today! I have been wearing contacts for 30 years now, and I have muscle memory when putting them into my eyes, but muscle memory is NOTHING when I don’t have enough hand control to put my contact on my finger to put it into my eyes. Subsequently, this is what I saw today for the entire day:
I needed to get my hair washed today and my Mom said that we should watch Ben Hur while she was washing it. I agreed and put it on. It might’ve been about 15 minutes into the movie when my Mom realized that I was not wearing my contacts. I told her that it was okay and that I have seen Ben Hur before.
I have seen that movie for my ENTIRE life so I know what’s going on! I did wheel up close to the desk under my TV to watch when Jesus gave Judah water. I knew enough to cry! I also was aware of the Roman soldier’s face of embarrassment and shame when he tells Jesus that Judah is not supposed to get water and Jesus silently looks at him.
I was prepared to watch the entire movie, but my Mom got tired and she is laying down so I stopped it just as the second half began! We will watch it tomorrow when I have my contacts in! It’s still Lent!
We just watched the second half of Ben Hur. That movie gets me every time, especially because I’m an adult now! The second half is the chariot race and when Judah gets his sister from the leper colony. I bought this movie when Sean was 10. We watched it for the first time together. It’s our Easter staple! I’ve already seen it three times this year… It was made in 1959, but I absolutely love it and still think it is Epic!!! I still have two more weeks of Lent to watch it!
You see, CCA was my ONLY “Big Girl” job. I was diagnosed with the MS when I was in college and I was hired in at CCA as an English teacher in 2005. I taught seventh grade English for five years while I was in grad school to get my reading specialist endorsement. I taught reading for seven years but then MS had something to say about it.
I am shocked at the turn MS has taken, and it’s not fun at all but seeing this reminds me of the GREAT people I worked with for so long!!! This was the NICEST birthday surprise!!!
This song keeps popping into my head, and because I am into country music right now, I have a memory of pulling out of my carport and going over the speed bumps leaving our apartment complex as this song is playing. I was still driving with my feet then, I think:
So, it was Friday when I realized that my birthday is on Tuesday. This is most surprising to me, because I always make a big deal my birthdays!
Thinking about this, I am more than surprised at myself. What is going on?! I think there are two things happening at the same time. I never really thought about this, but it is really affecting me! My aunt Rita was 42 when she died and I will be 42 on Tuesday. That’s just crazy to wrap my mind around!!!
But I also have been saying the last few days that 23 years of MS ain’t no joke!!! Because it’s not! I think it’s stopped being just a ‘mean’ disease at about Year 20 and now it is just a ‘mother b*tch!’ That is the swearword I heard from two men yelling at with dented cars because they had just gotten into an accident. They were still trying to master the English language at that point. I was just a kid and I thought it sounded funny but now, after having MS for 23 years, that’s a GREAT explanation of how I feel!
So, I saw this a while back and I liked it and I knew that Sean had talked about Jelly Roll before so I was going to ask him about it. I sent the clip to Sean and he told me that she did a really good job but Jelly Roll also does a really good job! I told him that I would have to hear it. I reminded him that I have been a Kelly Clarkson fan since she won American Idol. I asked him if this would be like, “Hurt” for me as well?
When I was listening to this song, my Mom thought she was yelling, and that was a little off-putting to me. As a former English teacher, I listen to the lyrics and I liked how she’s sang them. but then I heard Jelly Roll sing it as well. I told Sean that his face tattoo was just as off-putting as my Mom thinking that Kelly Clarkson was yelling!
I do listen to Jelly Roll sing this song on Apple Music while I am mindlessly playing my Traffic Escape! game. I can’t see his face tattoo when I’m listening to a playlist! So, I think this is just like, “Hurt” in reverse.
Let me ‘splain ya:
I was introduced to the song, “Hurt” by Johnny Cash first:
I thought that Johnny Cash wrote this song! It was totally believable to me, but then a little while later, I heard that it’s actually a Nine Inch Nails song so I had to hear that:
Well, obviously, Johnny Cash is better! But I think for Save Me, I might have to listen to Jelly Roll without seeing his face tattoos! So, it’s Hurt in reverse!
I’ve been listening to this song every night when I am taking my night pills, eating my Atkins peanut butter cup, brushing my teeth, and flossing. I have told Sean that I would TOTALLY line dance to this song if I still could:
But listening to it last night made me think of another song…:
There’s something about the word ‘sugar’ here… ya think?! I think that I have been missing listening to Sara… maybe that will be my April faves?
So, all month, I have been listening to my Country playlist on Apple Music and mindlessly playing Traffic Escape. Just yesterday, I heard a song that reminds me of one of my Barwis Methods trainers. I gasped when I heard it and I stopped playing the game and put my phone on my chest and got lost in my memories! A few songs later, it happened again, and I was reminded of a different! trainer and did the same thing!
Well, Phil and Michael, this is for you boys! It’s a Barwis medley!:
I knew that the ‘changing of the guard’ for my chapstick would be quite mundane and anticlimactic, which it was! If you remember, I was going from ‘bag’ to ‘bag’:
I finished the Vanilla Bean on Sunday, just after I went to church on TV. So I had a Vanilla Bean-Pomegranate mix on Sunday night. I finished the bag of Pomegranate chapstick today so now I am just on pomegranate until the weather changes and then move over to Cucumber Mint.
But that is also NOT the ONLY excitement in my day today! This is only the second time this has happened for me but it will be happening now for the rest of my life. That second knee surgery was a doozy for sure!!!:
After my two knee surgeries and having MS for over 20 years, I will be taking one of these every night for the rest of my life. Ibuprofen 800 just takes the edge off! So, this is all an anti-climactic ho-hum of chronic illness I guess…
