Scared.

Today, I had the worst choking fit that I have had to date. I was eating my lunch and it came out of nowhere! I had just taken a little bit of a gruel to eat. Really?! It was such a small amount of food!

I am no stranger to choking and I adjust my chair accordingly. At this point, I just calmly adjust the joystick to move the gears of my chair so I can sit up to open my airways to finish choking.

I am having a very hard time with the weather right now! It is doing terrible things to my body with the extremely inconsistent change in temperature! So, I was having a hard time adjusting my chair. I was frantically trying to change the levers to allow me to set up so I could clear my throat.

In that time, I continued choking and pressed the horn on my chair, my Mom came over and I waved my hand and I think was able to choke out,, “Sit up.”

She was able to adjust my chair, so I was able to get air into my lungs. As I continued choking, tears were stinging my eyes and once I was able to stop choking, my Mom took her headphones off because she was on the phone and asked me if I wanted a hug.

For me, there is something about my Mim’s voice! Tears started streaming down my face as I nodded silently. She hugged me and I let the tears flow freely, because this absolutely made me so scared!!!