Faint OR Saltine Crackers

I first met with my nutritionist on October 12. It was a virtual appointment and I see her again the day before Thanksgiving.

I have been drinking two protein shakes for breakfast and lunch for probably a couple years now. Chewing has become so difficult and I can eat some normal food for dinner, but that is pretty much limited to eggs, beans and tortillas.

We specifically talked about this because I have been losing weight and I am not trying. I have been noticing that I have been starting to feel faint before my dinner. We decided to change up one of the protein shakes with overnight oats. My friend Renee, introduced that to me and it seems to be working out well for me given my chewing limitations.

So, today I did not have some ready for lunch so I had two shakes and man, am I faint as my Mom is making dinner! I was able to eat some saltine crackers as I waited.

Now, this is a very foreign occurrence for me! I have been ‘low carbing’ it for most of my adult life! I have known since 2007 that carbs are not my friend but given my dietary limitations, I have to have crackers that gives me just a little bit of energy that I need.

It feels extremely strange to actively consume carbs but I need the energy because this MS fatigue 21+ years ain’t no joke! I never thought that eating would be difficult and I think it’s sad that I am losing weight and I’m not happy about it because I’m not doing it on purpose even though I always did it on purpose for my life before MS…