Things have been coming fast and hard in terms of my disease progression and my subsequent losses. I have yet to have things slow down but I am definitely praying for it to!!!
Thinking about this afternoon, I definitely hope that this is a one off” for sure! I have been wearing contacts for the past 28 years. Just last night, I reminded my mom about how my son used to notice that I would pop my contacts out of my eyes with my long fingernails.
no, it is necessary for me to keep my finger nails clipped to the knob because I cannot control my fingers enough to have my finger nails touch my eyeball anymore.
So, I put my contacts in and then have to put my glasses on. Sean didn’t understand why I was doing that but I explain to Sean that I have had optic neuritis for 22 years so I have a prism on the lens of my right eye to allow me to see clearly. Without the glasses on, my eyes pull in different directions.
When you do something for 28 years, it’s a lot of muscle memory. But what I am dealing with now is loss of ability. My hand strength has been steadily decreasing even though ice cream is my therapy buddy for 17 minutes a day during a rosary that I pray.
I do my left eye first because I am left-handed. Today, I was having the most difficult time on the ceiling the package with the brand new contact N. I wear daily contacts now because I can’t keep track of them anymore. It’s easiest for me to just throw them out after one use.
I was having the most difficult time peeling away the foil to expose the contact in the Celine solution. I think it was about the fourth time I tried that tears started stinging my eyes and I gave my mom a pitiful look as she asked if she could open it for me. It was then that I started to cry. She just broke the seal and allowed me to open it up and I was able to put my contact in my left eye.
I held my breath as I started to pull The foil back from the plastic container with the contact in it. Thank God that it pulled away from the plastic easily! I lit out the brass that I was holding and I really hope that it is just a ‘one off!’